I like wine. Sometimes I really like it. I typically have a glass every night with dinner and certainly on a 'girls night'. I think I was just destined to me a wine lover. I don't go for the fancy-schmancy type stuff, and you really don't have to spend a lot of money on a nice bottle, whether you prefer reds or white. In fact, some of the more expensive stuff I found to be not so pleasing not to mention a terrible hangover after two glasses. Regardless, I think the whole wine loving thing has always been around me.
My mom has said that I was a very 'active baby' while she was pregnant with me. I moved around a lot, especially when it came to mealtime. I find that pretty funny. How did I know she was going to eat? She also said there was an evening close to the end of her pregnancy where I just wouldn't settle. She was miserable, fat and very tired. Apparently my parents had people over for dinner or something like that and she finally took one sip of wine so she could relax and go to bed. That one sip settled me down and mom was able to rest. She also told me another episode when I barely a year old and I was having a real fussy night. I had been sick, or so she tells me, and was just crying my head off. Mom had a glass of wine close by and according to her, I grabbed her glass and wouldn't let go, so she let me take a swig. Once I had me a big ol' sip, mom says I had a big smile on my face, stopped crying and calmed down enough to go to sleep peacefully. Guess I should thank my mom for my wine loving habits.
If you wear makeup then you will know what I'm talking about. A lot of the shades of blush, lipstick, eyeshadows, foundations have basic colors but the marketing part is where they subliminally make you buy their product. 'Sassy Pink', 'Just Peachy', 'Flirty Red', 'Come Heather' and so forth. I had discovered that my choices of blush and lipsticks have had a 'wine theme' due to the color scheme looked well on me as opposed to purposely buying them because it made me think of wine. I have 'Wine with Everything', 'Cabernet Cruise', 'Merlot', 'Champagne', and I think I even had a 'Pinot' at one time. Really. And I really don't wear a lot of makeup nor do I wear lipstick often. Hell, I have lipstick that is years old. Thus, the wine themed names still exist in my bathroom. I have no idea what kind of makeup themes are the new trend as of late. Again, I don't wear a whole lot therefore I don't buy new shadows or lipstick every week. However, if I get hard up on something new I can always look for something 'wine like'. It's served me well so far, so why change? I like consistency.
I really didn't start drinking wine on a frequent basis until close to
the end of my bartending career. It was always one of those 'special
occasion' type of things. Holidays, birthdays, celebrations and so
forth. However, during all those years that I rarely drank, I think the
idea of it was always around me unintentionally. Thus, the previous paragraph. Now I really enjoy my wine, especially after a long day or spending time with special friends whether I'm on a vacation or I have friends visiting me. And always for a holiday meal. It would be sin not to have some fermented grapes after slaving in the kitchen all day. Haha...
Speaking of which, guess I should do a little primping. I've got dinner plans and a glass of wine in my near future. Now, which shade of lipstick should I wear? Salut! elizinashe
Ever feel like you just can't 'catch up'? Ever feel like once you've got a good thing started and settled that something comes along and throws off your game? How many times do you say 'aw, just fuck it' and give up? Or do you just ride that wave and keep moving? Too cryptic? How do you handle juggling all of life's curve balls? Again, perhaps I'm being too cryptic. Just a little frustrated and need to vent I suppose.
This past week certainly had its challenges and I somehow arose to the occasion but it sure did disrupt my week. All is well in my world, mind you, but it certainly stressed me out and did not help me in maintaining a routine nor get over my cold that I've been battling for two weeks now. And I feel like of all the little things that could have helped combat these little hiccups did not happen in the given time that I wanted, thus I was stuck in dealing with my present life, waiting and striving for the better. Don't get me wrong, I'm good. Really. Just frustrated that I'm not in the very place that I had imagined myself to be at this time. Just another challenge. Which I'm getting tired of so to speak and I'm ready for that next stepping stone. It's just been hard to locate that magical rock that will lead me to the next phase in my life. Yes, cryptic. Oh well.
So tomorrow is a new day. And the end of my week will be spent with some very dear friends. Too bad I can't fast forward to Friday. The first five days after the weekend is always the hardest. I will survive and shoot for the weekend. It will certainly perk up my mood. Maybe I should schedule some vacation time too. I think some sunny skies are needed for sure! Stay warm my readers while we wait for Spring's sunny disposition. Change always comes and hopefully for the best! Cheers! elizinashe
Yep, it's winter alright. My corner of the world is in the midst of that 'polar vortex' which is a meteorological term for cold as shit. I've spent two days buying that cheap foam stuff to put on my pipes 'just in case' because I know my landlords wouldn't do it in time. They're probably out of town anyway. It was just easier to do it myself. Got the shower and bathroom sink on a slow drip too. Keeping my fingers crossed. The temps are holding steady at 3 degrees right now. It's supposed to drop to zero if not slightly below. Coldest it's been here in like 20 years. It's certainly the lowest temp on record since the 1800s. Dang that's cold. I wonder what people back then did to keep warm. My windows in my 'living room' pretty much look like that picture. Ah, the glories of living in an old house. Can't wait to leave this place.
So I've spent my day prepping a feast in my crock pot, then made a mad dash to the dentist for an emergency fix on a temporary crown that popped off AGAIN! What a pain in the ass. Then it was off to the doctor. Just can't shake this cold I have had plus I knew that it was getting to the point that it could have turned into bronchitis or pneumonia. I'm not having any of that. The real pisser about that trip was the pharmacy next door ran out of the antibiotic that was prescribed, which meant going to the hospital where I work to pick up my meds at that pharmacy. That was right about the time that the temps started dropping. Glad I grabbed my hat and gloves. The only upside to that trip was my medicine cost me a whole eight dollars. Yep. Eight. Thank you Jesus!
Came home, threw some ice melt on my drive since they had predicted some snow and any ice that is left would refreeze. Luckily my drive was already dry but who knows if it's really gonna snow at this point? I want to be able to leave my house tomorrow when that cabin fever sets in. Of course, being that I've been sick, staying in my pjs might not be such a bad idea.
At the end of it all, I'm glad my day is over. My crock pot feast was lovely and I've done nothing but sit my ass on the couch and watch television. Although, that's getting pretty old at this point especially since I don't have cable so I'm pretty limited to the variety. (sigh.). I'm just about tired of the news because all they are talking about is this damn weather. I've seen enough. And being that I work nights, sleeping through the night has become an issue despite that I've been off for a few days. Guess I could clean up some clutter piles. Or not. Haha...in the meantime I will envision warmer places. Stay safe and warm! elizinashe
Every year I send Christmas cards to family and friends. I typically don't send out more than 20 but I still do it the old fashioned way with a handwritten note and stickers all over the envelope. It's something I really enjoy doing. Sometimes I've even written a 'Christmas Letter' like many people have done in the past, telling family and friends about their kids accomplishments and family adventures they have have over the past year. I've done that a couple of times as well, minus my children's bits since I don't have any of my own. Being that I have quite a year, I felt like doing a Christmas letter this year. I started it at work late one night with most of my creative juices flowing in the wee hours of the morning. However, once I got it completed and reviewed, it became more of an epic play-by-play of the entire year which seemed just a bit too much. Too much is too much. Being that I haven't done a letter in a very long time, it just seemed a bit too ridiculous so I just went with the plain old card with stickers. It seemed a bit more time worthy anyway since I had gotten behind. Maybe I'll publish it here one day for others to read when they're really, really bored.
Looking back at my blog history, I have posted at least once every month this past year, sometimes twice and maybe a third in there somewhere, I really can't remember. I'm surprised that I was able to do that while working and going to nursing school the whole time. I know for a fact that it was a great creative relief for me to do so even though I felt like I didn't have much time to write as often as I had wanted to but it's a small achievement regardless I think. Who cares about the vacuum when you can blog?
I really don't have big plans for Christmas this year. I had already volunteered to work the holiday since I was off for Thanksgiving and we are required to work at least one of those holidays. I feel like I over did it on Thanksgiving anyway. Not food wise, just a bunch of people wise. I'm just not in the mood for another big meal with too many people. Again, look at previous post about 'sensitive people'. Haha...I have plans to meet some friends for some sushi tonight which will be just fine. I may be a bit bored and restless today, but I just don't want to be around a big family style gathering. The past two weeks, hell, this past month has been one big whirlwind and this chic is tired! I've made soup, washed the dishes, finished laundry, ran a quick errand and have already taken a nap. Ahh.....not a bad way to spend a Christmas Eve, eh?
In the meantime, Merry Christmas to you and may your New Year be blessed with many adventures and good cheer! Who knows what 2014 will bring? elizinashe
How sensitive are you? I'm not talking about having your feelings easily hurt where you run and cry if someone gives you a dirty look, but the kind of sensitivity to where you feel mentally overloaded in certain situations. I am one of the latter.
I've always been easily 'rattled' when I feel like I have too much to do in a day like having to run errands all day and meet 3 or 4 commitments within a certain time frame. I hate being late for anything so I try and plan ahead but sometimes when I get to that 3rd commitment and still have more errands to tackle I have to stop and take a break. Sometimes I put that last commitment off until another time or another day. It's not an issue of being lazy but just an issue of being overwhelmed. And that's okay. I've survived this long living that way and I know myself fairly well so I don't think I will endure any long term damage. Ha-ha....Nursing school certainly put that sensitivity overload to the test. Ugh. So glad that's over.
I accepted a job back in October in a nursing position. Woo Hoo!! I was offered a night position within the unit that I have worked on for the last 8 years now which has been a nice transition. I'm thankful to have a nursing job within my work family and have remained among my mentors, cheerleaders and work friends. I know who I can go to for help and not worry if I'm being 'fed to the wolves' as some people can be when they have a newbie on the floor. Working nights has been a slight challenge but I have done it before many, many moons ago and I have yet to spontaneously burst into flames so I think I can survive okay. Plus, the night shift pay is pretty good and hard to turn down right now especially since I have had to replace my car sooner than later and my student loan payments begin in January. Sigh....ah, the joys of owing money.
I have a good friend coming in this weekend for a visit. I'm looking forward to our time together. We have much catching up to do, mostly on my visitor's side of the fence I guess since there have been some new developments in his life. Is that too cryptic? It's going to be a good time regardless. There will be much eating and drinking across town which is just our style. Bon Appetite and Salut!
And just in case you're wondering, here's the link where you can take a self-test to see how 'sensitive' you may or may not be. Just for giggles. Cheers! elizinashe
http://www.hsperson.com/pages/test.htm
It seems these days that very few who marry stay married. Most people are divorced and remarry at least once. Some never remarry at all. Others choose to have relationships and end them at some point and get involved in another relationship. I have yet to marry. Why? Well, that's a whole other story. Mostly it's been my choice, but as I have gotten older it's become more difficult to find a good mate, especially given certain circumstances that I cannot change. However, that is not the point of this post.
My parents divorced about three years ago. In their retirement. In their 70s. Weird. I supported my mother in her wanting to end the marriage and I listened to my dad cry and perseverate over the ending of the relationship and his lamenting over a lost love. Mind you, my father was the one who initiated the divorce proceedings. And an added fact is that this was done across many miles. My father lives in Arkansas where I grew up, and my mother moved here permanently to live in their 'retirement home' nearly ten years ago. So, the whole process took about a year with negotiations being passed back and forth. So why you ask, did my father never move with my mom? Well, the 'retirement home' that was bought three months after I moved here first is the root of the demise, although the marriage had it's cracks to begin with prior to all this mess. Long story short, my mother bought this property, signed the contracts and THEN told my dad. Talk about a kick in the balls. I thought my dad was going to lose it. I will spare you the details and the fighting that ensued. The fact is, that house planted the roots for divorce the moment my mother signed her name on the deed.
Now that time has gone on, my father still holds a hope to rekindle the relationship with my mother and my mother has now found herself a 'boyfriend'. Ew. My mother has always been very independent and has never been interested in any other man nor has she said she has wanted to date again, or remarry for that matter. I don't even think she was ever really in love with my father like he was in love with her. And that's a hard thing for me to say, but I do feel that is true. But now, she has a 'boyfriend'. Which came as a surprise to her as well as me. I've met him once and he seems like a very nice man, but it still bothers me. It's gross and weird. I don't know if I can really feel comfortable about it. It's weird. And gross. haha...Yes, I'm whining like a child but I don't care. I will spare you the whole psychoanalysis and how I watched my parent's marriage crumble and in the process how they, as parents truly hurt my feelings because they were so involved in their own mess. I was in the middle of this whole demise the moment my mother bought this property and have been used for their own gain. This is not how you should treat your children regardless of their age. Do I sound too selfish? Maybe I'm just throwing a temper tantrum. I don't know. All I know is that is a little unsettling to me and I worry about how my father will take the news once he finds out that the love of his life has a new man in her life. One thing is for sure, I am not about to tell him. It's not my place and it's not my mess.
So there it is folks. Is there a group for the surviving child of divorced, retired parents? haha....Am I being unreasonable? Or am I being smart by not getting involved in the drama and living my life as I see fit? Maybe a little of both, eh? Maybe I should go back to preschool for such rants as this. haha.....elizinashe
Why is it that when you need to go to bed early and get some good rest you end up tossing and turning for what seems to be most of the night? And when you have the opportunity to stay up late, or even stay out late for that matter because you don't need to get up early, you fight going to bed at 10pm.
Ever wonder what goes through you pets' mind? What are they really chasing when they run all over the place when there is nothing to be seen by the naked eye. Do changes in the weather pattern affect your pet? Do you know when it's going to rain due to the behavior in your furry friend? And just what are they trying to say when they bark or meow for no apparent reason? Maybe they know something that we don't.
I saw a headline today in the newspaper that really bothered me. Apparently, we the United States, are dispensing $1.63 BILLION to Pakistan. Why? To help aid in their military and other crap that I can't remember in efforts to help them fight terrorism. HUH??? Seriously? So our leaders that we voted for couldn't find a happy medium and our government shut down, costing a huge loss in money, not to mention our own people losing pay but we can dish out an absurd amount of money to foreign country to help them since we killed off one of their own threats? That I just don't get. If we can't take care of our own then why do we send shit tons of money to somebody else? Disgusting.
When was the last time you dressed up for Halloween? Is it an every year 'going to a party' type tradition? Or do you decorate the house and the yard for potential trick-or-treaters? Do you host a party or do you go out with friends and bar hop? It's been years since I have dressed for the occasion. Mostly due to work and/or school and mostly just not caring to dress up and hit the bar scene. My college roommate always throws a party with her husband. From the looks of their pictures, it's always a fabulous time and there is always a theme. I think this year is the classic MTV years. I wish I could be there. It sure would be fun to see all the cool video icons from back in the day wandering around. Wonder if I could pull off a Pat Benatar. Who would you be? Billy Idol? Adam Ant? Cyndi Lauper? Oh the list of possibilities! Can't wait to see the party pics!
And so...that's it my friends. Just a late nite query. Sleep tight! elizinashe
