Procrastination or Laziness ?

Which One Do You Click ?

I wish I could be one of those Type A personalities.  You know, the type that sets out goals, makes a plan, knocks out the said plan and still makes time for social events and makes it all look so easy that it really wasn't any effort at all.  How do they do it? 

I've never been lazy.  In fact, I used to be quite busy and kept a nice routine to keep my life in order.  Then things changed, Life happened and I realized that I wasn't as happy as I thought I had been.  And then other Life events came into play and but a big halt into my routine and forced me into another path.  And that was sort of a good thing.  But it was a challenge. 

I've never been one of those Type A personalities either.  I know my limits.  I have to stop and take time for me.  I've always been aware of that.  I wonder if those Type A's know how to stop.  And are they truly happy?

Regardless, I do have a large bucket list of things that I need to tackle but it all seems so overwhelming.  Some of it is self imposed home improvements, some of it is clearing out my basement which contains a lot of crap that belongs to my mother.  Now, my mother is still alive mind you.  But this is a bunch of crap that my father brought out over a year ago and it's pretty much all still there.  There is furniture that I don't want, antique stuff, loads of knick-knacks, sheet music, mindless junk and an old fireplace mantel that she bought even though we never had a fireplace.  And my mother too has procrastinated about coming to retrieve the said crap.  So it's still there...waiting. 

Sigh...I have ideas on how to get rid of it but the planning is a bit daunting not to mention making it happen.  I just don't want to do it.  It's too much. 

I read an article not too long ago that talks about procrastination.  It's not an issue of being "lazy" per say, but the task itself is attached to negative emotions, which never feels good and therefore that is why we procrastinate.  Whew!  For a moment, I thought I was just being lazy, selfish and irresponsible.  Yes, I'm an adult.  But sometimes I don't feel like one, especially compared to my more successful peers. 

Yes, the basement will get cleaned out.  In time.  Guess I need to take some baby steps.  There's just a lot of emotional baggage attached to it all and I feel very alone in the matter.  And I know in time I will have to clean out both my mother's house and my father's house and that task will be a major effort.  I am certainly not looking forward to that.  I wish I could just pack my stuff up and disappear sometimes therefore I won't have to deal with it or be responsible.  But I'm really not that kind of a person. 

Do I have my lazy days and moments?  Absolutely.  Do I have periods of full-on bucket list task oriented days?  Absolutely.  I just wish I could knock out one smidgen of the seemingly overwhelming tasks.  I think I'd feel so much better about it all.  Until then, I will keep planning in my head and not act on it.  It's worked so far so why stop now?  haha...until next time...elizinashe

One Step At A Time

Friends

Friends & Memories

You know how there is that Facebook memory thing?  You know, the thing or things, that you posted a year ago on that particular day.  An anniversary if ya will from the year or years prior.

Well, apparently I posted a quip back in 2009 saying that "met an old friend for the first time today".  And that's it.  Now I have no idea who that friend could have been, but I still like the quote regardless.  Sometimes you meet people for the first time and you immediately know that they are a part of your tribe.  We've all experienced it, right?  There is just something about that person and you know that by some force of nature, the universe lined things up and paths crossed.  I like those moments. 

I've been channel surfing mindlessly as I am awake and bored.  "When Harry Met Sally" is on the tube.  I've seen it a dozen times but I really don't mind watching it again.  You have to admit, it's a good story.  And it's about friendship and love.  You really can't go wrong with that now can you?  It gives me hope that real love and friendship still exists in this day and time.  I may not be overly girly, but there is a bit of a romantic secretly hiding inside.  I just don't do the mushy stuff.  Bleh.  Sorry guys...

I would not be anywhere without my friends.  Seriously.  I'm pretty independent and sometimes stubborn.  Maybe a lot stubborn but I have my insecurities and anxieties for sure.  I do not deny that at all.  But I am so damn thankful for my friends who get that part of me and love that part of me.  I'm told that I'm pretty funny too.  haha...but regardless, my friends are so important to me.  I know I would have a very difficult time navigating this thing called Life if I did not have my peeps.  I hope that I will once again will say "met an old friend for the first time today" many more times in my life.  Because those moments are so very valuable don't ya think?  Until next time...elizinashe

Weird is Good

It's So Hard...

Love It or Hate It ?

Social media...it's a love/hate relationship is it not?

I'm guilty of it myself.  What I find most difficult is to keep my mouth shut when I see blatant bullshit.  Crap that is completely misleading, false or hateful.  Especially with the political stuff.  Every now and then, I have to make a comment or leave a factual statement along with the factual link of proof so I can prove my point.  Does that make me egotistical?  I think not.  I just hate a liar.  More importantly, I hate fake shit that people automatically believe just because it's there.  Nobody check their facts anymore.  If it's on social media then it must be true. 

What really bothers me is that no matter what you say, or what link you share, no matter what point you are trying to say, those opposed just aren't open to a discussion.  What the fuck?  Whatever happened to acting like an adult?  And just because you see some "meme" from some person that you do not know you believe it to be true because it supports your beliefs?  Did you check the fact on that?  No?  Then why are you sharing that meme?  You don't know the person who created that meme?  Then why are you sharing it? 

Unless it brings a positive message then don't share it.  Unless you can back it up. 

It's so hard.  I get so mad sometimes.  And when I do respond which is very occasionally, people get their panties in a wad, begin to argue and not even acknowledge the facts I attempt to present.  People get angry, mean and attempt to prove their point which I understand but again....they do not want to have an open conversation about it.  It's their way and their way only.  My God...how did we ever get this way? 

Taking deep breaths over this.  As I am trying to "let go" of an "argument" with some chic that I barely know.  And because she's "been in politics for 20 years" that make her an expert.  This chic does not accept anything or any factual link I have shared.  God I hope she doesn't want to run for office.  It all just makes me sick.

I wonder if other countries have so much political drama.  Well..some we know.  But others?  What's it like in Switzerland?  I've always heard they stay neutral in all things.  The Netherlands are lovely I hear.  Except maybe for Winter.  Did you know that Iceland has equal maternity leave for both men and women?  Yeah...the fathers are allowed equal leave for the baby as it is deemed vital for both the baby, the parents and the work ethic.  Yep...check it out.  Amazing. 

Why can't we all get along?  And for Christ's sake...stop arguing over stupid shit and let's have a real adult discussion for once.  Have we really become that hateful?  God I hope not.  Until next time...elizinashe

I'm Tired of Feeling Like This

A Saturday Jaunt

Turn It Up !

Hooray for a weekend off! 

It's rather hot today.  However I have a new heat pump unit so it's pretty chill at my pad.  I've managed to make a couple of errands and picked up my weekly addiction of fried chicken, mac n cheese and some veggies.  The greens will counteract the fattening chicken and the mac, right?  haha...at least that's how I justify my food choices.

The dishwasher is empty, wine glasses washed, work related coffee containers relieved of their gunk and laundry piled for a future shower.  If I can muster the motivation to pull a few weeds then I will have really accomplished something.  But...it's hot.  And the sun at this point is directly where I need to clean and prune.  That task might have to wait.

I've been perfectly happy to piddle around in my house.  Listening to some music which is a favorite "go to" to keep me occupied and relaxed.  I love music.  Other than coffee, it's pretty much how I start my day.  Forget morning television.  Never been a fan.  Nor do I do afternoon TV.  Not interested.  I even allowed myself to play on my piano which has been ignored for way too long.  I need to dedicate more time to playing.  Adult duties can wait.  Remind me of that, will ya?

I envy those who plan so much ahead of time and is always "on the go" for a night out or a festivity with friends.  I wonder how they do it.  They must have some wicked time management skills.  I know for myself, planning too much or having too many commitments stresses me out.  Way too much over thinking about it all too.

I have been invited to a cook out tomorrow but I think I will pass.  I already have plans for Monday and an all day affair on Tuesday so having three days of "stuff" is a bit too much.  I have a small bucket list of things I would like to do.  I've been getting an itch to start something crafty so that might be a nice alternative too.  It's going to be hot again tomorrow so standing out in the heat really doesn't sound like a lot of fun anyway.  Maybe I will squeeze in a matinee.  Where I can sit my ass in a nice movie recliner and be entertained in the air conditioning.  Doesn't sound like too bad of an idea for a Sunday, eh?

In the meantime, I hope your weekend is a relaxing one.  Monday always comes.  I just hope it arrives slowly.  Until next time...elizinashe

What's In Your Earbud ?

Wide Awake

It's a Bit Like This Tonight

Well, here I am...channel surfing and restless.  Sometimes I wish I could be more like the "day walkers" and go to bed before midnight, but alas...I just don't think that's gonna happen. 

As I have said before, I really don't mind working nights.  I think I prefer it actually.  Less drama but man...it sure does mess with your body clock.  At least the only thing I am committed to is a Walmart stockpile and throwing dinner in the crock pot.  I've already scrubbed the toilet so I can scratch that off my list.  Now if I could only remember to scrub my shower.  hahaha...

I have other blog ideas swimming in my head, but tonight just is not the night for that kind of writing as I need to have better focus on my subject.  Tonight is just a rambling stream of thought.

I have discovered a series on Amazon called The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel.  I'm catching up on the first season but I will soon be done with that at least by the end of the month and then I can move on.  I can't be one of those people to "binge watch" an entire season in one night.  Sheesh!  I think my eyes would pop out.  However, it is a clever show and the Susie character is a wonderful slap in the face.  I really dig her.  Check it out.  I don't think you will be disappointed.

I sporadically been catching up on the news.  The more I watch, the more I want to ignore it all together.  And the 2020 Election shit is heating up.  Jesus...it makes me a bit nervous.  I sure as Hell don't want a repeat of what we currently have in the White House.  It's nothing but a disgrace.  And the level of stupidity and lack of common sense among the people astounds me to no end.  I swear, if it's on social media, then it must be true!  Makes my stomach turn.

On a lighter note, I've had the weekend off and it's been a very welcomed time.  I was ready to be away and recharge my soul by pretty much doing nothing.  Just trying to keep myself in a quiet space as the last few weeks have been chaotic.  I've got a concert planned with my girls next month so that will be my next hoo-ha.  And oh...a group bike ride too with some co-workers.  That should be a nice break too. 

In the meantime, the first day of Summer is fast approaching.  How are you going to celebrate?  Might be a good day for ice cream, eh?  Maybe I should add it to my list.  Until next time...elizinashe

Day into the Night

Greed

The Evils of Money

I don't care what Gordon Gekko says, Greed is not good.  Ambition?  Sure.  Greed? No.

We see it everyday.  And our political system is filled with Greed.  I don't have to tell you about our healthcare system and the pharmaceutical companies.  That whole mess makes me want to vomit.

I have a lovely small neighborhood.  Twenty homes on small lots.  One way in, one way out.  You'd never know we existed unless you just happened to take a turn up our hill.  But not no more. 

The AirBnB business is a hot one.  The "short term rental" gig in our area is booming.  And it's not a good thing.  We have three short term rentals on my street.  All of which surround my home.  There's a high possibility that there is a fourth as I don't see the same vehicles in the drive everyday or every weekend.  And there is a home currently for sale on my street.  My fear is that someone will buy it and turn it around for yet another "short term rental".

Insert angry face here.  I am so sick of coming home every freaking weekend to multiple cars crammed into a very small neighborhood, parked all fucked up in the small driveways of these rentals AND in the street which is not allowed.  I witnessed our trash service having a very difficult time navigating the road to avoid hitting a Subaru that was parked on the street in front of one of the rentals.  I secretly had hoped that the trash truck would have creamed that Subaru.  Seriously.

What really burns me up, the owners of the said short term rentals are buying these houses specifically for the said short term rental.  They are never there.  Not to mention is does nothing but block a family or a single person like myself from owning a home.  We already have a housing crisis.  Rent in my area is ridiculous.  The cost of living keeps increasing and trying to find an affordable home for your average family is becoming more difficult.  But yet, our city/county keeps issuing permits for these "short term rentals". 

I've been taking pictures for evidence.  Yep.  Sure have.  I had a drunk girl try to enter my home last year.  She was at the wrong house.  And despite me yelling at her through the door to "get off my porch", she kept on turning the door knob.  AND ringing my door bell.  At 2 AM.  Yep.  2. AM.  Oh sweet Hell...she is lucky that I didn't open the door and punch her in the face.  For real.  I seriously wanted to shove that woman off my property.  However, I didn't want an assault charge place on me so I kept myself together.

Our quaint neighborhood is becoming not so quaint anymore.  And I refuse to leave.  As a homeowner, I should not have to live around "hotel guests" if you will, because that is exactly what they are.  I should not have to live around the noise, the inconvenience, the multiple Ubers and Lyfts that enter our area all hours of the night.  And I sure as Hell shouldn't have to navigate my way due to ill parked and multiple cars just to get into my own driveway.  Just because the home advertises can sleep 6-8 people does not mean we can have 6-8 cars for a single home.  Assholes.

I've already looked up our HOA Covenants which appears to violate the rules and restrictions that are outlined.  I plan to bring that shit up.  These short term rental owners are running a business.  Let's call it what it is.  And they're doing nothing but making a profit in the name of Greed.  No taxes paid to the county.  At least at this point.  I know my fellow neighbor and homeowner feels the same way I do.  He plans on making some calls too because it's all getting ridiculous.  There is a family out there somewhere that needs a home and who deserves a home.  Forget these hotel guests.  I'm over it.  I'm ready to fight.  Until next time...elizinashe

I Want to Drink My Coffee in Peace

It's Over....I Think

Wishing for Calmer Waters

Shew!  May was one Hell of a month.  To say the very least.  Looking back, it was a crap ass roller coaster ride.  And I don't like roller coasters.  Ain't doing it. 

June has started to be busy but only for a very brief period of time.  Or so I hope.  It's only beginning.  However, when I look at my calendar, it looks pretty chill.  Which I totally need.  I'm so very tired of the chaos.  And the past month was nothing but chaos.  I can't survive that long in a world filled with such angst.  I seriously hope the next couple of months will be some calm waters for this chic.  Otherwise, I just might lose it. 

My hope is for some smooth sailing.  I need to recoup still.  I hope to have some low impact fun filled activities with some friends, plan my time for a brief trip and an annual girls' trip/concert in July and begin to move forward with some extra education work wise and keep my options open in my career field as this new buyout is proving more and more to be detrimental than beneficial.  Keeping my T's crossed and my I's dotted as they say.  My gut tells me I'm good for the most part.  However....I know I need to keep better paths in my long term goals.  We never know what the future holds.  And greed is never, ever good. 

In the meantime, my wish for us all is tremendous peace in all aspects and financial blessings as we all could use a boost for the unexpected trials of this thing called Life.  I think I need to make it a point to begin some crafty projects for the house as that sort of stuff makes me happy despite the big mess I make.  Sometimes messes can be a good thing.  Until next time...elizinashe. 

Someone to Watch Over Me