Halloween Feeling Ick Like Haiku

On the couch eyes glazed
Body aches no more study
Zombie food I am



elizinashe

Happy Halloween Everyone!

Holy Cow Batman!

Oh geeze....here comes the mini-mester meltdown.  I thought the school related anxiety dreams had subsided, however now that the first mini-mester is coming to a close they are getting really intense and the over-thinking is in hyperdrive.  

My first day of clinical this term I saw a group of nursing students in the lobby of the hospital.  As I was looking more closely I was thinking to myself, 'hey those don't look like the second year students.'  And then it hit me. I am the second year student!  Yikes!  I have officially moved up in status.  However, that second year status has doubled the work, doubled the over-thinking and doubled the stress at this point.  The reading for class is all over the place and my notes are so dysfunctional that I don't even know how I am going to finish successfully.  I'm one step ahead if I know what day it is when I wake up in the morning.  

I have an ancillary test on Monday to which our practice tests that are on-line have been very difficult to find since the host website has changed its format and the said practice test is very hard to find.  I've taken it once and can't find it again to re-take for more practice.  Ugh!  We have a test on Thursday the 11th and our final for this mini-mester is on the following Monday the 15th.  We have a one day break and then it's off to the second leg of the fall mini-mester with orientation, then class after another class, then work all weekend and then what appears to be a clinical site almost an hour away from where I live.  Not looking forward to driving that far in the dark in the wee hours of the morning!  And then turn around to do that drive all over again the following day.  ARRGGGGG!!!!!  I was told at first, that I would be returning to a site that's literally five minutes away from my house.  Although I was not excited to return to that particular site, I'd much rather drive five minutes vs. an hour.  It certainly would save me in gas not to mention potential vehicle breakdowns to which I have already suffered.  Not happy about this folks! 

Oh geeze.....being a second year nursing student has it's perks that's for sure.  However, the on-coming weeks and the looming spring is really freaking me out.  I long for the day where I don't have to worry about this shit anymore, sleep as late as I want on my days off and not have to eat crap because I don't have time to cook.  Yee Gads!  I just want to get through this week.  That is all I am capable of at this point.  Can I please return to my girls' weekend because that certainly was a hell of a lot more fun!  Sheesh!  elizinashe