Restless & Frustrated

Feeling a Bit Like This

I really shouldn't complain about my world.  I am blessed and lucky.  And my heart breaks for Texas.  I could not imagine what those people are going through.  But...I just can't shake this depressed like state of mind.  Maybe it's Mercury pulling on me.  What is Mercury you ask?  Look it up Mercury Retrograde.  It will save a lot of babble talk from me. 

I know for the most part, it's just situational.  But it still nags at me.  I've procrastinated on a couple of necessary things to which now, I feel like it's a bit overwhelming to tackle now, so I procrastinate more.  Ugh...and then I continue to feel bad about procrastinating.  To some, it may be no big deal, but to me, it's bothersome.  How did I become so lazy?  Is it working the night shift?  I don't know.

My kitty waxes and wanes.  When I think it's time to "make that call", he perks up and he is bright once again.  I feel like I've been on cat patrol for the last month.  I've been keeping a daily record of his eating habits, bowel movements, medications and all that jazz.  It's getting a bit ridiculous.  He's not in any pain nor is he suffering.  I know he feels puny at times, and then he rebounds.  It's a strange cycle.  My biggest fear is that he's going to get really sick while I'm at work and I can't do what needs to be done.  Another strike for being single.  Man it would be so much easier if I had someone to walk this life with me.  Or so I think. 

My summer has been good and I've had a lot of fun, but it sure would have been nice to escape to the beach.  I still need to do that and soon.  But again...unexpected expenses and a sickly kitty keeps me from staying away too long.  Ugh...

I just wish I could catch a break.  Again, I'm lucky and blessed.  I just wish this unhappy feeling would just pass and lift away.  Something good needs to come my way.  I need a boost.  Until next time...elizinashe

Aiming for More of This

Mean People Suck

Feeling All Jumbled

Regardless of what you do for work, you will always have personality clashes and ones that you can never please no matter what you do or say.  I am no better than the next person, I make mistakes and I expect that my fellow co-workers exude the same temperament.  However, I know that can't always be true. 

I also know that one or sometimes two persons who have those unrealistic expectations and perfectionist ideals will never be happy with the work you do.  I also know that it is something that has been taught or learned due to something in their past, or an expectation that was made of them and has followed them into their adulthood and working life.  I get that. 

What I don't get is a consistent disapproving, condescending, micromanaging, disrespectful attitude towards others and co-workers, leaving them feeling unappreciated, angry and sometimes in tears for no reason other than their expectations and their high standards were not met, when in reality, that is just an unrealistic expectation to begin with. 

And when such behavior is thrown in the face of many, and not just one person, then it's a problem.  The tricky thing is, sometimes when you do address such an issue with your superiors, nothing ever changes or worse yet, that superior may be "tight" with the said person with the unrealistic perfectionist issues.  So...how do you work around that?  What kind of charge do you get by being so mean and high & mighty?  I would think it does nothing but start your day off feeling stressed out on top of an already stressed out job.  So why would you want to put yourself through that?  And watching good co-workers being treated with such behavior doesn't make you feel good or appreciated either. 

It's a tricky deck of cards that's for sure.  I refuse to be played like the Joker and I always aim for winning Aces, but sometimes your going to get a Spade.  And that's okay.  I just wish some people would stop expecting Diamonds every damn day.  ( How do you like that use of metaphors?  😉 )

Until next time....elizinashe

Why Can't We All Just Get Along?  

Jackpot !

🙏 Make Me a Winner ! 🙏

No, I didn't win a crapload of money, but it sure would be nice.  The Power Ball ticket has not found a winner yet.  The numbers haven't been magical for anyone and the payout is more than you could ever imagine.  It's quite ridiculous. 

I've never bought a lottery ticket, although I just might.  I'm pretty sure I won't be a winner, but the wish is there and I'm hopeful that it will bring me luck of some sort, regardless if I'm a winner or not.  Big or small. 

I've often thought what I'd do if I ever did win a pile of money.  It certainly would be a blessing.  And perhaps a curse too.  I would not want my face splashed across the papers or be on TV.  I would want to remain anonymous.  By all means.  But, if I did win...man oh man...

I'd pay off all my debts and make sure my parents are taken care of as they age as their long term  care will be necessary.  I sure as hell take a nice vacation too.  And rope in some of my good friends along for the respite.  In fact, I'd travel to places that I've always wanted to visit.  Both in our country and outside of our country.  It's a really big world out there...I want to explore that more. 

I'd set money aside for my own future, donate to local charities and hire someone to clean my house as I really hate spending the time doing that adult sort of thing.  I'm pretty sure I'd splurge on a few things but as for a big giant house or big ticket items, no thank you.  I would want to keep it simple and use that money for exploring and adventurous experiences.  Life is short and I would want to do as much as I can without wasting my new found wealth.  And I'm most certain that I would drive myself crazy in overthinking about it too.  Part of my charm. 

No...I don't think I will win but the idea of it makes me feel pretty good.  It's a lot more fun thinking about that than all the other crap that swirls in my head and I find its a great stress reducer too.    Can't go wrong with that, eh?  Until next time...elizinashe

😉 May We All Be Blessed With Ben  😉

It's the End of the World As We Know It...

Get Those Glasses On!

Okay, so the world is not ending, however it certainly seems to be spinning on a highly volatile axis these days.  Some days I just can't believe my eyes.  However, we've got an eclipse upon us.  Maybe we all need a bit of the dark from Mother Nature so the new light may shine where it needs to shine.

I'm lucky to live in an area where there will be a 98% totality of the solar eclipse.  Wow...I'm not much of a geek when it comes to this sort of stuff but I feel very lucky to live in the path of this phenomenal event.  I've got my glasses and plans to sit on my deck to bask in the moment.  I'm kind of worried about the whole eye thing despite having the ISO approved glasses.  Maybe I'll just keep my eyes closed as a precaution.

Through modern science, such celestial events are easier to predict.  This event apparently is one of a kind, at least in North America not to mention in my neck of the woods.  Long before giant telescopes, math equations and all that other geeky stuff, shooting stars and eclipse's must have instilled panic among the masses.  I am certain that there was a small minority of indigenous peoples knew better, maybe worshiping such a gift or perhaps taking it as an omen.  Regardless, we are lucky to have such knowledge of how and why these things happen.  I know from history many ancient peoples looked to the stars and the heavens for guidance, inspiration, superstitions, life and death.  Being that I'm a bit superstitious myself and ask the Universe for what I need, I think I will take this Solar Eclipse as a way to renew and rejuvenate in my own life.  I hope the rest of the World will take the same opportunity.  Otherwise, Mother Nature might have a different plan in the days to come.

Until next time...elizinashe.

Let's All Be Kind to Our World