Restless & Frustrated

Feeling a Bit Like This

I really shouldn't complain about my world.  I am blessed and lucky.  And my heart breaks for Texas.  I could not imagine what those people are going through.  But...I just can't shake this depressed like state of mind.  Maybe it's Mercury pulling on me.  What is Mercury you ask?  Look it up Mercury Retrograde.  It will save a lot of babble talk from me. 

I know for the most part, it's just situational.  But it still nags at me.  I've procrastinated on a couple of necessary things to which now, I feel like it's a bit overwhelming to tackle now, so I procrastinate more.  Ugh...and then I continue to feel bad about procrastinating.  To some, it may be no big deal, but to me, it's bothersome.  How did I become so lazy?  Is it working the night shift?  I don't know.

My kitty waxes and wanes.  When I think it's time to "make that call", he perks up and he is bright once again.  I feel like I've been on cat patrol for the last month.  I've been keeping a daily record of his eating habits, bowel movements, medications and all that jazz.  It's getting a bit ridiculous.  He's not in any pain nor is he suffering.  I know he feels puny at times, and then he rebounds.  It's a strange cycle.  My biggest fear is that he's going to get really sick while I'm at work and I can't do what needs to be done.  Another strike for being single.  Man it would be so much easier if I had someone to walk this life with me.  Or so I think. 

My summer has been good and I've had a lot of fun, but it sure would have been nice to escape to the beach.  I still need to do that and soon.  But again...unexpected expenses and a sickly kitty keeps me from staying away too long.  Ugh...

I just wish I could catch a break.  Again, I'm lucky and blessed.  I just wish this unhappy feeling would just pass and lift away.  Something good needs to come my way.  I need a boost.  Until next time...elizinashe

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