Tuesday, July 25, 2017

What's In the Bag?

She's Cute in Red
The English are pretty well devoted to their Queen and all things Royal.  It's a different country with a long history of a regal ruler.  It certainly is not like what it used to be but some traditions are still intact with all its pomp and circumstance. 
Future Queen Age 7

Anyway...the Queen.  As I was trying to fall asleep the other night, this random thought crossed my mind for no particular reason.  Maybe it was my brain's way to throw out our country's hot mess of a political situation.  Regardless, the Queen has always carried that same type of 'pill box' handbag in all of her years of Reign.  No should bags, no glitzy clutches, no wallet styles or a simple small purse.  Always an old lady handbag.  An apparently that started at an early age back in the day.

So my question is, how many handbags does she have after all these years?  And what does she keep in that little pillbox of a bag?  Tissues perhaps?  No, she's Royalty.  That would be a monogrammed handkerchief.  What about lipstick?  Certainly eye glasses these days.  A compact of powder?  What does a Queen keep in her purse?  Does she have a key to the Palace in case she gets locked out?  Pepper spray?  What about a smart phone? Hmm..an itinerary and notes of people's names so she won't forget who's who  at whatever gathering she may be attending?  Curious minds want to know. 

What's in your wallet Your Royal Highness?  This down-to-earth chic wants to know!  I'll show you mine if you show me yours.  😉  Until next time...elizinashe
You Think She's Got a Flask in That Bag? 

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Late Night Bits

Cheers! 
Our hot weather is beginning to settle in for a few days.  Ugh...not looking forward to that at all.  Keeping my fingers crossed that my air conditioning unit doesn't crap out on me.  It's still really new, and I always have a routine maintenance checks to make sure all the bells and whistles are in good shape.  I think I will be fine. 

I caught up with a traveling girlfriend today.  I'm lucky if I see her once a year.  She has an unusual job and is sometimes in my area for work.  She will be leaving by the end of the week for her next gig.  I've known this woman for nearly twenty years now.  Wow...amazing.  It seems like we just saw each other yesterday.  Funny how those kind of friendships work, eh?  Needless to say...we headed downtown for some shopping, eats and drinks and lots of catching up.  It was hot for sure, but the time spent with a girlfriend and a few drinks made it more than worth the while.

My kitty has been kind of puny lately.  I almost took him to the vet the other evening, but he seemed to rally around and his complaints were mostly food related.  But...he hasn't quite been himself since I've been home.  He's a bit more quite and somewhat isolative but mostly to the couch.  Hmmm...he still has his bright, curious eyes but there is something else behind them too.  I know he doesn't feel good.  I don't know if it's the heat or if he's on his way out of this life.  And if it's the latter of the two, it won't be pretty for me.  Especially since I'm about to start a long stretch of days at work.  It may come down to calling out sick one night while I deal with what may come to pass.  I hope I'm wrong.

Being that I'm often up late at night, I see airplanes high in the sky, making their way across the night.  Although we have a small airport, I know at this time of night there aren't any major flights coming in for a landing nor is anything taking off.  It makes me wonder where that plane came from, where is it going and who's on the plane in these wee hours.  Where is this "red eye flight" taking them?  Makes me wonder....

I have a post "saved" for a possible publish.  It's a bit harsh I think but looking back on previous posts, I was often critical and sometimes quite sarcastic about whatever random topic I chose to write about.  I have that random post finished and ready but I'm hesitant to hit that button and make it known to my readers.  I'm not really sure why.  It's not that I want to censor myself, but I feel like it's a bit immature and possibly mean.  But it sure did feel good to write about something else for a change other than my own life and complaints.  Who wants to read about my bitching all the time anyway?  Maybe I'll post it later.  We all need a change from the current news and our busy lives don't ya think?  Until next time....elizinashe
Keep It in the Shade! 

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Call Me Ms. Cranky Pants


Baby It's Hot Outside! 
Ooo..it's hot.  Granted it is July after all, but man...it's just a bit too hot for me.  And I hate it.  It makes me cranky and irritable.  Especially when I'm running around town trying to tackle all those adult things.  Ugh...when will that end?  Plus, we are smack in the middle of our "busy season" so there are idiots all over the damn road not paying any attention to where they are going or other drivers.  They just go...and then cut in front of you, take up two parking spaces, change lanes suddenly and all that jazz.  Yo, jackass!  It's called a blinker!

Ugh...I really struggle in the summer months cooking and meal planning wise.  It's too hot to cook and my appetite diminishes and nothing sounds appealing.  And then I wait too long to eat, get really, really hungry and then I go out and eat junk.  And as a result, I feel like crap afterwards.  It's a vicious cycle I tell ya.  Where is that pool boy?  Why can't someone else make me dinner and plan my meals?  I don't see how people who live in Florida or hell..Arizona for that matter put up with such hot weather all the damn time.  Especially Arizona.  I don't care if they say it's a "dry heat".  A 110+ degrees is 110+ degrees!  That's too damn hot for me folks!  Bleh!

Needless to say...the evenings bring us summer storms and a slight respite from the day's heat.  Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I will knock out the rest of my "to do" list as I just couldn't get it all done today like I wanted.  Can I whine some more?  haha...One bonus...I  made a quick trip to the store after dinner for ice cream.  Yep..sure did.  And it was damn good.  This weekend is going to be a doozy.  Our temperatures will be the hottest that we've had so far this season.  I just hope it's a quick one and then we're done with it.  I don't want the rest of our summer to be so stupid hot.  Otherwise, there will be one cranky bitch complaining until no end.  😉  Until next time...
I Need to Be Here! 

Monday, July 10, 2017

So Far, So Good

Mmmmm....Hot Chocolate.
Every January I make a "wish/goal list".  Not a Resolution list, but stuff I want and hope to accomplish in the coming year.  I keep that list out as a shout out to the Universe, as I believe if you "put it out there" those things will come to you.  But I also believe that you have to work towards it as well.  Good things don't always come easily. 

As I sit here next to my computer, my list is to my left with all the little things I have written down.  And as I reflect on my list, I'm doing pretty good in crossing out my wishes.  Granted, I know I won't ever achieve every single thing, but if I get even half of it done, I'd say it's been a pretty good year. 

I've been to three musical events thus far, and one on the way in September.  There are a lot of shows this summer and I wanted to go to each and every one, but that is just not doable.  Maybe next time...I have spent more time with friends doing fun things and taking pictures.  I'm one step closer to going completely wireless television wise and I've had people over for dinner in my new home.  And "tickling the ivories" as they say is habit I'm trying to do more often, especially before I leave for work as it puts me in an easy frame of mind. 

Some of the other stuff...well I still need to work on that but I feel like I'm getting closer to those silly things.  But sometimes you just have to stop and be patient for such things.  Plus, finances always come into play so it's a matter of priority.  Still working on the budget thing.  I think that's going to be a life long process.  I need to be comfortable with that. 

All in all...I may not have done as much as others so far, nor have I made a beach trip like so many others but that's on the list too.  And my plan for the beach is to have some fellow travelers with me and share the festivities.  I think January would be a good time.  The crowds are gone and if you pick the right place, the weather is sunny without being miserable and you still may have the opportunity to have your feet blessed by the ocean.  I think it would be a great way to kick off the winter months don't ya think?  I'll keep ya posted on that one.  Until next time....elizinashe. 
Need to Add This to My List

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Ups & Downs

Who Wants to Take a Drive?
Life sure is funny sometimes.  I've always felt and said, "what goes around, comes around."  So I've always tried to "take the high road" and be careful of the battles I choose.  Sometimes I don't do so well with that and at times, Life bites me back in the ass.  Other times,  I receive little blessings as needed and usually at the right time. 

Anyway...keeping up with the good deeds thing, I found a small, squished battery in a parking lot the other day.  Now most likely, it would not damage anybody's car or poke a tire, as I had recently experienced with a 2 inch bolt in my back tire, but I picked it up anyway and threw it in the nearest trash can.  Wouldn't want anyone to have the same inconvenience that I had just a week before. 

I also found a personal check lying on the floor in the checkout lane at the grocery store on a separate day.  It didn't belong to the lady ahead of me, or anyone beside us, so I handed it to the cashier so she may keep it safe for the short term and hand it over to the manager.  I hope they found the rightful owner, or at least found the person who wrote the check.  I'd hate to think that some stranger would try and cash another person's $150 check just to steal the cash.  That's just mean. 

Speaking of mean people, I go to another grocery store today to pick up a few items before I return to my working week.  I pulled up into a parking space, so all I had to do was pull straight out.  There was another spot directly behind me with plenty of room.  Are you ready for this?  So after making my purchases, I see as I approach my car, that a big BMW SUV is parked rather close behind me.  And as I get to my car, I look and see that they did  indeed park right up into my car.  Their bumper was totally pushing against my tail, totally blocking my back gate preventing me from being able to open it at all.   Not even on micro millimeter of space.  Man was I pissed.  Jackass...I could tell that there was no damage done, just metal pushing against metal.  But still....there is no doubt in my mind that this driver knew that he/she was up in my space.  What kills me is that this BMW had all the fancy bells and whistles like all the newer cars do.  Back up cameras, front end camera sensor, the hands free mumbo jumbo and so on.  You get the picture.  So question is...why in the hell did this person not even bother to back their car up or even stop when they were getting too close?  Fucker...are they that stupid?  Not even a note on my car saying "oops!" Just parked right up in my grill.  What a moron.  I took some pics and got their tag number.  Being that there wasn't any kind of damage, I didn't bother calling the police or my insurance company.  That might of been a bad decision, but the police most likely would not have done much and my insurance company most likely would have increased my rates even though is was not my fault.  So I took the high road on that one.  I'm pretty sure that this driver will have their own "what goes around, comes around" experience.  I just hope that Karma is nice about it.

Okay...so that was a lot.  I stewed about that event long enough.  It's time to put it to rest and let the Universe do it's thing.  I've got other worries that are more important.  In the meantime, always do your best and watch out for the wack-a-doos.  Hopefully Karma will be kind to you.  Until next time...elizinashe.
Throw Me Some Shooting Stars! 

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Digging in the Past

My Uncle David, Aunt Gwen and my Mother
I'm still slowly going through a bunch of stuff that my dad brought out from the house I grew up in.  Most of it is stuff that belonged to my mom, which includes a lot of her family pictures, piles and piles of letters that my grandparents wrote to each other, letters that my mother wrote to them and a box of stuff of my brother's including his senior yearbook.

I looked at his yearbook that first night after dad went to bed.  Man...that was a bit hard.  Shed quite a few tears over that one.  There was another pile of letters that some of his friends wrote when they met in Governor's School which is a special summer program between your Junior and Senior year of high school for the super smart and the gifted and talented kids.  You had to be nominated for that gig by your teachers so that's a pretty big deal.  I read some of those letters when dad left.  Boy did they crack me up.  My brother was blessed with really good friends and they all had a fun sense of humor.  One of the guys I am friends with on Facebook as he & I oddly reconnected many, many moons ago while I was bartending back home and years later "friended" each other to keep in touch.  I quickly sent him some pics of the said letters as I know he would like to see that memory too.  He enjoyed that blast from the past as much as I did. 
Silly Letters for my Brother

As for the other family letters, there are tons!  Dating back from the 1940s and onward.  People wrote long letters back in the day, as there was no such thing as computers, email, texting and the whole social media gig.  I do cherish these letters as it gives me an insight to my grandparents world before I knew them.  Oh the struggles they had...but so much love too.  Good hard working and honest people.  I miss the Hell of of them.  I wish I could go back in time and once again sit in their backyard eating veggies from their garden with ham and biscuits made from scratch.  It couldn't get any better than that.  I have lots of reading to conquer and wonderful memories to cherish.  You just can't put a price on that now can you?  Until next time...elizinashe
What a Piece of History!

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

It's the Little Things

Happy is the Heart
The last few days have been mentally stressing as life tends to be...my anxiety of trying to get things done before I return to work kept me feeling slightly frazzled. 

However, the Universe was on my side and my day ended up being relatively stress free.  I had acquired a big, fat shiny bolt in my tire over the weekend.  Luckily, I did not end up with a flat tire, nor did my tire lose any pressure when I aired it back up on my way to work and it held until I was able to get it repaired today.  My mechanic pulled the sucker out, plugged up my tire and I was back in business.  I had already scheduled an oil change so the timing was perfect.  I am now a proud owner of a 2 inch silver bolt, slightly squished on the head.  I think I will keep it in my car as a deterrent for other bolts to stay away since I've already been poked.  No need for a second sting. 

As I was finishing up my run to the grocery store, I had concerns because I was finishing up right as our "rush hour" was beginning.  Our town has really grown, and sometimes driving down the interstate/beltway if you will, gets to be quite dicey with slow moving traffic and sometimes bumper to bumper action.  The kind of traffic that I absolutely hate.  I have such a low threshold for that kind of stuff.  But, as luck will have it, traffic going home was smooth sailing and I got home just in time to drop off the said groceries and cat food too without much hassle or idiot drivers.  I was pretty relieved to say the least.

I made a quick dash to my local joint for eats and drinks, finished up some laundry duties, saw a beautiful falling star from my deck and got a surprise call from a girlfriend who will be in a neighboring city for about a month for work.  A brief visit and reunion is soon to come.  And as luck would have it, we are both off on the same days each week.  What a blessing.  Looking forward to catching up with a super awesome lady who never ceases to amaze me. 

Yep..June has been busy, hectic and at times quite stressing but it's the little things that keeps me going and eases my soul.  Today has been some of those little things.  And it has made me quite happy and thankful for that.  I hope the little things that come across your way make you smile and your heart happy.  It does for me.  Until next time...elizinashe
It's the Little Things That Make Life Beautiful

Monday, June 26, 2017

Busy In the Head

Dancing in the Wind
Wow..where did the time go? 

I feel like May was a growing, happy and creative month.  June...well..it's been hectic, busy and full of mixed emotions.  It's been a whirl for sure.

My dad came out to visit over Father's Day Weekend.  Over all it was a good visit but it came with crap from home and some emotional moments.  There is still a lot of baggage from the past, current worries and small steps for the future.  Sounds a bit cryptic I know, but I will spare you the details, as there are many.  As one of my good friends had described it when I was giving her a quick "run down" of that weekend, there are many layers to the whole story.  I think I'm still processing it all. 

I've had little time to myself it feels and it will still be a few more days of work until I really have enough time to myself to regroup.  Sounds selfish I know but that's how I rejuvenate and reset my inner batteries that way.  And knowing that, it makes me wonder if I'm really geared for a long term relationship.  Hmm...it's been so long I really don't know how to be a girlfriend anymore, nor do I know how to function in a relationship.  Or at least I think.  I hope I'm wrong. 

Regardless, the quiet time I do have now is a welcomed feeling.  I think I will relish in that for a little while longer.  Until next time...elizinashe
Channeling Some Inner Peace

Monday, June 5, 2017

The Single NIghtshifter

Time for a Refresher
Ask any night shifter and they will tell you that their sleep cycle is always a bit screwy.  Even if they are one of those people who can "turn around" easily, it's still gonna mess with you a bit.

I really don't mind working nights.  In fact, I almost prefer it.  It does wreak some havoc on my body and it certainly weighs on my mentality but the mental part would most likely be much worse if I was a day shifter.  Sometimes I miss working the daylight hours, but the mental baggage and stress would be about the same if not worse.  Plus, there is always more drama in the daytime.  Always.  I don't do drama.  I don't have time for that shit. 

But...being up late at night in your off time has it's perks and the opposite.  Lately I feel like I'm going through the opposite.  It gives me too much time to think and wallow...I know it's just a phase but man...its getting sucky.  Would I be happier working in the daytime like most people?  Probably not.  I've been there and done that and had similar struggles that filled up my little head.  The trick is not to allow all that baggage swimming upstairs make a home and unpack it's load for a long stay.  I refuse to let my current worries and fears plant roots.

I guess what I've been struggling with the most during this phase of mine is the singlehood part of it all.  I'm rather proud of the fact that I've been independent enough to make my own way without having to rely on anyone else to help keep a roof over my head or put food on the table.  But it sure would be nice to have someone around to help with the emotional stuff.  Sometimes it can be pretty hard and scary.  Too much thinking can drive you crazy.  And I'm pretty good at the "over thinking" stuff.  One of my charms I suppose.  😉  But as we all know, this too shall pass.  I just need to move through it. 

I still have lots of conquering to do and fun plans in the very near future.  Gotta get my game back on and send this mental stress out the front door.   Sunny days are ahead!  Until next time...elizinashe.
Open the Door and Let It All Out!

Monday, May 29, 2017

My Where Did the Time Go?

Thank You Veterans ! 
Happy Memorial Day!

This month sure did fly by, or so it seems to me.  Summer is fast approaching folks!  Hope you have something fun planned in the coming months as we all need a respite from the daily grind in our world.

Life is pretty good on my end of the stick and I'm really thankful for that.  I am certainly thankful for our veterans who sacrificed so much without complaint.  Despite our current administration and a complete idiot, we do live in a great country.  I hope and pray that we remain strong and vigilant to fight for our freedom and fight for what is right and true.  And I will leave it at that.

I don't have too much more to say...well, I do but it's a bunch of babble talk so I will spare you of mindless reading.  I no longer want to waste my time on bitching about things that I can't control.  I'm really working hard on keeping things simple and trying to focus on living my life that is fun and uplifting.  Sometimes that's hard.  I'm still working on that.  I suppose it's a life long process.

In the meantime, get out and enjoy the sunshine.  Take a drive, go for a hike, go explore a neighboring city just for the heck of it.  Smile at a stranger, hug your friends and listen to some music.  It's the little things is it not?

Until next time....elizinashe
Make Someone Happy Today !

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Feeling Frenzied

My Brain Won't Stop !
The last couple of days I have been distractedly focused.  Does that make any sense? 

I've been focused on doing some crafty projects around the house, which when I run into complications really frustrates me and then I get angry.  On top of that, I've been running around trying to tackle some necessary household stuff, get some cleaning done and get bills paid so I know how much money I have to leftover to pay off other debts as well as money for play in between my crafty stuff.   Ugh..

I feel like I can't really concentrate on one thing for very long because I'm constantly thinking about other things that seem more important.  I finish one thing and then flutter about trying to finish three other things as the same time which is never really productive because it takes longer to finish the other three things vs just one thing. 

The first crafty project was an epic fail.  That pissed me off as well as made me disappointed in myself.  I hate that feeling.  However, I cleaned up the first failure and began another one.  The second crafty project went better but it's slightly askew which bothers me.  It's just not quite going to work to my satisfaction.  Now don't get me wrong, I'm not completely anal but I do have a certain vision and I do allow mistakes, but for this....just can't do it.  Which led me to an internet search to redeem my "askewity" which may or may not work in the near future when I once again, tackle this one particular crafty project that I must complete as it is a bug up my ass that I must achieve. 

Another pest is my car.  I desperately need to get a peeling paint area patched and repaired.  It's really getting bad and I've procrastinated too long.  It began as a really simple thing...but work calls and it's my only car so getting rides around town is a challenge.  I refuse to take a cab and I have yet to do the Uber thing.  I just don't want some random stranger knowing where I live.  That's just a bit creepy to me...single girl issues.  I'm protective of myself that way.  I did get an estimate before the holidays...yes...I've waited that long...which was doable for the cheaper way but this place would have had my car for nearly three weeks.  Nope...can't have that.  The other guy that I know may be able to do the job more quickly and perhaps more economically, but now that I've waited too long...it might cost me more.  Ugh....the price of waiting too damn long.  Will I ever learn?

Now..you could say this surge of "getting too much done" is hormone related which very well could be true.  But then again...I feel like it's something else too.  As in preparing for something...which I do not know what that "something" might be.  And when I overthink that I drive myself even more crazy.  Maybe the Universe is getting ready to throw something wonderful out my way and when it comes I won't be worried about anything else.  I do hope it's something like that as opposed to the alternative. 

Regardless, I do hope this crazy neuron over-firing calms down a bit.  I certainly could use the energy to really tackle some responsibilities but the distracting fluttering about is driving me nuts.  Maybe it's the chaotic Spring weather.  I don't know...I just wish I could focus and chill a bit better.  Work is looming...I need to move past this phase before I hit the floor- unit wise that is.  Keeping my fingers crossed and my mind untangled.  Until next time...elizinashe
Breathe In...Breathe Out...

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Tidbits...

This Looks So Inviting...
I don't know why so many of my posts begin with cold, rainy weather.  It's rather unintentional but almost consistent.  Guess I should be more aware of that and start my posts from a different angle.  By the way....it really is cold and a bit rainy this weekend.  😉

They say things "happen in threes".  I think we've all seen it if not experienced it.  But it seems that it's usually bad stuff or something stressful and negative.  I keep waiting for the positive kind.  Speaking of the threes, two of my neighbors from home, grown men mind you, have gone to meet their maker as well as one of my former bar guests.  I guess the Heavens gained three new stars this week.  Guess I can count that as a positive. 

Fun vs. Responsibility.  This one is tough for me.  I have a good friend who makes it a point to schedule something fun almost every week around her work schedule.  I think that's super cool not to mention a great way to keep your own mentality in good spirits.  She's way better at planning than myself that's for sure.  But I'm trying to work on that too.  We've got some fun stuff planned and some ridiculous stuff too.  I dig that.  But with all the things on my "bucket list" it's hard to pick and choose without feeling guilty of spending too much money. I've got car and house issues to tackle and my dad will be coming to visit next month so there's more money right there.  I'm trying to get my credit card bill down, even though compared to others, it's not that much but it's enough to make me more aware of what I'm spending and how much.  I've never been one to micro-manage my budget, but I do need to be more watchful.  But as my friend once said, she's going to have fun now while she can because "you can't take it with you".  I like that mentality.  Maybe I should embrace that a bit more.  Small steps right?  Until next time...elizinashe
Unlock Yourself

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Windy Night, Foggy Brain

I Kind Of Dig This...
Our weather has been quite lovely the last few days.    The nights are a bit cooler than normal but that's okay.  We've got some pretty wicked winds coming through.  Yikes!  Apparently we've got a day or two of some gusty stuff making it's way across our mountains.  I hope my trash can doesn't blow away...I'd hate to chase it down.  Sure does cool things off a bit in the wee hours of the night.  I'm just thankful that I have moved away from the little shack that I had been living in previously as there were many tall trees fighting for space.  Nights like this with powerful gusts always kept me up in fear of a tree falling on top of me while I sleep.  Although I did have trees fall around the property while I lived there,  I was blessed enough to have never have one crash on top of the roof and smash me to bits.  Sometimes I still worry about whoever is living there now, as I am certain that something horrible like that will happen one day.  I hope they will remain safe.

I went back a few years on this thing, rereading some previous posts.  Man...what memories.  I used to be funny.  At least I think so...and more clever.  I guess I"m still funny at times but I think the inspiration to write back then was differently inspired.  Weird animals, fashion shows, silly thoughts, weird internet news...you get the picture.  Perhaps it's because I've grown a bit (?) or maybe the internet influence has changed.  I used to find all kinds of fun stuff, especially if it was weird or unusual but times have changed.  It's all politics, stupid celebrities, food recipes and the "bait and catch" type of stories.  Whatever happened to the stories of the two headed calf?  Or the 14lb baby?  However, we did have a live feed of "April the Giraffe".  The poor thing seemed to be in labor for two months with many anxiously awaiting to watch a live birth.  Guess I could have written about that...haha...And well, I just saw some images from the "Met Gala" with all the stars in their get-up but it's just not worth it to me to write about.  Too many self absorbed people...no fun in that. 

So that's it for now folks.  Just a quick random post.  My mind has been a bit distracted and lazy.  I'm slowly chipping away at my "must do " list but it seems that doing nothing and keeping it simple is taking priority right now.  Work beckons and then I will be done for a while.  I'll tackle the rest in due time.  One thing I have learned, but still struggle with is that it's "okay" if you don't get everything done that you think you're supposed to do.  It's perfectly fine to take your own "time out" and do absolutely nothing.  Because when you do, you end up feeling better and recharged.  Gotta take care of yourself, right?  Until next time...elizinashe
Stop and Take Time to Write !

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Late Night Bits

Green is Good
Well the sun finally came out today after two days of steady rain and a third of off and on showers.  Sheesh!  We surely need the rain but man...it was getting old.  I'm just thankful that I don't have any major leaks in the house as a result.  Counting my blessings on that one !

Spring has sprung for sure.  I swear my Azaleas seemingly popped out overnight and that was before all the rain.  They sure do look pretty.  My guess is that they will grow madly now...at least I hope.  The seeds I had thrown in my pots earlier this month are sprouting green.  I now have quite a few greens sticking out of the dirt.  Maybe I was doing this flower thing all wrong to begin with.  Meaning, start from scratch instead of buying flowers that have already bloomed.  I'm hoping my Grandmother's green thumb is laying her blessings on my flowers.  I do wish I had her gardening magic. 

I'm thinking about ditching the cable like many others and going the Netflix and Amazon way.  I still need internet for sure, but I'm trying to cut costs to save more in the future.  However, my TV is really old.  I don't even have a Flat Screen or a "Smart TV" so how do I hook up the internet to a 15 year old TV?  Plus, there isn't really one show that I consistently watch and I get kind of bored doing the whole "binge watch" thing.  I like to surf...and sometimes my attention span is really short so with cable at least I can click away.  I don't know...guess I will figure it out.  I will miss Paladia for sure.  Which is now MTV Live, but still...it's a good channel if you like music.  And that's all that it is.  Music.  No stupid shows.  Just music.  The heartbeat to my soul. 

Speaking of music, there are so many shows on my 'bucket list' and there are some good ones coming.  There is one dude~Robert Randolph~ that's coming to town and tickets are cheap.  I just might have to go to this one folks.  It's in town and it's very doable.  The Tedeshci Trucks Band is playing in Charlotte in July, Blondie and Garbage in Raleigh in August and Green Day in September again in Raleigh.  Sigh...I can't do all of them.  Or at least I feel..I wish I had a unlimited supply of money so I can go to all the live music shows that I wish.  However, bills come and go, unexpected bumps in the road and there is something called a savings account that I really need to pay more attention to...decisions, decisions....it's hard to choose. 

So what are your summer plans and wishes?  Who do you want to see in concert?  And the cable stuff...ditch it or keep it?  What do you do?  Until next time....elizinashe
I Need More of This !

Saturday, April 8, 2017

Spring Bits

Let's Bloom! 
Happy Spring Y'all.  The trees are beginning to pop out, people are planting flowers and the giant bumble bees are hovering around.  Ahhh...what a relief. 

Friends in need....I have a friend whom I have distanced myself from due to drama.  I really haven't missed her and I don't feel bad about admitting that.  Sometimes you have to take care of yourself.  And I have.  However, she recently has reached out to me and there is all kinds of crap going on in her world.  To keep it really short, she's getting the help that she truly needs.  That's a good thing.  However, despite the texts and messages that I told her that she had sent to me and apparently to her cousin, she blames me, her cousin and her older son for the predicament that she is in now.  Nope...you did this to yourself sister and you were screaming for help.  Own up to that.  I may lose her completely as a friend but that's totally okay with me.  I don't feel bad for contacting others to follow up on her safety.  I've done it before on another friend and I'd do it again.  I wish her well. 

Speaking of planting flowers...I typically stick with planting after Mother's Day as the old timers do.  But I decided to buy some cheap flower seeds and throw them in my pots that already have dirt.  I typically buy flowers already potted and bloomed out, but I'm taking my chances.  Hopefully I will have some sprouts in a couple of weeks.  We shall see...don't hold your breath. 

I'm going to see this crazy band tomorrow night that I've seen before.  I'm excited.  The first time I saw them they opened for the Dave Matthews Band.  I was impressed.  I knew I wanted to see them again.  And I did.  They came out my way about two years ago.  Man...what a good show.  And now they are returning to the same venue here in town.  This will be a lovely way to spend a Sunday night.  I've really missed live music and I going to make an effort to do it more often as it fills my soul and makes me happy.  One of my girlfriends from work is going to be my co-pilot.  She's never seen them but I'm pretty sure she will walk away amazed and wondering "What in the hell did I just see?".  I'm looking forward to the girly time.  I can always use more of that.

In the meantime, get out an enjoy the sunshine and go have some fun!  See ya later!  elizinashe
Gogol Bordello

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Friends and Fiends

Amen !
I love my peeps.  Hands down, I've got some really good friends some of which are miles apart.  Sometimes it's hard to keep up with each other, but there are plenty of silly texts, catch up emails and random cards.  Somehow we stay connected. 

One of my bestest girlies now lives in Raleigh.  She's one busy chic and it's hard to slow her down sometimes because she throws herself into new challenges, projects and educating herself on top of working full-time while juggling a marriage and parenthood.  I admire her tenacity.  She is always finding a way to give more back to others, throws herself into being involved in her community, her family, her child and pretty much finds something new to tackle for her own curiosities.  And when she gets overwhelmed with all that she does, she's pretty good at reaching out and making a plan to get away from it all.  And sometimes that includes crashing at my place.  I like that.  It gives us time to catch up in person and drink some wine like we have many times in the past.  She's one of my bestest peoples in my world.  Don't know what I'd do without her. 
And She Does !

I remember the day that I saw my childhood best friend.  We were in the first grade.  I saw her walking back to her class after recess.  She was short with dark hair, wearing a Love's Baby Soft t-shirt.  (I'm telling on myself here.  😉)  We became friends shortly after and we are still in touch to this day.  We nicknamed each other "wusband" many years ago-a combo of wife and husband if you will-as a term of endearment for long lasting relationships.  A friendship marriage it is...and a good one at that.  We haven't seen each other in person in a very long time, and we don't talk much because our lives are so hectic but I can certainly say, when something is going on with either one of us, we know.  And then we call.  And it's like time hasn't passed so much.  I guess with a friendship like that you will always be connected in that weird sort of way. 
Many Talks About Our Mothers....

Fiendship.  Yes, I said "fiend".  I met one of my other really good friends on the Internet.  And not in that way as you would think.  We both laugh when people ask "How did you meet?".  It's a fun story to tell because it was so random, but when we finally met in person, it was an instant connection, and no...not in that way.  The original plan was to meet for coffee while he was in town for a couple of days but we opted for wine instead.  That was a much better idea in my book.  The word fiend came up a couple of years later as a typo but we stuck with it just for fun.  I'm not sure why, maybe it's the extra wine we drink when we get together.  Maybe it's just something silly.  One thing is for sure, he & I are definitely connected in odd ways that cannot be planned or known ahead of time.  It's just "one of those things" and I'm thankful for that.  And yes, he's a dude.  I do believe men and women can be friends and close friends at that, without it being weird.  You should try it sometime. 
Yep.

So that's it for now folks.  Until next time....elizinashe

Monday, March 20, 2017

What Do You Do?

It Was a Cold and Dreary Night...
One of my coworkers asked me what I liked to do for fun the other night.  I had to stop and think about that one for a bit.  And I'm kind of glad that he did as it was a heated moment at work that night. I needed a brief distraction from the chaos. 

So what do I do for fun?  Well...I have this thing.  Which has been quite therapeutic and most likely has saved me loads of money in therapy, although I probably could still use that from time to timeIn fact, I met one of my very best friends through this thing.  And that's a whole other story to which I will spare you for now. 

 I like taking pictures and I'm not talking about a bunch of selfies although I've done that too.  I'm talking about walking around and finding odds and ends and trying to capture that in the camera lens.  Vacation time is always good for that which is another thing I need to do more often.  I like finding that arch in a building, a quiet flower or some random object and getting that on film.  I've been lucky a few times and others not so much.  But there is always room for improvement. 

Trying to Stay Calm

I like cooking and trying new recipes that won't take me all damn day long because that's just stupid.  I like having friends over to try the said new recipes, or something more traditional and sharing good conversation and wine.  Can't forget the wine!  It makes me happy to plan a  meal, make a big mess and have special people over and spoil them a bit.  That's fun for me.  

Cards...I like sending cards.  Mostly silly Halloween and Valentine cards but it's fun for me.  I don't think people do such things anymore given modern technology.  I feel like it's a "lost art" so to speak.  I don't even think people send Thank You cards anymore like we were taught when we were younger.  Why is that?  I will spend more money on a stack of silly cards instead of a purse or shoes.  I hate to shop, but card shopping is way more fun for me.  That's not so bad is it?  

Getting crafty...I have my moments.  And I'm slowly getting back into that.  I have a couple of stalled crafty projects that I need to tweak and finish instead of allowing it to collect dust.  I'm pretty good at that too.  I used to hike quite a bit and I really miss that.  Those days were a lot of fun for me.  I seriously need to get back into that.  Not only did it recharge my soul, but it also gave my the opportunity to use that camera.  It was win-win situation.  I think this will be the year to get back into the habit.  Or so I hope.  

Music...I love it.  I love catching live music and I used to be out almost every weekend but that was way back in the day...I've already caught a Ben Folds show last month which was super awesome and next month I have tickets for a crazy band that is returning to Asheville for another show.  I'm really looking forward to that.  I know it will be good.  Music does fill my soul...it is my "go to" in many aspects.  

So..I guess there are quite a few things that I "do for fun".  I've never really thought about it before as some of these things are just automatic and not really planned, although some things do take some planning ahead which is not my forte as I have said in previous posts.  Looking back on this silly little list, I guess I'm not doing too bad after all.  

So with all of that said...what do you do for fun?  Until next time...elizinashe
Mmmm...

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

On A Cold Windy Night...

Calm and Quiet...
Dang is it ever cold outside!  Old Man Winter came back this past weekend and has been sticking around.  And after having nearly 70 degree temperatures too!  I blame the time change.  That "spring ahead" mess screws up Mother Nature and she lashes out.  Seriously...I swear every time we jump forward an hour things get screwy the following week.  Think about it...you know it's true.  

Speaking of this past weekend, I had dear friends come visit along with their 8 year old son.  Whew!  I must say he's a pretty good kid.  He still does not know what to think of me just yet but I think we get along fine.  He knows to be quiet in the mornings so us adults can "get it together" and will listen to his parents when it comes to redirection and setting limits.  He may push it a bit at times, but all in all...he's a really good kid.  I give huge kudos to his parents.  They are such awesome people and they are raising a pretty awesome kid.  It's hard work for sure, but I think they are handling the whole parenthood thing really well.  Good job guys! 

This weekend was my "turn around" weekend which initially it was a bit stressing for me knowing that my sleep would be screwy but I worked it out somehow.  My friends had a "play date" scheduled for Saturday with one of our other friends who has two boys, so that left me some quiet time to clean up, catch a nap and prepare a small feast for my lovelies.  That made me pretty happy.  Along with the time spent with my peeps.  They are truly special people to me and I look forward to having them visit many more times.  

One of my coworkers is having a bit of a "send off" tomorrow night at a local bar/restaurant.  He's decided to hike the Appalachian Trail, solo mind you, from beginning to end.  God I hope he makes it.  I'm really excited for him and I look forward to spending time with some coworkers outside of the unit walls.  But man...it's gonna be cold.  I'm trying to get over that.  It will definitely be a night to layer up!  My other worry is driving at night.  I really don't like doing it so much anymore.  Maybe I'm getting old....regardless it will be an opportunity to get out and have some more fun before I start my long stretch of work.  I need something like that other than cooking at home and shooting pics to a fellow foodie.  haha...not that there is anything wrong with that, but sometimes you just need to break things up a bit, no?  

In the meantime, stay warm and have faith that all will be well soon enough.  Mother Nature can't be all wonky too long.  Sunny skies and warmer temperatures will soon be here.  Keeping my fingers crossed on that one.  Wink, wink.  Until next time...elizinashe
Curl Up and Have a Glass...

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

I Want a Do Over

Who Doesn't Need Colorful Flowers?
Alone time is good.  Too much alone time is not.  And this has been my weekend of too much alone time.  Granted, I had other plans but the whole sudden sick kitty thing threw everything out of whack.  My sleep has been screwy although it has been a bit better the last 24 hours, my plans for relaxing and creativity has been a bit wacky and my mentality has been one big pity party.  I hate it when I get that way. 

Too much alone time gives your brain the opportunity to think too much and dwell on things that you really shouldn't dwell on.  And yes, I ended my sentence with a preposition.  I do that often and I don't care.  haha..

I really have no regrets in my life, but maybe a couple of "do overs" would be nice.  Remember those?  I call a "do over!"    A little blast from childhood days.  Sometimes I miss those times.  Everything seemed so much simpler then.  This getting older stuff can be really hard sometimes.  Especially in my world.  And especially since this past weekend has been horrible.  I wish I could have a "do over" and make it better.

On a brighter note, I do have fun plans for tomorrow night with one of my girly peeps that I haven't seen in a while.  She's a busy single mom of two cutie boys, and being that I work nights, getting together can be a challenge.  But I am a person of my word, and making more of an effort to reach out and make plans with this beautiful person.  I think she's one of the bravest girls I have ever known.  She's tackled many, many challenges and she always seems to come up smiling through it all.  I love that about her.  I hope that I can channel some of that bravery as I have felt weak and disheartened with all the crap that I have allowed to swirl in my head and dictate my world.  I don't want to continue that pattern.  It's just not good for the soul. 

So I will continue on this journey, taking it one step at a time with hopes of finding some joy and rejuvenation.  One small thing I did accomplish is getting some pictures developed with plans adding them to one of my walls and the others sending to my dad.  I think it will be pretty cool.  Especially the one I have planned for my dad.  I think he will get a kick out of it.  That made my heart happy today.  And that's a good thing.  Until next time...elizinashe
Knock and Go In or Take the Steps?

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Not My Weekend...

Feeling Blue....
This is my weekend off.  I had such high hopes.  But alas, life happens.  

I had gone out Friday night for a couple of drinks and a snack for dinner which is typical for a "turn around day" being a night shifter.  That went fine.  But as midnight struck, things changed.  And not for something good.  

My 20 year old kitty Hecubus got sick.  Being a nurse, knowing his habits and having him for the last 20+ years I was waiting things out for a bit.  After some time, I knew that I needed to get him to a vet as his issues weren't subsiding.  Ugh...my only choice in the wee hours of the morning was the Emergency Clinic which I absolutely hate.  I am glad that they are available, and they have saved many lives when it comes to fur babies, but still...I hate going there.  Not only do they price gauge because they can, but they never really listen to me.  To keep it short, I got the treatment that was needed and got a thorough workup, but not only at a monetary cost, but at an emotional cost too.  For me and my kitty.  Although he's doing better, he's still not completely back to baseline.  It still worries me....I'm hoping he will rebound soon once his meds kick in a bit more.  

My friend who I have spoken about before, the one who I've become distanced from and is sick really isn't doing well at all.  She finally reached out to me and I responded as I truly wanted to catch up with her a bit.  She's pretty sick folks.  And I feel horrible for her.  I don't know how her journey will end.  I'm afraid it's going to be a long and painful one.  Her oldest son and daughter-in-law are a big help but I can't answer for her other kids.  They have their own issues.  I wish I could do more but all I can do is be supportive.  I don't regret not being in touch with her more often these last couple of years.  I know it sounds horrible, but I don't.  I do feel horrible that she's having such a hard time and with little support in this new challenge.  It's not good...that is for sure.  My heart really goes out to her.  Is that enough?  

My childhood best friend is pretty sick too.  She's struggled with health issues for a very long time and now because of that,  like there is some new stuff that has become the result of it all.  It's cryptic I know, but it's just too much to discuss here.  We've tried talk and text but that's been a bit tricky with my work schedule and her availability to talk around testing and sleep.  It just sucks all around.  I'm hoping for some positive results.  She always rebounds in some sort of miracle fashion.  I hoping for a positive outcome.  

So in short, it's been a shitty weekend thus far.  And it's almost over.  My world has been turned upside down and not in a good way.  It's been hard for sure...hoping for a better day tomorrow.  Wishing all of us love and positive thoughts out your way.  We all could use more of that don't you think?  Until next time...elizinashe. 
Prayers for All

Thursday, February 16, 2017

This and That

Cold & Quiet
It's cold and windy tonight.  It's a good night to stay parked on the couch cuddled up in your favorite blanket and do absolutely nothing but channel surf.   Fuzzy socks are a requirement.  A four legged fur baby lying on top of you is a bonus.  Extra body heat...

That's pretty much been my night.  I had gone out earlier for dinner but I made that trip quick and simple.  As much as I wanted to socialize more, I was ready to get into my favorite sweatshirt and pajama pants and get on that said couch-fuzzy socks and all.  Does that make me lazy?  I'm afraid that I've gotten too used to that routine...I hope that coming Spring light will motivate me to be more productive.  The Winter blahs are beginning to get to me I think. 

Have you been on a committee before?  Like for work or your community?  School?  Did you like it or was it a " have to" kind of deal?  I've done group projects before during school, but I don't really recall being heavily involved in any groups/committees in high school or college.  I had been asked to be on some Night Governance Council for the hospital along with other nurses throughout the hospital.  I was hesitant to say "yes" but I felt like I needed to do something more career wise and at least lend a voice for our unit. 

But alas, I didn't succeed too well with that group.  To keep a very long story short, I felt like I was doomed from the get-go as the first meeting I had attended failed.  There is a phone number that you can call and be present by conference call in case you can't travel.  So that is the route I chose to do that night.  However, there were three other members on this phone call also but none of us could hear anything nor could anyone hear us.  For those of us who had called in, we could hear each other but that was about it.  Turns out the leader of the meeting "forgot" to turn on the call in feature and therefore we all missed it.  Ugh...and the rest?  Well...it was just uneventful on my end of the stick.  I knew better to agree to be a part of this committee as I just don't do well in that sort of extra group activity but at least I tried.  I now know just to say "no" and move on.  I have since politely removed myself from this Council group and I feel a lot better about it.  It just wasn't my cup of tea...

So what's in store for me?  Well, I certainly need to get motivated to complete some extra schooling that's for sure.  I've procrastinated way too long...one of my charms.  Again, I've gotten a bit lazy.  And it's become a comforting habit.  I need to break that up a bit.  It's the idea of more schooling that stresses me out...but I've done it before right?  Sheesh...One thing's for sure, more schooling will keep me out of trouble and will force me to be more productive at home.  Plus, I could use school as an excuse for my lack of cleaning the floors and bathrooms instead of plain ole laziness and procrastination.  haha...until next time...elizinashe 
What's Your Poison On a Cold Night?

Saturday, February 11, 2017

Would You or Wouldn't You?

Let's Be Friends!
How many friends do you have on Facebook?  Of all the many people that you know-friends, family, coworkers, bar flies, etc- how many of them do you "friend"?  And of the new people that you meet, do you accept their "friend request" after meeting them?  It's a tricky situation, eh? 

As I have said before, I have a crush on my heating/cooling guy.  He's a good looking guy folks.  Really...Anyway, his profile keeps popping up on my "people you may know" feed.  Weird.  I'm tempted to send him that "friend request" so that we may communicate more.  Perhaps it's the new way of stalking someone, but I'm not that creepy nor do I want to be that creepy chic.  I'm not the stalker type and the idea of asking him out while he's here doing work is just too weird.  I don't want to make him uncomfortable.  I really like having him to do work for me and I want to maintain that part of the relationship.  Complicated?  Or am I over thinking it?  Is the Universe trying to tell me something with the frequent "people you may know" blip?

If I only knew if he had a place where he "hung out" then I could "accidentally run into him".  haha..But I don't know those facts.  He may not be one to go out much with his buddies or go out and have a few drinks.  I just don't know...and these are the things I want to know because then I feel like it would give me a better idea about making my interests known.  Am I being smart or just plain stupid?  I don't know...

Anyway...just some thoughts in my head on this full moon/eclipse/meteor chilly night.   Until next time...elizinashe
If Only It Were This Simple