Sunday, September 24, 2017

The New Guy in My Life

Trevor Noah
Okay, so no...I really don't have a new romance as of present, but I do however have a new famous person obsession.  I may be a bit behind the times on this, but then again perhaps not.

I've been hearing about Trevor Noah for some time now.  I've been catching him more frequently on the Daily Show and have seen him on a talk show or two.  He seems to be a really hot ticket these days.  At least in America.

1).  He's really funny and wicked smart. 
2).  He grew up in a difficult time that 90% of us could never understand. 
3).  He's got a keen sense of observation. 

Need I go on?  I saw that he was coming to do a stand-up gig in my town a couple of months ago.  I immediately knew I wanted to go.  And I knew immediately who I wanted to go with me.  For some reason, I felt like this was extremely important to see this show.  Not that I felt like it would be some big political thing or one of those "life changing moments", but I knew I just had to go.  

And so I went.  With my bestie in tow.  And it was all worth it even if we were in the first balcony.

I was lucky enough to find his book about a week prior to the show at a used book store.  I read it in a within a week which is a record for me.  It was painfully funny and very well written.  I felt like I could hear him tell his story as if he was sitting in front of me. 

Trevor grew up in South Africa during the Apartheid with a black mother and a white father.  That was a big "no-no" back then not to mention totally illegal.  (huh?).  This guy lived through some shit, y'all.  Even slept inside a car at night because he did not have a proper bed in one phase of his life.  There were times when there was no food, so he went hungry.  But somehow...he survived.  And became very successful.  He broke the cycle of living what could have been a horrible life.   And he's humble about it too. 

I learned so much by reading his book that I am just fascinated with his story.  I want to know more.  I want to know what happened to his friends he mentioned his his book.  I want to know what happened to the girl he fell in love with and that suddenly moved to the States as her father got a job here in our country.  He never did get the chance to profess his feelings.  I wonder if he's found her now on Facebook.  Maybe she found him? 

I want to hear him speak the six South African languages he learned, mostly out of survival and some of it rooted in  ancestry.  Check out the Xhosa language.  I find it fascinating.  And he can speak that as his mother was Xhosa.  I've already Googled the other languages too.  Again...I find it fascinating. 

What amazes me the most, is this guy grew up in an era that was rooted in hatred, racism, violence, crime and poverty.  And yet, this guy overcame his hardships and made a career for himself.  Yes, many comedians have some sort of tragic background, thus they cope with comedy and silly jokes.  But this guy makes his experiences funny and in a way, a teaching forum.  He's always grateful and humble for his success.  And he really doesn't say a mean or hateful word about his subjects in his comedic routine.  He's wickedly sharp.  And I want to know more and more and more about his life and hear more of his stories.  I've always been a sucker for a good yarn or two. 

If you haven't read his book yet, I highly recommend putting it on your reading list.  I promise you won't get bored.  There were times I just wanted to hug him, and others I am laughing my ass off.  His mother must be a Saint and that is all I will say about that.  Check it out folks-"Born a Crime" -it's a good read.  And you just might find yourself wanting to know more about him just like me.  Until next time....elizinashe. 
Something To Remember

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Angel In Disguise?

Little Things Can Mean So Much
I had an unusual experience today while driving around town running errands.  And when I thought about it a bit more, it seems like I've been having frequent "unusual experiences".  I guess you could say it's more of a Good Samaritan experience vs. something strange or not common.

Example you say?  Well, for one, I found a man's wallet lying by an ATM on a late Sunday afternoon a few weeks back.  There was no one else around, the bank was closed and the overnight depository was made for envelopes and not for something bulky, like some dude's wallet.

I could not in good conscience leave the wallet there.  I'd hate to think that some random person would discover this wallet and steal all that he/she could.  That would just suck.  So I turned the wallet into the Lost & Found at the grocery store that was in the same complex with hopes of management tracking this man down and returning his belongings.

And that was just one experience of many the last three months.

Today, I saw a little old lady walking down a very busy road next to our municipal golf course walking pretty much in traffic and not in the grass.  She stuck out like a sore thumb so to speak.  No purse, no golf gear, not even looking for a lost golf ball.  She truly seemed out of place and perhaps a bit lost.  You just don't see little old gray haired ladies walking down a city road everyday.  So I called the police department to voice my concerns and encourage them to go and pick her up.  I gave them my story, a description of what she looked like and where she was going.  I hope they got to her before she got hit by some driver because that could have totally happened.

I have had other incidences that I have encountered recently to which I will spare you the details.   But when I reflect on the last few months and these little encounters that I have found, I can't help but wonder why me?  Maybe it was "meant to be" .  Maybe if I ignored such things, that a negative outcome would have occurred as a result.  Maybe it's a new calling?  Not that I go and search for this sort of thing, but rather just "happened to be there".

I hope that old lady is safe.  And I hope that guy got his wallet back.  They say good deeds don't go unpunished.  I guess I will know someday that these small good deeds will be repaid when I need it.  In the meantime, I will continue to move forward in my life, watch over my aging kitty and make time for the little things.

May we all be blessed and may we all remember to be kind to each other, even if it's a stranger.  Until next time...elizinashe
It's a Big World Out There!

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Restless, Bored & Wide Awake

Ever Have One of These Nights?
Ah..the night shifter blues....

It's late and I should be in bed like a normal person, but I am not.  I'm a bit restless, bored with the television and wide awake.  Ugh..

I suppose I could do a little cleaning but I'm just not motivated.  I did load up the dishwasher and turned it on, so that counts right? 

I've done pretty good knocking out my "to do" list the last couple of days.  My main goal was to get a few errands out of the way before Irma's leftovers hovered over our part of the world.  She sure was a bitch.  We've had steady rain since late afternoon and our nighttime hours were flavored with some high winds and some a gusty blasts that left you a bit nervous.  There are numerous trees down in the area and some folks are without power.  So far I'm good.  My lights flickered for a bit and I did lose some power for about 5 seconds.  And that's about it.  I'm so glad I moved away from my previous residence as I am sure the trees around that place were soon to come down on a windy night.  Sheesh!

I had hoped that the eclipse were to bring good ju-ju and a new beginning.  It seems like it's been quite the opposite.  We have horrible fires out west, two significant hurricanes and an earthquake in Mexico between the said earthquakes.  Mother Nature sure ain't happy.  Maybe she's trying to tell us something.  Maybe this is Mother Nature's way of resetting the game.  Guess time will tell...

In the meantime, I will continue to flip through the cable with hopes of finding something that will catch my attention for a bit, maybe step outside for a smoke and hit the hay within the hour.  I still have a few things to knock out before I return to work and I need some normal daylight hours in order to get it all done.   Keeping fingers crossed.   Until next time...elizinashe
Tomorrow is a New Day

Monday, September 11, 2017

I Think I'm a Romantic

😊 Hearts Make Me Happy 😊
I've never been one to always have a boyfriend or even have a date every weekend.  Hell, I can't even remember when I actually had a real date or a boyfriend as a matter of fact.  But I still have hope...

I've never really been big on flowers or a box of chocolates although that is nice every now and then.  I do like the little things though.  That little kiss on the back of the neck, maybe a slow dance or two and small gestures without the assumption of sex or some other form of a payback. 

I watched a romantic movie earlier tonight, one that I've seen a dozen times but the story in itself was lovely.  It wasn't one of those super sappy romances but one that builds on friendship and trust and then blossoms into love.  I kind of like that.  I am now on another romantic movie, loosely based on a true story.  Again, I like the story line.  It's not too sappy and the movie shows how this one couple rebuilds their life after tragic events and rediscover each other again and fall in love like they did the first time around.  Peppered with first time dates and building on a friendship, leaving their past behind.  Oh yeah, I've seen the all of the newer Jane Austen movies derived from her books too.

Does this make me a secret romantic? 

In my younger years, I aspired to have a relationship like my grandparents had instead of my own parents.  I'm not sure why, other than the way my grandparents met and they way they always worked together as a couple inspired me.  Yes, they had the struggles and arguments but they worked through those waters and always kissed each other everyday.  They were married for 60 plus years before my grandfather passed away.  That's a lot of years folks.  And a lifetime of love and memories.  I like that.

I don't think I will make it to 60 years of marriage.  Hell, I'd do well if I can even keep a guy for more than a year.  But again, I still have hope.  There is a part of me that has always believed that I'm just going to be that girl who has random boyfriends and never really will have a partner to stick with me until the bitter end.  I'm kind of okay with that and kind of not. 

In the meantime, I guess I will stick with my movies, memories of my grandparents and live vicariously through my friends who have wonderful and just as inspiring relationships.  I admire that too.  And maybe one of these days, I will write my own romantic story and live that life outside of the movie screen.  Until next time...elizinashe
💕 What's Your Romantic Story?  💕

Sunday, September 3, 2017

What? Summer Is Over?

🙋 Thanks for Visiting!  🙋
Wow..where did August go?  I feel like it just flew by in a quick blink.  I feel like I didn't do much, but once I reflect back I had a pretty fun month.  And September began with a piano concert with my mother and one of our other girly friends.  It sure was a treat.

This past month has also been a bit of "kitty patrol".  My old man Hecubus is old and getting frail.  It really makes me sad and I know his time is limited.  So I try and give him extra love and comfort, watching for signs of further decline and praying that I will be at home and away from work when his time on this Earth is done.  I hate the idea of being at work and my kitty is in pain and alone in the house.  I hope that won't be the case. 

We have a bright, beautiful moon out tonight.  It's nearly full and quite comforting to see.  There is a change in the air with cooler temperatures and a gentle breeze.  In fact, it's been chilly enough late at night that when I step out on my deck I put on my bathrobe to keep me warm as I take in the stars and fresh air.  I guess I'm turning into a little old lady in some ways.  Maybe that's not a bad thing. 

My hope for the coming Fall season is to have more happy thoughts and adventures.  I pray for our country to heal and unite as there has been so much hate spread across our map.  I just don't get it.  I pray that Congress will put country before party.  I think they have forgotten that vital piece of democracy.  I will say that the countless volunteers, famous folks and local businessmen have stepped up to the plate in helping out thy neighbor down there in Texas.  There are some good people in this world.  I think we all need to remember that everyday don't ya think?  Until next time...elizinashe
 💗 Spread Some Love Today! 💗

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Restless & Frustrated

Feeling a Bit Like This
I really shouldn't complain about my world.  I am blessed and lucky.  And my heart breaks for Texas.  I could not imagine what those people are going through.  But...I just can't shake this depressed like state of mind.  Maybe it's Mercury pulling on me.  What is Mercury you ask?  Look it up Mercury Retrograde.  It will save a lot of babble talk from me. 

I know for the most part, it's just situational.  But it still nags at me.  I've procrastinated on a couple of necessary things to which now, I feel like it's a bit overwhelming to tackle now, so I procrastinate more.  Ugh...and then I continue to feel bad about procrastinating.  To some, it may be no big deal, but to me, it's bothersome.  How did I become so lazy?  Is it working the night shift?  I don't know.

My kitty waxes and wanes.  When I think it's time to "make that call", he perks up and he is bright once again.  I feel like I've been on cat patrol for the last month.  I've been keeping a daily record of his eating habits, bowel movements, medications and all that jazz.  It's getting a bit ridiculous.  He's not in any pain nor is he suffering.  I know he feels puny at times, and then he rebounds.  It's a strange cycle.  My biggest fear is that he's going to get really sick while I'm at work and I can't do what needs to be done.  Another strike for being single.  Man it would be so much easier if I had someone to walk this life with me.  Or so I think. 

My summer has been good and I've had a lot of fun, but it sure would have been nice to escape to the beach.  I still need to do that and soon.  But again...unexpected expenses and a sickly kitty keeps me from staying away too long.  Ugh...

I just wish I could catch a break.  Again, I'm lucky and blessed.  I just wish this unhappy feeling would just pass and lift away.  Something good needs to come my way.  I need a boost.  Until next time...elizinashe
Aiming for More of This

Friday, August 25, 2017

Mean People Suck

Feeling All Jumbled
Regardless of what you do for work, you will always have personality clashes and ones that you can never please no matter what you do or say.  I am no better than the next person, I make mistakes and I expect that my fellow co-workers exude the same temperament.  However, I know that can't always be true. 

I also know that one or sometimes two persons who have those unrealistic expectations and perfectionist ideals will never be happy with the work you do.  I also know that it is something that has been taught or learned due to something in their past, or an expectation that was made of them and has followed them into their adulthood and working life.  I get that. 

What I don't get is a consistent disapproving, condescending, micromanaging, disrespectful attitude towards others and co-workers, leaving them feeling unappreciated, angry and sometimes in tears for no reason other than their expectations and their high standards were not met, when in reality, that is just an unrealistic expectation to begin with. 

And when such behavior is thrown in the face of many, and not just one person, then it's a problem.  The tricky thing is, sometimes when you do address such an issue with your superiors, nothing ever changes or worse yet, that superior may be "tight" with the said person with the unrealistic perfectionist issues.  So...how do you work around that?  What kind of charge do you get by being so mean and high & mighty?  I would think it does nothing but start your day off feeling stressed out on top of an already stressed out job.  So why would you want to put yourself through that?  And watching good co-workers being treated with such behavior doesn't make you feel good or appreciated either. 

It's a tricky deck of cards that's for sure.  I refuse to be played like the Joker and I always aim for winning Aces, but sometimes your going to get a Spade.  And that's okay.  I just wish some people would stop expecting Diamonds every damn day.  ( How do you like that use of metaphors?  😉 )

Until next time....elizinashe
Why Can't We All Just Get Along?  

Monday, August 21, 2017

Jackpot !

🙏 Make Me a Winner ! 🙏
No, I didn't win a crapload of money, but it sure would be nice.  The Power Ball ticket has not found a winner yet.  The numbers haven't been magical for anyone and the payout is more than you could ever imagine.  It's quite ridiculous. 

I've never bought a lottery ticket, although I just might.  I'm pretty sure I won't be a winner, but the wish is there and I'm hopeful that it will bring me luck of some sort, regardless if I'm a winner or not.  Big or small. 

I've often thought what I'd do if I ever did win a pile of money.  It certainly would be a blessing.  And perhaps a curse too.  I would not want my face splashed across the papers or be on TV.  I would want to remain anonymous.  By all means.  But, if I did win...man oh man...

I'd pay off all my debts and make sure my parents are taken care of as they age as their long term  care will be necessary.  I sure as hell take a nice vacation too.  And rope in some of my good friends along for the respite.  In fact, I'd travel to places that I've always wanted to visit.  Both in our country and outside of our country.  It's a really big world out there...I want to explore that more. 

I'd set money aside for my own future, donate to local charities and hire someone to clean my house as I really hate spending the time doing that adult sort of thing.  I'm pretty sure I'd splurge on a few things but as for a big giant house or big ticket items, no thank you.  I would want to keep it simple and use that money for exploring and adventurous experiences.  Life is short and I would want to do as much as I can without wasting my new found wealth.  And I'm most certain that I would drive myself crazy in overthinking about it too.  Part of my charm. 

No...I don't think I will win but the idea of it makes me feel pretty good.  It's a lot more fun thinking about that than all the other crap that swirls in my head and I find its a great stress reducer too.    Can't go wrong with that, eh?  Until next time...elizinashe
😉 May We All Be Blessed With Ben  😉

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

It's the End of the World As We Know It...

Get Those Glasses On!
Okay, so the world is not ending, however it certainly seems to be spinning on a highly volatile axis these days.  Some days I just can't believe my eyes.  However, we've got an eclipse upon us.  Maybe we all need a bit of the dark from Mother Nature so the new light may shine where it needs to shine.

I'm lucky to live in an area where there will be a 98% totality of the solar eclipse.  Wow...I'm not much of a geek when it comes to this sort of stuff but I feel very lucky to live in the path of this phenomenal event.  I've got my glasses and plans to sit on my deck to bask in the moment.  I'm kind of worried about the whole eye thing despite having the ISO approved glasses.  Maybe I'll just keep my eyes closed as a precaution.

Through modern science, such celestial events are easier to predict.  This event apparently is one of a kind, at least in North America not to mention in my neck of the woods.  Long before giant telescopes, math equations and all that other geeky stuff, shooting stars and eclipse's must have instilled panic among the masses.  I am certain that there was a small minority of indigenous peoples knew better, maybe worshiping such a gift or perhaps taking it as an omen.  Regardless, we are lucky to have such knowledge of how and why these things happen.  I know from history many ancient peoples looked to the stars and the heavens for guidance, inspiration, superstitions, life and death.  Being that I'm a bit superstitious myself and ask the Universe for what I need, I think I will take this Solar Eclipse as a way to renew and rejuvenate in my own life.  I hope the rest of the World will take the same opportunity.  Otherwise, Mother Nature might have a different plan in the days to come.

Until next time...elizinashe.
Let's All Be Kind to Our World

Sunday, July 30, 2017

Troubled Mind

My Head is a Mess Today
Today should be a day of fun and relaxation.  I had plans for dinner with some friends but alas, life got in the way and I had to cancel.  We were pretty flexible about it anyway, but I was looking forward to doing something different and spending time with good peeps. 

My kitty is sick and I had to take him back to the vet this afternoon as he's not recovering like he should when I took him three nights ago.  It just breaks my heart to take him to the vet, as it stresses him out in a terrible way, and it worries me as well.  He's getting old and puny.  I know he doesn't feel good and I wish I could just take his discomfort away.  But I can't.  I just want to hold him in my arms and make it all better.  Hopefully the vet will be able to determine what's going on this time around.  And I hope it's quick.  It's weird to be in the house without him hanging around. 

I fell asleep on the couch earlier this afternoon, which I needed a good nap but man...were my dreams ever weird.  First, I had a brief period of Sleep Paralysis.  If you don't know what that is, look it up and hope you never experience it.  It's a very strange and frightening feeling.  Then I dreamt that I fell down some stairs, catching myself before I hit the ground and after that I had a really weird dream which involved my father.  No, not one of those dreams.  Let's get real.  I'll just say it was quite disturbing and scared me a bit.  I'm pretty sure it's all related to my subconscious and my worries about his health and aging, especially since he's so far away.  Regardless, it was a disturbing dream.  It's kind of messing with my head. 

In the meantime, I'm trying to keep myself busy while I wait for the vet to call and the memories of my afternoon dream waft away.  It's not a very happy Sunday for me....it actually kind of sucks.  It's been a long, hard week on many levels.  Sometimes this adult stuff sucks ass.  Wish I would have known this sooner.  haha...I'm just moving through the waves.  At least my head is still above water.  Until next time....elizinashe
Hoping for a Better Door This Week

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

What's In the Bag?

She's Cute in Red
The English are pretty well devoted to their Queen and all things Royal.  It's a different country with a long history of a regal ruler.  It certainly is not like what it used to be but some traditions are still intact with all its pomp and circumstance. 
Future Queen Age 7

Anyway...the Queen.  As I was trying to fall asleep the other night, this random thought crossed my mind for no particular reason.  Maybe it was my brain's way to throw out our country's hot mess of a political situation.  Regardless, the Queen has always carried that same type of 'pill box' handbag in all of her years of Reign.  No should bags, no glitzy clutches, no wallet styles or a simple small purse.  Always an old lady handbag.  An apparently that started at an early age back in the day.

So my question is, how many handbags does she have after all these years?  And what does she keep in that little pillbox of a bag?  Tissues perhaps?  No, she's Royalty.  That would be a monogrammed handkerchief.  What about lipstick?  Certainly eye glasses these days.  A compact of powder?  What does a Queen keep in her purse?  Does she have a key to the Palace in case she gets locked out?  Pepper spray?  What about a smart phone? Hmm..an itinerary and notes of people's names so she won't forget who's who  at whatever gathering she may be attending?  Curious minds want to know. 

What's in your wallet Your Royal Highness?  This down-to-earth chic wants to know!  I'll show you mine if you show me yours.  😉  Until next time...elizinashe
You Think She's Got a Flask in That Bag? 

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Late Night Bits

Cheers! 
Our hot weather is beginning to settle in for a few days.  Ugh...not looking forward to that at all.  Keeping my fingers crossed that my air conditioning unit doesn't crap out on me.  It's still really new, and I always have a routine maintenance checks to make sure all the bells and whistles are in good shape.  I think I will be fine. 

I caught up with a traveling girlfriend today.  I'm lucky if I see her once a year.  She has an unusual job and is sometimes in my area for work.  She will be leaving by the end of the week for her next gig.  I've known this woman for nearly twenty years now.  Wow...amazing.  It seems like we just saw each other yesterday.  Funny how those kind of friendships work, eh?  Needless to say...we headed downtown for some shopping, eats and drinks and lots of catching up.  It was hot for sure, but the time spent with a girlfriend and a few drinks made it more than worth the while.

My kitty has been kind of puny lately.  I almost took him to the vet the other evening, but he seemed to rally around and his complaints were mostly food related.  But...he hasn't quite been himself since I've been home.  He's a bit more quite and somewhat isolative but mostly to the couch.  Hmmm...he still has his bright, curious eyes but there is something else behind them too.  I know he doesn't feel good.  I don't know if it's the heat or if he's on his way out of this life.  And if it's the latter of the two, it won't be pretty for me.  Especially since I'm about to start a long stretch of days at work.  It may come down to calling out sick one night while I deal with what may come to pass.  I hope I'm wrong.

Being that I'm often up late at night, I see airplanes high in the sky, making their way across the night.  Although we have a small airport, I know at this time of night there aren't any major flights coming in for a landing nor is anything taking off.  It makes me wonder where that plane came from, where is it going and who's on the plane in these wee hours.  Where is this "red eye flight" taking them?  Makes me wonder....

I have a post "saved" for a possible publish.  It's a bit harsh I think but looking back on previous posts, I was often critical and sometimes quite sarcastic about whatever random topic I chose to write about.  I have that random post finished and ready but I'm hesitant to hit that button and make it known to my readers.  I'm not really sure why.  It's not that I want to censor myself, but I feel like it's a bit immature and possibly mean.  But it sure did feel good to write about something else for a change other than my own life and complaints.  Who wants to read about my bitching all the time anyway?  Maybe I'll post it later.  We all need a change from the current news and our busy lives don't ya think?  Until next time....elizinashe
Keep It in the Shade! 

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Call Me Ms. Cranky Pants


Baby It's Hot Outside! 
Ooo..it's hot.  Granted it is July after all, but man...it's just a bit too hot for me.  And I hate it.  It makes me cranky and irritable.  Especially when I'm running around town trying to tackle all those adult things.  Ugh...when will that end?  Plus, we are smack in the middle of our "busy season" so there are idiots all over the damn road not paying any attention to where they are going or other drivers.  They just go...and then cut in front of you, take up two parking spaces, change lanes suddenly and all that jazz.  Yo, jackass!  It's called a blinker!

Ugh...I really struggle in the summer months cooking and meal planning wise.  It's too hot to cook and my appetite diminishes and nothing sounds appealing.  And then I wait too long to eat, get really, really hungry and then I go out and eat junk.  And as a result, I feel like crap afterwards.  It's a vicious cycle I tell ya.  Where is that pool boy?  Why can't someone else make me dinner and plan my meals?  I don't see how people who live in Florida or hell..Arizona for that matter put up with such hot weather all the damn time.  Especially Arizona.  I don't care if they say it's a "dry heat".  A 110+ degrees is 110+ degrees!  That's too damn hot for me folks!  Bleh!

Needless to say...the evenings bring us summer storms and a slight respite from the day's heat.  Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully I will knock out the rest of my "to do" list as I just couldn't get it all done today like I wanted.  Can I whine some more?  haha...One bonus...I  made a quick trip to the store after dinner for ice cream.  Yep..sure did.  And it was damn good.  This weekend is going to be a doozy.  Our temperatures will be the hottest that we've had so far this season.  I just hope it's a quick one and then we're done with it.  I don't want the rest of our summer to be so stupid hot.  Otherwise, there will be one cranky bitch complaining until no end.  😉  Until next time...
I Need to Be Here! 

Monday, July 10, 2017

So Far, So Good

Mmmmm....Hot Chocolate.
Every January I make a "wish/goal list".  Not a Resolution list, but stuff I want and hope to accomplish in the coming year.  I keep that list out as a shout out to the Universe, as I believe if you "put it out there" those things will come to you.  But I also believe that you have to work towards it as well.  Good things don't always come easily. 

As I sit here next to my computer, my list is to my left with all the little things I have written down.  And as I reflect on my list, I'm doing pretty good in crossing out my wishes.  Granted, I know I won't ever achieve every single thing, but if I get even half of it done, I'd say it's been a pretty good year. 

I've been to three musical events thus far, and one on the way in September.  There are a lot of shows this summer and I wanted to go to each and every one, but that is just not doable.  Maybe next time...I have spent more time with friends doing fun things and taking pictures.  I'm one step closer to going completely wireless television wise and I've had people over for dinner in my new home.  And "tickling the ivories" as they say is habit I'm trying to do more often, especially before I leave for work as it puts me in an easy frame of mind. 

Some of the other stuff...well I still need to work on that but I feel like I'm getting closer to those silly things.  But sometimes you just have to stop and be patient for such things.  Plus, finances always come into play so it's a matter of priority.  Still working on the budget thing.  I think that's going to be a life long process.  I need to be comfortable with that. 

All in all...I may not have done as much as others so far, nor have I made a beach trip like so many others but that's on the list too.  And my plan for the beach is to have some fellow travelers with me and share the festivities.  I think January would be a good time.  The crowds are gone and if you pick the right place, the weather is sunny without being miserable and you still may have the opportunity to have your feet blessed by the ocean.  I think it would be a great way to kick off the winter months don't ya think?  I'll keep ya posted on that one.  Until next time....elizinashe. 
Need to Add This to My List

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Ups & Downs

Who Wants to Take a Drive?
Life sure is funny sometimes.  I've always felt and said, "what goes around, comes around."  So I've always tried to "take the high road" and be careful of the battles I choose.  Sometimes I don't do so well with that and at times, Life bites me back in the ass.  Other times,  I receive little blessings as needed and usually at the right time. 

Anyway...keeping up with the good deeds thing, I found a small, squished battery in a parking lot the other day.  Now most likely, it would not damage anybody's car or poke a tire, as I had recently experienced with a 2 inch bolt in my back tire, but I picked it up anyway and threw it in the nearest trash can.  Wouldn't want anyone to have the same inconvenience that I had just a week before. 

I also found a personal check lying on the floor in the checkout lane at the grocery store on a separate day.  It didn't belong to the lady ahead of me, or anyone beside us, so I handed it to the cashier so she may keep it safe for the short term and hand it over to the manager.  I hope they found the rightful owner, or at least found the person who wrote the check.  I'd hate to think that some stranger would try and cash another person's $150 check just to steal the cash.  That's just mean. 

Speaking of mean people, I go to another grocery store today to pick up a few items before I return to my working week.  I pulled up into a parking space, so all I had to do was pull straight out.  There was another spot directly behind me with plenty of room.  Are you ready for this?  So after making my purchases, I see as I approach my car, that a big BMW SUV is parked rather close behind me.  And as I get to my car, I look and see that they did  indeed park right up into my car.  Their bumper was totally pushing against my tail, totally blocking my back gate preventing me from being able to open it at all.   Not even on micro millimeter of space.  Man was I pissed.  Jackass...I could tell that there was no damage done, just metal pushing against metal.  But still....there is no doubt in my mind that this driver knew that he/she was up in my space.  What kills me is that this BMW had all the fancy bells and whistles like all the newer cars do.  Back up cameras, front end camera sensor, the hands free mumbo jumbo and so on.  You get the picture.  So question is...why in the hell did this person not even bother to back their car up or even stop when they were getting too close?  Fucker...are they that stupid?  Not even a note on my car saying "oops!" Just parked right up in my grill.  What a moron.  I took some pics and got their tag number.  Being that there wasn't any kind of damage, I didn't bother calling the police or my insurance company.  That might of been a bad decision, but the police most likely would not have done much and my insurance company most likely would have increased my rates even though is was not my fault.  So I took the high road on that one.  I'm pretty sure that this driver will have their own "what goes around, comes around" experience.  I just hope that Karma is nice about it.

Okay...so that was a lot.  I stewed about that event long enough.  It's time to put it to rest and let the Universe do it's thing.  I've got other worries that are more important.  In the meantime, always do your best and watch out for the wack-a-doos.  Hopefully Karma will be kind to you.  Until next time...elizinashe.
Throw Me Some Shooting Stars! 

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Digging in the Past

My Uncle David, Aunt Gwen and my Mother
I'm still slowly going through a bunch of stuff that my dad brought out from the house I grew up in.  Most of it is stuff that belonged to my mom, which includes a lot of her family pictures, piles and piles of letters that my grandparents wrote to each other, letters that my mother wrote to them and a box of stuff of my brother's including his senior yearbook.

I looked at his yearbook that first night after dad went to bed.  Man...that was a bit hard.  Shed quite a few tears over that one.  There was another pile of letters that some of his friends wrote when they met in Governor's School which is a special summer program between your Junior and Senior year of high school for the super smart and the gifted and talented kids.  You had to be nominated for that gig by your teachers so that's a pretty big deal.  I read some of those letters when dad left.  Boy did they crack me up.  My brother was blessed with really good friends and they all had a fun sense of humor.  One of the guys I am friends with on Facebook as he & I oddly reconnected many, many moons ago while I was bartending back home and years later "friended" each other to keep in touch.  I quickly sent him some pics of the said letters as I know he would like to see that memory too.  He enjoyed that blast from the past as much as I did. 
Silly Letters for my Brother

As for the other family letters, there are tons!  Dating back from the 1940s and onward.  People wrote long letters back in the day, as there was no such thing as computers, email, texting and the whole social media gig.  I do cherish these letters as it gives me an insight to my grandparents world before I knew them.  Oh the struggles they had...but so much love too.  Good hard working and honest people.  I miss the Hell of of them.  I wish I could go back in time and once again sit in their backyard eating veggies from their garden with ham and biscuits made from scratch.  It couldn't get any better than that.  I have lots of reading to conquer and wonderful memories to cherish.  You just can't put a price on that now can you?  Until next time...elizinashe
What a Piece of History!

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

It's the Little Things

Happy is the Heart
The last few days have been mentally stressing as life tends to be...my anxiety of trying to get things done before I return to work kept me feeling slightly frazzled. 

However, the Universe was on my side and my day ended up being relatively stress free.  I had acquired a big, fat shiny bolt in my tire over the weekend.  Luckily, I did not end up with a flat tire, nor did my tire lose any pressure when I aired it back up on my way to work and it held until I was able to get it repaired today.  My mechanic pulled the sucker out, plugged up my tire and I was back in business.  I had already scheduled an oil change so the timing was perfect.  I am now a proud owner of a 2 inch silver bolt, slightly squished on the head.  I think I will keep it in my car as a deterrent for other bolts to stay away since I've already been poked.  No need for a second sting. 

As I was finishing up my run to the grocery store, I had concerns because I was finishing up right as our "rush hour" was beginning.  Our town has really grown, and sometimes driving down the interstate/beltway if you will, gets to be quite dicey with slow moving traffic and sometimes bumper to bumper action.  The kind of traffic that I absolutely hate.  I have such a low threshold for that kind of stuff.  But, as luck will have it, traffic going home was smooth sailing and I got home just in time to drop off the said groceries and cat food too without much hassle or idiot drivers.  I was pretty relieved to say the least.

I made a quick dash to my local joint for eats and drinks, finished up some laundry duties, saw a beautiful falling star from my deck and got a surprise call from a girlfriend who will be in a neighboring city for about a month for work.  A brief visit and reunion is soon to come.  And as luck would have it, we are both off on the same days each week.  What a blessing.  Looking forward to catching up with a super awesome lady who never ceases to amaze me. 

Yep..June has been busy, hectic and at times quite stressing but it's the little things that keeps me going and eases my soul.  Today has been some of those little things.  And it has made me quite happy and thankful for that.  I hope the little things that come across your way make you smile and your heart happy.  It does for me.  Until next time...elizinashe
It's the Little Things That Make Life Beautiful

Monday, June 26, 2017

Busy In the Head

Dancing in the Wind
Wow..where did the time go? 

I feel like May was a growing, happy and creative month.  June...well..it's been hectic, busy and full of mixed emotions.  It's been a whirl for sure.

My dad came out to visit over Father's Day Weekend.  Over all it was a good visit but it came with crap from home and some emotional moments.  There is still a lot of baggage from the past, current worries and small steps for the future.  Sounds a bit cryptic I know, but I will spare you the details, as there are many.  As one of my good friends had described it when I was giving her a quick "run down" of that weekend, there are many layers to the whole story.  I think I'm still processing it all. 

I've had little time to myself it feels and it will still be a few more days of work until I really have enough time to myself to regroup.  Sounds selfish I know but that's how I rejuvenate and reset my inner batteries that way.  And knowing that, it makes me wonder if I'm really geared for a long term relationship.  Hmm...it's been so long I really don't know how to be a girlfriend anymore, nor do I know how to function in a relationship.  Or at least I think.  I hope I'm wrong. 

Regardless, the quiet time I do have now is a welcomed feeling.  I think I will relish in that for a little while longer.  Until next time...elizinashe
Channeling Some Inner Peace

Monday, June 5, 2017

The Single NIghtshifter

Time for a Refresher
Ask any night shifter and they will tell you that their sleep cycle is always a bit screwy.  Even if they are one of those people who can "turn around" easily, it's still gonna mess with you a bit.

I really don't mind working nights.  In fact, I almost prefer it.  It does wreak some havoc on my body and it certainly weighs on my mentality but the mental part would most likely be much worse if I was a day shifter.  Sometimes I miss working the daylight hours, but the mental baggage and stress would be about the same if not worse.  Plus, there is always more drama in the daytime.  Always.  I don't do drama.  I don't have time for that shit. 

But...being up late at night in your off time has it's perks and the opposite.  Lately I feel like I'm going through the opposite.  It gives me too much time to think and wallow...I know it's just a phase but man...its getting sucky.  Would I be happier working in the daytime like most people?  Probably not.  I've been there and done that and had similar struggles that filled up my little head.  The trick is not to allow all that baggage swimming upstairs make a home and unpack it's load for a long stay.  I refuse to let my current worries and fears plant roots.

I guess what I've been struggling with the most during this phase of mine is the singlehood part of it all.  I'm rather proud of the fact that I've been independent enough to make my own way without having to rely on anyone else to help keep a roof over my head or put food on the table.  But it sure would be nice to have someone around to help with the emotional stuff.  Sometimes it can be pretty hard and scary.  Too much thinking can drive you crazy.  And I'm pretty good at the "over thinking" stuff.  One of my charms I suppose.  😉  But as we all know, this too shall pass.  I just need to move through it. 

I still have lots of conquering to do and fun plans in the very near future.  Gotta get my game back on and send this mental stress out the front door.   Sunny days are ahead!  Until next time...elizinashe.
Open the Door and Let It All Out!

Monday, May 29, 2017

My Where Did the Time Go?

Thank You Veterans ! 
Happy Memorial Day!

This month sure did fly by, or so it seems to me.  Summer is fast approaching folks!  Hope you have something fun planned in the coming months as we all need a respite from the daily grind in our world.

Life is pretty good on my end of the stick and I'm really thankful for that.  I am certainly thankful for our veterans who sacrificed so much without complaint.  Despite our current administration and a complete idiot, we do live in a great country.  I hope and pray that we remain strong and vigilant to fight for our freedom and fight for what is right and true.  And I will leave it at that.

I don't have too much more to say...well, I do but it's a bunch of babble talk so I will spare you of mindless reading.  I no longer want to waste my time on bitching about things that I can't control.  I'm really working hard on keeping things simple and trying to focus on living my life that is fun and uplifting.  Sometimes that's hard.  I'm still working on that.  I suppose it's a life long process.

In the meantime, get out and enjoy the sunshine.  Take a drive, go for a hike, go explore a neighboring city just for the heck of it.  Smile at a stranger, hug your friends and listen to some music.  It's the little things is it not?

Until next time....elizinashe
Make Someone Happy Today !

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Feeling Frenzied

My Brain Won't Stop !
The last couple of days I have been distractedly focused.  Does that make any sense? 

I've been focused on doing some crafty projects around the house, which when I run into complications really frustrates me and then I get angry.  On top of that, I've been running around trying to tackle some necessary household stuff, get some cleaning done and get bills paid so I know how much money I have to leftover to pay off other debts as well as money for play in between my crafty stuff.   Ugh..

I feel like I can't really concentrate on one thing for very long because I'm constantly thinking about other things that seem more important.  I finish one thing and then flutter about trying to finish three other things as the same time which is never really productive because it takes longer to finish the other three things vs just one thing. 

The first crafty project was an epic fail.  That pissed me off as well as made me disappointed in myself.  I hate that feeling.  However, I cleaned up the first failure and began another one.  The second crafty project went better but it's slightly askew which bothers me.  It's just not quite going to work to my satisfaction.  Now don't get me wrong, I'm not completely anal but I do have a certain vision and I do allow mistakes, but for this....just can't do it.  Which led me to an internet search to redeem my "askewity" which may or may not work in the near future when I once again, tackle this one particular crafty project that I must complete as it is a bug up my ass that I must achieve. 

Another pest is my car.  I desperately need to get a peeling paint area patched and repaired.  It's really getting bad and I've procrastinated too long.  It began as a really simple thing...but work calls and it's my only car so getting rides around town is a challenge.  I refuse to take a cab and I have yet to do the Uber thing.  I just don't want some random stranger knowing where I live.  That's just a bit creepy to me...single girl issues.  I'm protective of myself that way.  I did get an estimate before the holidays...yes...I've waited that long...which was doable for the cheaper way but this place would have had my car for nearly three weeks.  Nope...can't have that.  The other guy that I know may be able to do the job more quickly and perhaps more economically, but now that I've waited too long...it might cost me more.  Ugh....the price of waiting too damn long.  Will I ever learn?

Now..you could say this surge of "getting too much done" is hormone related which very well could be true.  But then again...I feel like it's something else too.  As in preparing for something...which I do not know what that "something" might be.  And when I overthink that I drive myself even more crazy.  Maybe the Universe is getting ready to throw something wonderful out my way and when it comes I won't be worried about anything else.  I do hope it's something like that as opposed to the alternative. 

Regardless, I do hope this crazy neuron over-firing calms down a bit.  I certainly could use the energy to really tackle some responsibilities but the distracting fluttering about is driving me nuts.  Maybe it's the chaotic Spring weather.  I don't know...I just wish I could focus and chill a bit better.  Work is looming...I need to move past this phase before I hit the floor- unit wise that is.  Keeping my fingers crossed and my mind untangled.  Until next time...elizinashe
Breathe In...Breathe Out...

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Tidbits...

This Looks So Inviting...
I don't know why so many of my posts begin with cold, rainy weather.  It's rather unintentional but almost consistent.  Guess I should be more aware of that and start my posts from a different angle.  By the way....it really is cold and a bit rainy this weekend.  😉

They say things "happen in threes".  I think we've all seen it if not experienced it.  But it seems that it's usually bad stuff or something stressful and negative.  I keep waiting for the positive kind.  Speaking of the threes, two of my neighbors from home, grown men mind you, have gone to meet their maker as well as one of my former bar guests.  I guess the Heavens gained three new stars this week.  Guess I can count that as a positive. 

Fun vs. Responsibility.  This one is tough for me.  I have a good friend who makes it a point to schedule something fun almost every week around her work schedule.  I think that's super cool not to mention a great way to keep your own mentality in good spirits.  She's way better at planning than myself that's for sure.  But I'm trying to work on that too.  We've got some fun stuff planned and some ridiculous stuff too.  I dig that.  But with all the things on my "bucket list" it's hard to pick and choose without feeling guilty of spending too much money. I've got car and house issues to tackle and my dad will be coming to visit next month so there's more money right there.  I'm trying to get my credit card bill down, even though compared to others, it's not that much but it's enough to make me more aware of what I'm spending and how much.  I've never been one to micro-manage my budget, but I do need to be more watchful.  But as my friend once said, she's going to have fun now while she can because "you can't take it with you".  I like that mentality.  Maybe I should embrace that a bit more.  Small steps right?  Until next time...elizinashe
Unlock Yourself

Tuesday, May 2, 2017

Windy Night, Foggy Brain

I Kind Of Dig This...
Our weather has been quite lovely the last few days.    The nights are a bit cooler than normal but that's okay.  We've got some pretty wicked winds coming through.  Yikes!  Apparently we've got a day or two of some gusty stuff making it's way across our mountains.  I hope my trash can doesn't blow away...I'd hate to chase it down.  Sure does cool things off a bit in the wee hours of the night.  I'm just thankful that I have moved away from the little shack that I had been living in previously as there were many tall trees fighting for space.  Nights like this with powerful gusts always kept me up in fear of a tree falling on top of me while I sleep.  Although I did have trees fall around the property while I lived there,  I was blessed enough to have never have one crash on top of the roof and smash me to bits.  Sometimes I still worry about whoever is living there now, as I am certain that something horrible like that will happen one day.  I hope they will remain safe.

I went back a few years on this thing, rereading some previous posts.  Man...what memories.  I used to be funny.  At least I think so...and more clever.  I guess I"m still funny at times but I think the inspiration to write back then was differently inspired.  Weird animals, fashion shows, silly thoughts, weird internet news...you get the picture.  Perhaps it's because I've grown a bit (?) or maybe the internet influence has changed.  I used to find all kinds of fun stuff, especially if it was weird or unusual but times have changed.  It's all politics, stupid celebrities, food recipes and the "bait and catch" type of stories.  Whatever happened to the stories of the two headed calf?  Or the 14lb baby?  However, we did have a live feed of "April the Giraffe".  The poor thing seemed to be in labor for two months with many anxiously awaiting to watch a live birth.  Guess I could have written about that...haha...And well, I just saw some images from the "Met Gala" with all the stars in their get-up but it's just not worth it to me to write about.  Too many self absorbed people...no fun in that. 

So that's it for now folks.  Just a quick random post.  My mind has been a bit distracted and lazy.  I'm slowly chipping away at my "must do " list but it seems that doing nothing and keeping it simple is taking priority right now.  Work beckons and then I will be done for a while.  I'll tackle the rest in due time.  One thing I have learned, but still struggle with is that it's "okay" if you don't get everything done that you think you're supposed to do.  It's perfectly fine to take your own "time out" and do absolutely nothing.  Because when you do, you end up feeling better and recharged.  Gotta take care of yourself, right?  Until next time...elizinashe
Stop and Take Time to Write !

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Late Night Bits

Green is Good
Well the sun finally came out today after two days of steady rain and a third of off and on showers.  Sheesh!  We surely need the rain but man...it was getting old.  I'm just thankful that I don't have any major leaks in the house as a result.  Counting my blessings on that one !

Spring has sprung for sure.  I swear my Azaleas seemingly popped out overnight and that was before all the rain.  They sure do look pretty.  My guess is that they will grow madly now...at least I hope.  The seeds I had thrown in my pots earlier this month are sprouting green.  I now have quite a few greens sticking out of the dirt.  Maybe I was doing this flower thing all wrong to begin with.  Meaning, start from scratch instead of buying flowers that have already bloomed.  I'm hoping my Grandmother's green thumb is laying her blessings on my flowers.  I do wish I had her gardening magic. 

I'm thinking about ditching the cable like many others and going the Netflix and Amazon way.  I still need internet for sure, but I'm trying to cut costs to save more in the future.  However, my TV is really old.  I don't even have a Flat Screen or a "Smart TV" so how do I hook up the internet to a 15 year old TV?  Plus, there isn't really one show that I consistently watch and I get kind of bored doing the whole "binge watch" thing.  I like to surf...and sometimes my attention span is really short so with cable at least I can click away.  I don't know...guess I will figure it out.  I will miss Paladia for sure.  Which is now MTV Live, but still...it's a good channel if you like music.  And that's all that it is.  Music.  No stupid shows.  Just music.  The heartbeat to my soul. 

Speaking of music, there are so many shows on my 'bucket list' and there are some good ones coming.  There is one dude~Robert Randolph~ that's coming to town and tickets are cheap.  I just might have to go to this one folks.  It's in town and it's very doable.  The Tedeshci Trucks Band is playing in Charlotte in July, Blondie and Garbage in Raleigh in August and Green Day in September again in Raleigh.  Sigh...I can't do all of them.  Or at least I feel..I wish I had a unlimited supply of money so I can go to all the live music shows that I wish.  However, bills come and go, unexpected bumps in the road and there is something called a savings account that I really need to pay more attention to...decisions, decisions....it's hard to choose. 

So what are your summer plans and wishes?  Who do you want to see in concert?  And the cable stuff...ditch it or keep it?  What do you do?  Until next time....elizinashe
I Need More of This !