Thursday, January 18, 2018

I've Got That Itch Again

Time to Spruce Things Up!
The Winter weather is taking its toll.  I've got Spring fever for sure.  I'm ready for some sunshine and warmer days.  I'm tired of being at home because the weather is bad or it's just been too damn cold to go out. 

I look around and begin to think of all the projects that I've put on hold because of one issue or another.  I want to finally paint the guest bathroom.  I want to get some floating shelves.  I want some new furniture.  I want to decorate.  I want to do it all but there is a thing called a budget.  Ugh...

I hate being trapped by money.  My bills are always paid first and then there's food.  The extra stuff has to wait as there is always "something" that comes up and then there goes extra money.  Oh yeah...I could use a real vacation too. 

How do other people do it?  It looks so easy but I know that is not always the case.  There is typically a second income too.  That I do not have.  It's just me and an old man cat.  Which is fine with me, but having another sure would help in general.  I get tired of having to do everything myself.  Who doesn't? 

But alas, all will come together one small step at a time.  That I know.  I just wish I could do all that I wanted to do in one clean sweep.  It's a lofty idea for sure and not realistic.  Unless I win the lottery but we all know that chances of that too. 

In the meantime, I hope you are all safe and warm.  Spring is surely on the way.  That's a given.  Maybe I will pencil in some time to get that bathroom painted after all.  Maybe that will perk things up a bit around here.  Maybe that will get me motivated to do more.  Keeping my fingers crossed on that one.  Until next time...elizinashe.
Now..What Color To Choose?

Tuesday, January 9, 2018

Word

I Like It
per·se·vere
ˌpərsəˈvir/
verb
    continue in a course of action even in the face of difficulty or with little or no prospect of success.
 


Every New Year I usually make up a list of hopes/dreams/goals with intentions of crossing out that list.  Sometimes I do good but I really never knock out the entire list.  It's never an unattainable list, but it's a list.  I don't do resolutions as I feel those are not always realistic nor do I ever stick to them. 

This year I'm adopting a word.  I didn't make a list this time, but instead I want to focus on a word to channel this year with hopes of building my self-confidence and inner strength. 

One of my good friends always adopts a word for the year.  Simple stuff, like "balance", "discipline", "commitment" and so on and works hard to utilize said words in his daily life.  One of my other good friends chose the word "focus" for her word of the year.  I think that will be a good word for her. 

I was trying to fall asleep one night, I was thinking about that hopes/dreams/goals list before the New Year came and I decided to do something different so I won't be disappointed if I don't achieve all that I want to achieve for this year.  So this year I chose a word. 

Persevere.  I kind of like it.  I think it will suit me fine as I have weathered many troubled waters in the past and did just fine.  My mantra of "I will it" during nursing school served me very well, so why not a word for the year?  I have more inner strength inside of this soul that I give credit and I need to honor that.  And during those times when I think I don't, I hope to hear this word ringing in my ears to remind myself that I can succeed and survive whatever crisis, frustration or endeavor I may encounter.  And when I don't hear that word ringing in my ears, I hope someone will remind me to say it out loud so won't forget again. 

Happy New Year Y'all.  I hope you choose a word for yourself this year.  And I hope it serves you well.  Until next time...elizinashe

What's Your Word? 

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Sigh...

Not Sleepy Yet
I'm wide awake and rather bored.  I could tackle some cleaning duties but that's just not happening.  Not feeling it.  I already did some earlier today and the rest can wait.  I'm done. I could start on some crafty projects that have been on the back burner but I'm not feeling that either.  I just can't concentrate that well in these wee hours of the night. 

It's been really cold here.  And gonna stay cold for the next few days.  Ugh...my heat pump keeps plugging away.  I am thankful that it keeps beating.  I'd hate to be without it.  Apparently there have been many in our area that have lost their heat or electricity because the grid is working overdrive.  It's not much of a surprise if you think about it since this kind of single digit temperatures that last for days are quite rare.  But it makes me think how people up North do it.  Minnesota, Wisconsin, Michigan, Canada and so on...what kind of heat do they have?  How do they do it?  My guess is that their power stations are well equipped for such weather.  Not me.  Not this cold.  I give a thumbs up to the said Northerners, they've got balls. 

I have a really good post for the New Year and a new story to tell, but my mind just can't focus on the topic.  It's been swirling around in my head the last few nights when I go to sleep and it sounds really great in my head as I'm trying to fall asleep but I just can't seem it hammer it out just yet.  I still have time.  Maybe tomorrow.  I just have a bit too much on my mind I guess before I head out for my working weekend.  Ugh..

My New Year's Eve was quite peaceful and stress free.  As always, I stayed at home parked on the couch with eats, treats and an old man cat by my side.  We both survived and happily so.  Our weather quickly turned dangerous as our roads were wet and then the temperatures dropped.  And then it got icy real quick.  So glad I got home before all that mess happened.  There were hundreds of people ringing in the New Year stuck on the Interstate for hours.  Glad there weren't any serious injuries.  We should all be thankful for that. 

In the meantime, I hope your New Year was festive and safe with loved ones by your side.  Because that's all what really matters is it not?  Until next time...elizinashe
I Ain't Doin' It

Wednesday, December 20, 2017

Ah, the Holidays...Again..

The Wheels In My Head...
Why is it that the holiday crunch always seems to bring extra unneeded stress?

It's bad enough with the gift giving, sending off cards, making time for family, friends, work and all that other adult stuff.  Let's not forget the horrible traffic either.  Ugh...

My weekend was fine but the last three days have been a bit unsettling.  It's all passing now, but it sure had me wound up for the time.  Work stuff, mom stuff, dad stuff, traffic, cat stuff, meeting stuff, my house is a mess stuff, traffic again, more mom stuff, more phone calls, planning, de-planning, re-planning, restless energy, sour stomach, indecisions, cat complaints, cat worries, mom worries, dad worries, work worries, did I pay that bill worries and of course all before Christmas to which I am in demand prior to and shortly after work wise, with my mother not hearing me that I will be utterly useless Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.  Not that I don't want to be around my mother on those days, but working nights puts me in a bind time wise not to mention needing to be awake and coherent.  Ugh...

And so...here I type while halfway watching a cheesy movie on cable.  Of all the channels I have, they are sucking pretty hard.  Amazon Prime and Netflix is on my bucket list for January.  That's for sure.  Time to catch up and time for a change.  I hope it will keep my interest.  Maybe the money I save in a cable bill will keep me motivated.

Christmas is so very near.   I am so blessed to have wonderful friends and healthy parents.  I have treasures to open and have received lots of cards and treasures in the mail.  I am blessed for sure.  I just hate that I allow my stressors to dictate my mindset.  Sometimes it just feels too much.  But I know it will pass...it just takes a bit of time.  In the meantime, I choose to focus on the positive in the coming days.  I look forward to the New Year coming and leave this stress in the past where it belongs.  Until next time...elizinashe
Fill My Head With Happiness

Monday, December 18, 2017

Tender is the Heart

Love is Precious
I think we all have had our hearts broken a time or two.  Maybe more?  There is always one significant one that's for sure.  One that may still hurt.  One that may hold you back from loving like that again.  One that you may never recover from, even if you have other relationships afterwards.  I don't think I'm in that boat, but I know I keep my heart guarded well and I have known others who never did move forward from that bad heartbreak.  Even if they tried. 

I got inspired to write about such a thing after a movie I watched tonight which also made me think of a card I received for Christmas with a message that makes me a bit sad for the one who sent it to me.  So here I am.  Typing away with no real direction. 

So how do you move on after heartache?  Does the amount of time involved in the relationship count?  Is there a time limit?  What if you never are able to "let go"?  How do you help another realize that they are "stuck" and will not find happiness or a sense of peace until they just let that baggage travel on?  Or is it romantic to keep "holding a flame" for the loved?  Unless, you're some creepy stalker type-but I think you know what I mean.  Or attempting to describe. 

I know for myself, I have had heartbreaks.   I had my significant one in my late 20s.  And it was hard.  Really hard.  But I eventually moved on.  And followed my dream as a result.  I can't complain about that.  I've had others but just not as significant.  Maybe I learned from the big one.  Maybe I learned to be more protective.  Maybe both.

I've had friends who have had much joy and sorrow, many trials of tribulations and celebrations and many wonderful outcomes after a horrible time.  I suppose it's a cycle of growing up and becoming an adult, although I believe we learn to become that said adult throughout our lives. 

I think I've come pretty far.  I've done pretty damn well given the circumstances.  And I'm proud of that.  But when you have loved ones who just can't see the possibilities, the hope and the second chances it makes me a bit sad.  What makes it harder is when you feel what may come to pass, which is never a positive thing, and then outcome will be that much harder.  What do you do? 

I choose to live for me.  I choose to love and support my family and friends.  And I choose to have the wisdom to keep moving forward and not dwell or hold on to the past as it does nothing but weigh you down.  I wish others could see that as well.  Until next time...elizinashe. 
May We All Find Lasting Love

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

I Ain't Doin It

😂 Laugh Out Loud More 😂
Ah, laughter.  It really is a good thing. 

I stumbled across a video that a friend had shared on Facebook a few weeks ago.  I was laughing out so loud that I thought I was going to wake up my patients as I had spied it in the wee hours of the morning.  Turns out that this lady has quite a few videos on her YouTube channel.  And I have watched several.

This woman, Heather Land, is just too funny.  She's like a breath of fresh air.  Apparently she's been doing this for a while now as her previous videos are a bit longer and the editing is a bit choppy.  However, she has certainly perfected her craft and has found a way to keep it clever and quick.  And she always ties it up with the same phrase "Ain't doin' it." 

She gripes about many everyday topics that we all struggle with but without hatred or being demeaning.  She says what we all have wanted to say and bitch about.  And there is nothing political about her videos.  I like that.

In our current state of affairs of bullying, lies, greed, sexual harassment, holiday shopping and work related stress this lady is a welcomed distraction.  And for you parents, she touches on the parenting world too.  Walmart, picking up kids at school and raising a teenage son.  Yep...she's done it all.  And I can't wait for her next rant.  She is too funny and makes my heart happy.  Check out the "Staff Meeting" down below on the link.  You won't regret it.  Until next time...elizinashe

https://youtu.be/N0rwVZs5rkg 

😊 Hope Your Day is Brighter 😊

Sunday, November 19, 2017

Learn From the Animals

Follow Your Tribe
We've all heard the saying "elephants never forget".  I know that to be true. 

Many years ago, I was watching a documentary about a family herd of elephants that some researchers were following.  Now mind you, I'm not in the habit of watching documentaries often but at the time it tweaked my interest so I tuned in for the show. 

So elephants are very family oriented.  They all take care of each other and all look out for the baby.  It truly is a "it takes a village" mentality.  I think that's pretty amazing. 

Why am I telling you about some elephant documentary? (That I watched 10+ years ago.)  Well...I was quite struck and filled with emotion as I watched these animals move through a loss.  There was a pair of sister elephants in this group, one of which had a baby.  As the herd was migrating to their next location for the season, the mother elephant began to lag behind.  The rest of the group began to linger and try and wait for the mother elephant to catch up, but it became clear that something was wrong.  So the sister elephant prods the baby along, the rest of the elephants help push the baby along as the mother elephant stayed behind.  The mother elephant eventually died. 

So the season passes, and the same herd of elephants make their way back to where they came from.  Which meant passing the carcass of the mother elephant that died.  All of the elephants stopped and rubbed their trunks on the remains of their friend.  Including the baby that had grown.  All of the elephants stopped to pay their respects and I assume to grieve as they were making noises and such.  The sister elephant stayed the longest, rubbing her trunk all around her sister. 

I found this level of human understanding quite amazing.  I had tears in my eyes.  I was crying like an idiot over a documentary.  Good thing I was alone at the time.  haha...Regardless, this is something that has stuck in my head for years.  I don't think I will ever forget it. 

I was amazed at the level of compassion, remembrance and empathy that these creatures have in their head.  They have an understanding that we humans could learn from.  Especially in today's world.  Why can't we all be more like the elephants?  There is much to learn from all of our creatures that roam the Earth don't ya think?  I wish more people would think about that a bit more, don't you?  Until next time...elizinashe
Love One Another