Monday, January 21, 2019

Did Ya See It?

Can Ya Dig It?
So tonight was the Super Blood Wolf Moon.  Apparently the first full moon in January is considered the Wolf Moon.  The Super part is because the Moon is the moon is so close to the Earth that it appears to be super large. The blood part is due to the eclipse from the Sun behind and the Moon becomes illuminated.  Got it?  Science lesson done.  haha...

It's super cold out my way.  Single digits.  Winds chills lower than that.  Did I watch the eclipse of the Super Blood Wolf Moon?  Sorta.  I would take peeks out the window and on occasion would step out on my deck to take a good look.  It was pretty cool I must say, but to stay outside to watch the whole thing...no thanks.  Not feeling it. 

As I have said before, the Universe has it's pull on our body and soul.  I'm hoping this celestial phenomenon will bring much more joy and luck for us all.  More importantly, I hope the tides will turn for our country as it is just so unbelievably insane.  And as for myself, I hope it lifts my spirits and renews my inner joy.  I feel like I've lost that lately despite having a good life and wonderful friends.  My mind has been overwhelmed with many feels and burdens which I have allowed to grow roots.  And I know better than to allow such things to happen.

Yes, the air is crisp and very cool.  The wind has been blowing all night long.  Maybe I should step outside a bit longer and allow the wind to take these busy anxiety filled thoughts away.  I have much to do but the weight that I have allowed to sink in my shoulders is slowing me down.  And I hate that.  Ugh.  Maybe the fresh air will do me some good. 

In the meantime, I hope you got a chance to take a peek at the Moon tonight.  I hope that the Universe is kind to us all.  I do need some sort of sign to keep me afloat.  Perhaps that was what the Super Blood Wolf Moon was all about.  Until next time...elizinashe
Trying to Channel the Peace

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

Here We Go !


🎉 Happy New Year! 🎉
Well, the holidays came and went.  The New Year has arrived with all the hopes and dreams that we have announced to ourselves for the coming year  along with all the mounds of food and drink we have indulged the last couple of months.  Have you promised yourself an exercise program?  A new class?  Breaking bad habits?  Getting more involved in your community?  Ya know...all the basics many people say but never follow through.  Or complete if started at all.

As for myself, I really don't make such promises or resolutions.  Hopes and dreams...yes.  I have plenty of those.  I choose to live by example and I hope that will be enough of an impression that maybe, just maybe, others will be open minded enough to see the other side.  Fingers crossed on that one.

This past year certainly has been tough.  We see it everyday.  I hope to God that 2019 will be better.  And if not...I hope that people will make sound judgements to find compromises and common ground for the better good.

My year really was wonderful when I look back and reflect.  I may not have traveled as much as I had liked, but I had some wonderful adventures with friends, I was lucky enough to be at home when Hecubus decided to move on to his next adventure, I've shared some delicious food with friends and neighbors, gifted some peeps with some crafty things, made some crafty things and have had a lot of silly moments.  I really like silly moments.  I think we should have more of them and on a daily basis.  It's good for the soul.

So in the meantime, I hope your holidays were stress free.  I hope your New Year was fantastic and I hope that the coming year brings you all the joy and laughter that you can handle.  And more.  Until next time...elizinashe
💕 This Was My 2018.  Hoping For A Repeat.  💕

Friday, December 7, 2018

It Ain't Looking Good Folks...

😟 Just Trying To Pass The Time 😟
Well...we might be in for a wallup of a winter mess.  Rumor has it that Jim Cantore with the Weather Channel is in town.  You know that ain't good.  He's always thrown in the hot mess of things.  I'm pretty sure I won't be in the mix of things to catch a glimpse of his fame.  Guess I'll just stick with the news.

I'm prepared for sure.  I don't have to work.  I have plenty of food and wine.  I even have four jugs of water "just in case".  However...

I might need more water.  And with the impending doom of a storm, the shelves are looking pretty scarce.  We've had a water line break in my hood.  Ugh...No water since around 2PM.  These guys have been working on the line all freaking day.  Seriously...like since 9AM.  They just left.  Supposedly they will return in the morning.  Fingers crossed. 

I feel bad for them.  Truly.  But I sure as Hell hope they get it fixed tomorrow.  Otherwise I'm screwed along with all of my neighbors.  And the apparent Air BnB folks that have descended on my street.  I have deducted that the last two houses sold have been flipped into the short term rentals that are such a hot thing right now.  I don't want to rain on anybody's parade but I'm kind of not happy about it.  In fact, I'm pretty perturbed.  And what's worse, I can almost guarantee that these visitors have NO CLUE about how dire this winter snow will be and will get out on the streets like idiots.  As long as they don't hit my car or slide into my house then so be it.  Being without water so suddenly sure will be a hardship.  Especially if they don't get it fixed by tomorrow.  Again...fingers crossed. 

In the meantime...I'm trying to remain hopeful.  But I'm also being realistic.  It may not be pretty.  At all.  If I can find extra water tomorrow then I will feel better.  If not...well fuck.  Until next time...elizinashe
👐 Please Dear Jesus...Bring Us Water Back in the Hood!  👐

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Bohemian What?

⚡ Rami Channeling Freddie ⚡
So like many others, I saw the movie "Bohemian Rhapsody".  And yes, it's good.  Really good.  And the guy that plays Freddie ~ Rami Malek ~ was spot on if I must say.

No, I won't give you a whole "run down" of the movie.  Although, the record label was super resistant to releasing the epic "Bohemian Rhapsody" because it was "too long".  However, Freddie being Freddie, found a way to get it out to the airwaves and the fans went nuts for it.  As well as myself back in the day.

I've always loved their songs when I heard them growing up.  And Freddie's voice was hard to forget.  Truly, they were an epic band.  I was bummed all over again after the movie ended because I was reminded that Freddie left this Earth so long ago.  I was sad back in the day when the news came out in the first place.  And today...it still sucks a bit.

My favorite memory of Queen is when I would sneak into my brother's room when he was away with his friends or at school and I would slip Queen's Greatest Hits on cassette, yes...cassette, into his stereo and put on his giant black earphones and lay on the floor, listening to each and every song, every lyric, every note and sing along inside my head and lose myself for an hour or two.  Sometimes I'd listen to it a second time because it was that good.

I somehow inherently knew each song, the lyrics and which song would come next after the last one played.  I remember getting lost in the story of Bohemian Rhapsody and imagining the characters Freddie created in his song, letting my imagination soar with wonder.  There was something about it that I found enthralling.  I think that was one of the very first songs that really impacted me both musically and lyrically as a young kid.  It really caught my attention and still does to this day.

I have no idea if my brother ever knew I would sneak into his room to use his stereo and listen to his Queen album.  If he did, he never said anything about it nor do I have any memory of him telling me to leave his stereo alone.  Other things in his room?  Oh yeah...we had those "Stay out of my room!"  moments.  We were siblings after all.

Long gone is the massive stereo and giant black headphones.  Modern technology has come a long way.  Oh, I can get some modern day headphones alright.  Wireless.  With Queen downloaded on my iTunes.  But there's a part of me that wants the old school way.  There's just something much more special about it regardless of who you are listening too.  Don't ya think?  Until next time...elizinashe
✨ Thanks for the Music Freddie!  ✨

Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Tick Tock...

💞 Time Flies!  Make It Count! 💞
And so the countdown begins...

Thanksgiving approaches quickly.  People gearing up for the holiday travel, grocery stores in a mad push to keep the shelves fully stocked for the Thanksgiving feast and commercial stores taping off the checkout aisles for the Black Friday shoppers preying upon those "door buster" deals.  Are you ready?

I'm sure I've been guilty of hitting the Mall in my teenage years on the day after Thanksgiving, mostly likely due to boredom and a need to get away from the family.  I know one year I worked at the Mall so I was required to show up.  Luckily, that was way before the days of opening up at 5AM.  And Thank God for that.  I've never been a morning person to begin with, but sheesh...5AM?  Really?  I'll stay in bed thank you very much. 

As the years have gone by, my Thanksgiving and even Christmas gatherings have been a bit different.  I suppose if I were married and had kids, I'd follow the traditional route, but Life had a different plan for me, and that's okay.  Sometimes the family stuff just gets to be too much.  I like to keep it simple.  But I do miss the days of when it was less emotional and less stressful.  Sometimes I wish I could have the old days back. 

I really hope people take the time to reflect on what's really important this time.  I know my opinion really won't make an impact, but I have never seen the benefit of leaving the dinner table and your family, just so you can go and camp out at some store so you can be one of the very first in line and stampede through the doors of some store with the intention of filling up your cart with all the "door buster" deals that your bank account can handle.  I think it's sad.  What kind of message does that send to our children?  But again, my perspective on the matter will not change anyone's mind.  To each his own. 

As for myself, I will be working.  Hospitals don't close.  My holiday celebrations will be delayed and that's totally okay with me.  I'd rather relax and detox when it's less rushed and less stressed.  Again, I like to keep it simple.  It's so much easier that way. 

As for you my readers, I hope your Thanksgiving holiday plate is filled with love and laughter.  And good food too.  Please do take the time to enjoy every morsel of time with your friends and family.  You won't find that kind of gift at any door buster deal.  Until next time...elizinashe
😋 This Looks Tasty! 😋

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

It's Been a While...

Yup.  That's Me!  Circa 1975
Yep, I'm still here.  Just haven't made much time to write.  It seems last month was filled with troubling thoughts and worry.  Unnecessary worry.  And some necessary.  I know I wasn't the only one who felt that way either.  My friend Kim was going through a very similar process.  Again...I think it's due to all the crap that we absorb on a daily basis regardless of the effort to ignore it all and find ways to decompress. 

However, this month so far has been a brighter note.  I've been getting crafty again.  Been on a bit of a spurt and despite my kitchen table being a Holy wreck due to the said crafty binge, it's made me happy and has helped clear my mind.  Maybe there was a change in the air that lifted our troubles away. 

I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping too.  Don't freak out.   I'm really not one of those people who "gets it all done" and then some.  I'm really good at procrastinating.  So, One:  I don't have kids.  Two:  I really don't buy a whole lot for people.  Three:  My parents are retired and trying to get rid of stuff, not collect it.  My gifts for them are real simple.  And that's enough.  I'll most likely spend more money on shipping the three packages I need to send vs. the total amount of what I spent on everybody.  Oh well..that's how it goes these days. 

Every now and then I find an old treasure from the pile of belongings that my dad brought out last year.  Every now and then it brings me joy.  Every now and then it makes me sad.  But a lot of it reminds me of what a history has been weaved into my life thus far.  I had a pretty good childhood compared to others.  It certainly was hard at times and it was certainly tragic too prior to high school.  But ya know...I think I turned out okay. 

So on this cool and previously rainy as Hell day, or shall I say night at this point, I hope this blog finds you well wherever you may be.  I think every now and then I gain a new reader which makes me happy.  I hope they enjoy my rants, cravings and ramblings.  Maybe they will remember my site and return to read and peruse my entries.  I must say I do have some good ones.  I hope to keep that habit up.  Until next time...elizinashe
And Yup.  That's Me!  Circa 2018

Monday, October 8, 2018

Just a Swinging...

Grrr...I Am Bluebird!  Hear Me Roar!
No, I'm not talking about that awful song back in the 80s.  You're welcome.  😉

My mood lately has oscillated from sadness to anger to frustration to sadness to really pissed off to whatever just move the fuck on. 

Our news has been indulated ( am I using that correctly?) by so much hate, bullying, crap, bullshit, lies and the support of all of what I just said.  Or typed in this case.  I just can't stand it.  It truly brings tears to my eyes.  I don't understand how people can be so mean and support so much blatant intolerance and accept that as normal behavior.  I just. don't. get. it.

Once again I've been rejected by a guy whom I thought would be different.  No...I wasn't looking for a ring or anything.  But I did believe that for once, I was going to be one of those girls who would have a guy like the others.  I thought I'd actually have a guy in my world that would be my emotional support, my one-plus, that guy I bring to other "couple things" and plant roots in some sort of relationship.  Nope...he decided to do that "disappearing" act.  You know..they stop calling, or in today's times, stop texting, behaviors change, the body language changes and so on.  Jesus...I may be dumb but I'm not stupid.  And once again, I am the one to confront the matter.  Grow a pair will ya?  Be a man and just own up to it.  What's really sad about the matter is that once I did confront him, I get a very basic generic response.  Wow...not only is it sad but it just makes me more angry.  One, you can't talk to me about it to my face but Two, you give me a cold, unfeeling generic excuse.  Christ...grow some balls will ya?  I am an adult after all.  Pisses me off.

Work...well there are changes in the works.  And I'm afraid it's only going to get more rocky before it gets better.  I try my hardest to delegate appropriately and be fair but this passive/aggressive bullshit that is played upon me is getting really fucking old and I'm sorry to say...there are some things that my "helpers" do not get to decide.  It is my job to run my unit as I see best for the patients and by law.  If you go above my head because it's more convenient for you, because you're burnt out career wise, then it's only going to bite you back in the ass and it won't be me that tells on you.  You're doing it to yourself.  Best learn when it's time to go.  I'm not a vindictive person by any means.  But when it comes to patient and unit safety then it is my job to raise my voice.  I won't be bullied.  Screw you.  I've worked too hard to get where I am today.  You're not going to fuck up my world or my unit just because you are tired of having to do real work.  Get out while you can.

On a lighter note, my mother and a long time family friend who was visiting from Texas came over today for a brief visit and a little tickling of the ivories as they say.  Meaning, playing on my piano.  It was a good visit, short and sweet.  Rediscovered some old family pics too.  That was fun.  Over all, it was a nice, chill day which is something I needed most.  Tomorrow is a whole other ball game.  Glad I had some time to relax.  Those worrisome thoughts will rise up I am sure.  As well as all those emotions.  In the meantime, be kind.  Life is too short to be otherwise.  Until next time...  elizinashe
Happier Days Ahead!