Saturday, April 8, 2017

Spring Bits

Let's Bloom! 
Happy Spring Y'all.  The trees are beginning to pop out, people are planting flowers and the giant bumble bees are hovering around.  Ahhh...what a relief. 

Friends in need....I have a friend whom I have distanced myself from due to drama.  I really haven't missed her and I don't feel bad about admitting that.  Sometimes you have to take care of yourself.  And I have.  However, she recently has reached out to me and there is all kinds of crap going on in her world.  To keep it really short, she's getting the help that she truly needs.  That's a good thing.  However, despite the texts and messages that I told her that she had sent to me and apparently to her cousin, she blames me, her cousin and her older son for the predicament that she is in now.  Nope...you did this to yourself sister and you were screaming for help.  Own up to that.  I may lose her completely as a friend but that's totally okay with me.  I don't feel bad for contacting others to follow up on her safety.  I've done it before on another friend and I'd do it again.  I wish her well. 

Speaking of planting flowers...I typically stick with planting after Mother's Day as the old timers do.  But I decided to buy some cheap flower seeds and throw them in my pots that already have dirt.  I typically buy flowers already potted and bloomed out, but I'm taking my chances.  Hopefully I will have some sprouts in a couple of weeks.  We shall see...don't hold your breath. 

I'm going to see this crazy band tomorrow night that I've seen before.  I'm excited.  The first time I saw them they opened for the Dave Matthews Band.  I was impressed.  I knew I wanted to see them again.  And I did.  They came out my way about two years ago.  Man...what a good show.  And now they are returning to the same venue here in town.  This will be a lovely way to spend a Sunday night.  I've really missed live music and I going to make an effort to do it more often as it fills my soul and makes me happy.  One of my girlfriends from work is going to be my co-pilot.  She's never seen them but I'm pretty sure she will walk away amazed and wondering "What in the hell did I just see?".  I'm looking forward to the girly time.  I can always use more of that.

In the meantime, get out an enjoy the sunshine and go have some fun!  See ya later!  elizinashe
Gogol Bordello

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Friends and Fiends

Amen !
I love my peeps.  Hands down, I've got some really good friends some of which are miles apart.  Sometimes it's hard to keep up with each other, but there are plenty of silly texts, catch up emails and random cards.  Somehow we stay connected. 

One of my bestest girlies now lives in Raleigh.  She's one busy chic and it's hard to slow her down sometimes because she throws herself into new challenges, projects and educating herself on top of working full-time while juggling a marriage and parenthood.  I admire her tenacity.  She is always finding a way to give more back to others, throws herself into being involved in her community, her family, her child and pretty much finds something new to tackle for her own curiosities.  And when she gets overwhelmed with all that she does, she's pretty good at reaching out and making a plan to get away from it all.  And sometimes that includes crashing at my place.  I like that.  It gives us time to catch up in person and drink some wine like we have many times in the past.  She's one of my bestest peoples in my world.  Don't know what I'd do without her. 
And She Does !

I remember the day that I saw my childhood best friend.  We were in the first grade.  I saw her walking back to her class after recess.  She was short with dark hair, wearing a Love's Baby Soft t-shirt.  (I'm telling on myself here.  😉)  We became friends shortly after and we are still in touch to this day.  We nicknamed each other "wusband" many years ago-a combo of wife and husband if you will-as a term of endearment for long lasting relationships.  A friendship marriage it is...and a good one at that.  We haven't seen each other in person in a very long time, and we don't talk much because our lives are so hectic but I can certainly say, when something is going on with either one of us, we know.  And then we call.  And it's like time hasn't passed so much.  I guess with a friendship like that you will always be connected in that weird sort of way. 
Many Talks About Our Mothers....

Fiendship.  Yes, I said "fiend".  I met one of my other really good friends on the Internet.  And not in that way as you would think.  We both laugh when people ask "How did you meet?".  It's a fun story to tell because it was so random, but when we finally met in person, it was an instant connection, and no...not in that way.  The original plan was to meet for coffee while he was in town for a couple of days but we opted for wine instead.  That was a much better idea in my book.  The word fiend came up a couple of years later as a typo but we stuck with it just for fun.  I'm not sure why, maybe it's the extra wine we drink when we get together.  Maybe it's just something silly.  One thing is for sure, he & I are definitely connected in odd ways that cannot be planned or known ahead of time.  It's just "one of those things" and I'm thankful for that.  And yes, he's a dude.  I do believe men and women can be friends and close friends at that, without it being weird.  You should try it sometime. 
Yep.

So that's it for now folks.  Until next time....elizinashe

Monday, March 20, 2017

What Do You Do?

It Was a Cold and Dreary Night...
One of my coworkers asked me what I liked to do for fun the other night.  I had to stop and think about that one for a bit.  And I'm kind of glad that he did as it was a heated moment at work that night. I needed a brief distraction from the chaos. 

So what do I do for fun?  Well...I have this thing.  Which has been quite therapeutic and most likely has saved me loads of money in therapy, although I probably could still use that from time to timeIn fact, I met one of my very best friends through this thing.  And that's a whole other story to which I will spare you for now. 

 I like taking pictures and I'm not talking about a bunch of selfies although I've done that too.  I'm talking about walking around and finding odds and ends and trying to capture that in the camera lens.  Vacation time is always good for that which is another thing I need to do more often.  I like finding that arch in a building, a quiet flower or some random object and getting that on film.  I've been lucky a few times and others not so much.  But there is always room for improvement. 

Trying to Stay Calm

I like cooking and trying new recipes that won't take me all damn day long because that's just stupid.  I like having friends over to try the said new recipes, or something more traditional and sharing good conversation and wine.  Can't forget the wine!  It makes me happy to plan a  meal, make a big mess and have special people over and spoil them a bit.  That's fun for me.  

Cards...I like sending cards.  Mostly silly Halloween and Valentine cards but it's fun for me.  I don't think people do such things anymore given modern technology.  I feel like it's a "lost art" so to speak.  I don't even think people send Thank You cards anymore like we were taught when we were younger.  Why is that?  I will spend more money on a stack of silly cards instead of a purse or shoes.  I hate to shop, but card shopping is way more fun for me.  That's not so bad is it?  

Getting crafty...I have my moments.  And I'm slowly getting back into that.  I have a couple of stalled crafty projects that I need to tweak and finish instead of allowing it to collect dust.  I'm pretty good at that too.  I used to hike quite a bit and I really miss that.  Those days were a lot of fun for me.  I seriously need to get back into that.  Not only did it recharge my soul, but it also gave my the opportunity to use that camera.  It was win-win situation.  I think this will be the year to get back into the habit.  Or so I hope.  

Music...I love it.  I love catching live music and I used to be out almost every weekend but that was way back in the day...I've already caught a Ben Folds show last month which was super awesome and next month I have tickets for a crazy band that is returning to Asheville for another show.  I'm really looking forward to that.  I know it will be good.  Music does fill my soul...it is my "go to" in many aspects.  

So..I guess there are quite a few things that I "do for fun".  I've never really thought about it before as some of these things are just automatic and not really planned, although some things do take some planning ahead which is not my forte as I have said in previous posts.  Looking back on this silly little list, I guess I'm not doing too bad after all.  

So with all of that said...what do you do for fun?  Until next time...elizinashe
Mmmm...

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

On A Cold Windy Night...

Calm and Quiet...
Dang is it ever cold outside!  Old Man Winter came back this past weekend and has been sticking around.  And after having nearly 70 degree temperatures too!  I blame the time change.  That "spring ahead" mess screws up Mother Nature and she lashes out.  Seriously...I swear every time we jump forward an hour things get screwy the following week.  Think about it...you know it's true.  

Speaking of this past weekend, I had dear friends come visit along with their 8 year old son.  Whew!  I must say he's a pretty good kid.  He still does not know what to think of me just yet but I think we get along fine.  He knows to be quiet in the mornings so us adults can "get it together" and will listen to his parents when it comes to redirection and setting limits.  He may push it a bit at times, but all in all...he's a really good kid.  I give huge kudos to his parents.  They are such awesome people and they are raising a pretty awesome kid.  It's hard work for sure, but I think they are handling the whole parenthood thing really well.  Good job guys! 

This weekend was my "turn around" weekend which initially it was a bit stressing for me knowing that my sleep would be screwy but I worked it out somehow.  My friends had a "play date" scheduled for Saturday with one of our other friends who has two boys, so that left me some quiet time to clean up, catch a nap and prepare a small feast for my lovelies.  That made me pretty happy.  Along with the time spent with my peeps.  They are truly special people to me and I look forward to having them visit many more times.  

One of my coworkers is having a bit of a "send off" tomorrow night at a local bar/restaurant.  He's decided to hike the Appalachian Trail, solo mind you, from beginning to end.  God I hope he makes it.  I'm really excited for him and I look forward to spending time with some coworkers outside of the unit walls.  But man...it's gonna be cold.  I'm trying to get over that.  It will definitely be a night to layer up!  My other worry is driving at night.  I really don't like doing it so much anymore.  Maybe I'm getting old....regardless it will be an opportunity to get out and have some more fun before I start my long stretch of work.  I need something like that other than cooking at home and shooting pics to a fellow foodie.  haha...not that there is anything wrong with that, but sometimes you just need to break things up a bit, no?  

In the meantime, stay warm and have faith that all will be well soon enough.  Mother Nature can't be all wonky too long.  Sunny skies and warmer temperatures will soon be here.  Keeping my fingers crossed on that one.  Wink, wink.  Until next time...elizinashe
Curl Up and Have a Glass...

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

I Want a Do Over

Who Doesn't Need Colorful Flowers?
Alone time is good.  Too much alone time is not.  And this has been my weekend of too much alone time.  Granted, I had other plans but the whole sudden sick kitty thing threw everything out of whack.  My sleep has been screwy although it has been a bit better the last 24 hours, my plans for relaxing and creativity has been a bit wacky and my mentality has been one big pity party.  I hate it when I get that way. 

Too much alone time gives your brain the opportunity to think too much and dwell on things that you really shouldn't dwell on.  And yes, I ended my sentence with a preposition.  I do that often and I don't care.  haha..

I really have no regrets in my life, but maybe a couple of "do overs" would be nice.  Remember those?  I call a "do over!"    A little blast from childhood days.  Sometimes I miss those times.  Everything seemed so much simpler then.  This getting older stuff can be really hard sometimes.  Especially in my world.  And especially since this past weekend has been horrible.  I wish I could have a "do over" and make it better.

On a brighter note, I do have fun plans for tomorrow night with one of my girly peeps that I haven't seen in a while.  She's a busy single mom of two cutie boys, and being that I work nights, getting together can be a challenge.  But I am a person of my word, and making more of an effort to reach out and make plans with this beautiful person.  I think she's one of the bravest girls I have ever known.  She's tackled many, many challenges and she always seems to come up smiling through it all.  I love that about her.  I hope that I can channel some of that bravery as I have felt weak and disheartened with all the crap that I have allowed to swirl in my head and dictate my world.  I don't want to continue that pattern.  It's just not good for the soul. 

So I will continue on this journey, taking it one step at a time with hopes of finding some joy and rejuvenation.  One small thing I did accomplish is getting some pictures developed with plans adding them to one of my walls and the others sending to my dad.  I think it will be pretty cool.  Especially the one I have planned for my dad.  I think he will get a kick out of it.  That made my heart happy today.  And that's a good thing.  Until next time...elizinashe
Knock and Go In or Take the Steps?

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Not My Weekend...

Feeling Blue....
This is my weekend off.  I had such high hopes.  But alas, life happens.  

I had gone out Friday night for a couple of drinks and a snack for dinner which is typical for a "turn around day" being a night shifter.  That went fine.  But as midnight struck, things changed.  And not for something good.  

My 20 year old kitty Hecubus got sick.  Being a nurse, knowing his habits and having him for the last 20+ years I was waiting things out for a bit.  After some time, I knew that I needed to get him to a vet as his issues weren't subsiding.  Ugh...my only choice in the wee hours of the morning was the Emergency Clinic which I absolutely hate.  I am glad that they are available, and they have saved many lives when it comes to fur babies, but still...I hate going there.  Not only do they price gauge because they can, but they never really listen to me.  To keep it short, I got the treatment that was needed and got a thorough workup, but not only at a monetary cost, but at an emotional cost too.  For me and my kitty.  Although he's doing better, he's still not completely back to baseline.  It still worries me....I'm hoping he will rebound soon once his meds kick in a bit more.  

My friend who I have spoken about before, the one who I've become distanced from and is sick really isn't doing well at all.  She finally reached out to me and I responded as I truly wanted to catch up with her a bit.  She's pretty sick folks.  And I feel horrible for her.  I don't know how her journey will end.  I'm afraid it's going to be a long and painful one.  Her oldest son and daughter-in-law are a big help but I can't answer for her other kids.  They have their own issues.  I wish I could do more but all I can do is be supportive.  I don't regret not being in touch with her more often these last couple of years.  I know it sounds horrible, but I don't.  I do feel horrible that she's having such a hard time and with little support in this new challenge.  It's not good...that is for sure.  My heart really goes out to her.  Is that enough?  

My childhood best friend is pretty sick too.  She's struggled with health issues for a very long time and now because of that,  like there is some new stuff that has become the result of it all.  It's cryptic I know, but it's just too much to discuss here.  We've tried talk and text but that's been a bit tricky with my work schedule and her availability to talk around testing and sleep.  It just sucks all around.  I'm hoping for some positive results.  She always rebounds in some sort of miracle fashion.  I hoping for a positive outcome.  

So in short, it's been a shitty weekend thus far.  And it's almost over.  My world has been turned upside down and not in a good way.  It's been hard for sure...hoping for a better day tomorrow.  Wishing all of us love and positive thoughts out your way.  We all could use more of that don't you think?  Until next time...elizinashe. 
Prayers for All

Thursday, February 16, 2017

This and That

Cold & Quiet
It's cold and windy tonight.  It's a good night to stay parked on the couch cuddled up in your favorite blanket and do absolutely nothing but channel surf.   Fuzzy socks are a requirement.  A four legged fur baby lying on top of you is a bonus.  Extra body heat...

That's pretty much been my night.  I had gone out earlier for dinner but I made that trip quick and simple.  As much as I wanted to socialize more, I was ready to get into my favorite sweatshirt and pajama pants and get on that said couch-fuzzy socks and all.  Does that make me lazy?  I'm afraid that I've gotten too used to that routine...I hope that coming Spring light will motivate me to be more productive.  The Winter blahs are beginning to get to me I think. 

Have you been on a committee before?  Like for work or your community?  School?  Did you like it or was it a " have to" kind of deal?  I've done group projects before during school, but I don't really recall being heavily involved in any groups/committees in high school or college.  I had been asked to be on some Night Governance Council for the hospital along with other nurses throughout the hospital.  I was hesitant to say "yes" but I felt like I needed to do something more career wise and at least lend a voice for our unit. 

But alas, I didn't succeed too well with that group.  To keep a very long story short, I felt like I was doomed from the get-go as the first meeting I had attended failed.  There is a phone number that you can call and be present by conference call in case you can't travel.  So that is the route I chose to do that night.  However, there were three other members on this phone call also but none of us could hear anything nor could anyone hear us.  For those of us who had called in, we could hear each other but that was about it.  Turns out the leader of the meeting "forgot" to turn on the call in feature and therefore we all missed it.  Ugh...and the rest?  Well...it was just uneventful on my end of the stick.  I knew better to agree to be a part of this committee as I just don't do well in that sort of extra group activity but at least I tried.  I now know just to say "no" and move on.  I have since politely removed myself from this Council group and I feel a lot better about it.  It just wasn't my cup of tea...

So what's in store for me?  Well, I certainly need to get motivated to complete some extra schooling that's for sure.  I've procrastinated way too long...one of my charms.  Again, I've gotten a bit lazy.  And it's become a comforting habit.  I need to break that up a bit.  It's the idea of more schooling that stresses me out...but I've done it before right?  Sheesh...One thing's for sure, more schooling will keep me out of trouble and will force me to be more productive at home.  Plus, I could use school as an excuse for my lack of cleaning the floors and bathrooms instead of plain ole laziness and procrastination.  haha...until next time...elizinashe 
What's Your Poison On a Cold Night?