|My Head is a Mess Today|
My kitty is sick and I had to take him back to the vet this afternoon as he's not recovering like he should when I took him three nights ago. It just breaks my heart to take him to the vet, as it stresses him out in a terrible way, and it worries me as well. He's getting old and puny. I know he doesn't feel good and I wish I could just take his discomfort away. But I can't. I just want to hold him in my arms and make it all better. Hopefully the vet will be able to determine what's going on this time around. And I hope it's quick. It's weird to be in the house without him hanging around.
I fell asleep on the couch earlier this afternoon, which I needed a good nap but man...were my dreams ever weird. First, I had a brief period of Sleep Paralysis. If you don't know what that is, look it up and hope you never experience it. It's a very strange and frightening feeling. Then I dreamt that I fell down some stairs, catching myself before I hit the ground and after that I had a really weird dream which involved my father. No, not one of those dreams. Let's get real. I'll just say it was quite disturbing and scared me a bit. I'm pretty sure it's all related to my subconscious and my worries about his health and aging, especially since he's so far away. Regardless, it was a disturbing dream. It's kind of messing with my head.
In the meantime, I'm trying to keep myself busy while I wait for the vet to call and the memories of my afternoon dream waft away. It's not a very happy Sunday for me....it actually kind of sucks. It's been a long, hard week on many levels. Sometimes this adult stuff sucks ass. Wish I would have known this sooner. haha...I'm just moving through the waves. At least my head is still above water. Until next time....elizinashe
|Hoping for a Better Door This Week|