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| Ever Feel Like This ? |
This adulthood stuff is for the birds.
It seems I will never catch up. My house is a wreck. My mom's house is a wreck. Small progress there though. Fingers crossed that the antique lady will take some goods off my hands. And I've sold one piece for sure. Got a dude coming Wednesday to pick it up. So that is a huge thing. After that, I'm just going to hire someone to clear out everything else. I am so fucking tired of this shit.
I have neglected my own home. And the energy here is suffocating. I need to do some more dumping. And a good dumping of all the negativity. Music has been my therapy for sure. Been piddling away at a few things on this hot Sunday afternoon, got two bags of clothes to take to the Goodwill. Christ, did my mom save everything. Including three suitcases of more clothes and bed sheets. Jesus, how much does one woman need? I love my mom. And I miss her terribly but this is not fun at all. And I know she never meant to leave me such a task. But her Life took a bad turn and it was time to put the Big Girl Pants on and follow through with some very tough decisions. Alone. And that was the hardest part of it all.
One little perk of my day, I hung some photos on my wall today that houses many other pictures that I have taken in the past. So I got a little crafty. And that felt good. I hope I can get to a point that I can have more crafty time while there is music in the background. Will I ever catch up?
Do we ever catch up in our duties and responsibilities? Is this a life long struggle? I need to know so I don't continue to beat myself up about getting everything done as it should. And where do I get this from?
I think I'd rather crawl under my blanket fort and color, have some snacks and take a nap. Anyone want to join me? It sure does sound like more fun than this adulting stuff. Until next time...elizinashe
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| Doesn't This Look Cozy ? |
