This year sure has been a doozy.
And it's only May. What more is to come?
Crossed another hurdle as well as my dad. He is finally closer and has a new place and hopefully a new Life for the rest of his years to come. This has been a huge leap for him not to mention way out of his comfort zone but I believe he is coming along nicely. I am thankful that he still has his "cahoots" about him not to mention all of his body parts. Aside from a few teeth which has landed him a partial but as for his hips/knees/shoulders and all of his innards, they are all still intact. At 84 years young!
I am once again the "third wheel". My fella decided he needed to find his way again and without being in a relationship. I understand why one needs to travel a journey alone and find their grounding once again, as I have done in the past oh so long, long ago but this part of my Life is at a loss. I don't think I have fully grieved this part yet as my father was priority this past month. And now it is back to work for me and back to single life. Not sure how I feel about it.
I have much grief to come. My mom died three years ago this month. I almost lost my dad twice if not three times due to his own helplessness and mental anguish. And I know for a fact that I still have residual grief from losing my brother so many years ago. And grief over a relationship that I loved so very much.
I am not sure what the next step for me will be or what is to come. All I know is to keep marching on as I always have. I just hope that I will feel more settled now that my mother's estate is finally off my shoulders and my father is closer and more settled than before.
Now is the time to get my Life in order. I am thankful that I have not totally lost my shit these last three years because it certainly has been a hard road to travel. And one that I do not want to experience ever again. I think anyone and everyone can agree on that bit especially if you have experienced that very same and/or similar road. I pray that there will be better days ahead. I am certainly tired of all the other chaos. Until next time...elizinashe.
