Ah, the Holidays...Again..

The Wheels In My Head...

Why is it that the holiday crunch always seems to bring extra unneeded stress?

It's bad enough with the gift giving, sending off cards, making time for family, friends, work and all that other adult stuff.  Let's not forget the horrible traffic either.  Ugh...

My weekend was fine but the last three days have been a bit unsettling.  It's all passing now, but it sure had me wound up for the time.  Work stuff, mom stuff, dad stuff, traffic, cat stuff, meeting stuff, my house is a mess stuff, traffic again, more mom stuff, more phone calls, planning, de-planning, re-planning, restless energy, sour stomach, indecisions, cat complaints, cat worries, mom worries, dad worries, work worries, did I pay that bill worries and of course all before Christmas to which I am in demand prior to and shortly after work wise, with my mother not hearing me that I will be utterly useless Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.  Not that I don't want to be around my mother on those days, but working nights puts me in a bind time wise not to mention needing to be awake and coherent.  Ugh...

And so...here I type while halfway watching a cheesy movie on cable.  Of all the channels I have, they are sucking pretty hard.  Amazon Prime and Netflix is on my bucket list for January.  That's for sure.  Time to catch up and time for a change.  I hope it will keep my interest.  Maybe the money I save in a cable bill will keep me motivated.

Christmas is so very near.   I am so blessed to have wonderful friends and healthy parents.  I have treasures to open and have received lots of cards and treasures in the mail.  I am blessed for sure.  I just hate that I allow my stressors to dictate my mindset.  Sometimes it just feels too much.  But I know it will pass...it just takes a bit of time.  In the meantime, I choose to focus on the positive in the coming days.  I look forward to the New Year coming and leave this stress in the past where it belongs.  Until next time...elizinashe

Fill My Head With Happiness

Tender is the Heart

Love is Precious

I think we all have had our hearts broken a time or two.  Maybe more?  There is always one significant one that's for sure.  One that may still hurt.  One that may hold you back from loving like that again.  One that you may never recover from, even if you have other relationships afterwards.  I don't think I'm in that boat, but I know I keep my heart guarded well and I have known others who never did move forward from that bad heartbreak.  Even if they tried. 

I got inspired to write about such a thing after a movie I watched tonight which also made me think of a card I received for Christmas with a message that makes me a bit sad for the one who sent it to me.  So here I am.  Typing away with no real direction. 

So how do you move on after heartache?  Does the amount of time involved in the relationship count?  Is there a time limit?  What if you never are able to "let go"?  How do you help another realize that they are "stuck" and will not find happiness or a sense of peace until they just let that baggage travel on?  Or is it romantic to keep "holding a flame" for the loved?  Unless, you're some creepy stalker type-but I think you know what I mean.  Or attempting to describe. 

I know for myself, I have had heartbreaks.   I had my significant one in my late 20s.  And it was hard.  Really hard.  But I eventually moved on.  And followed my dream as a result.  I can't complain about that.  I've had others but just not as significant.  Maybe I learned from the big one.  Maybe I learned to be more protective.  Maybe both.

I've had friends who have had much joy and sorrow, many trials of tribulations and celebrations and many wonderful outcomes after a horrible time.  I suppose it's a cycle of growing up and becoming an adult, although I believe we learn to become that said adult throughout our lives. 

I think I've come pretty far.  I've done pretty damn well given the circumstances.  And I'm proud of that.  But when you have loved ones who just can't see the possibilities, the hope and the second chances it makes me a bit sad.  What makes it harder is when you feel what may come to pass, which is never a positive thing, and then outcome will be that much harder.  What do you do? 

I choose to live for me.  I choose to love and support my family and friends.  And I choose to have the wisdom to keep moving forward and not dwell or hold on to the past as it does nothing but weigh you down.  I wish others could see that as well.  Until next time...elizinashe. 

May We All Find Lasting Love