A Few Tidbits

Let's Keep Her Happy !

Happy Earth Day!  A couple of days late that is...what's your promise to our planet?

Do you ever want to see a house or even live in it when you see a really cool house on a television show or in a movie?  Most of the houses I admire in that manner are typically quite big with really nice kitchens.  And beautiful flowers.  The big city lofts I see are pretty groovy too.  Downtown living, big city life.  I think that would be cool.  At least for a brief bit. 

Work has been, well..work.  I've finally had some time away to collect my thoughts and slowly... slowly get things in order.  You know, the adulting stuff.  Got the yard fluffed up now that the rains have stopped.  Looking at replacing my bathroom sink/cabinet as I truly hate it.  I think I've found a replacement that would give me what I need.  Which is storage.  Might cost me a pretty penny but it will be worth it.  But my overthinking part says I need to paint first.  Or maybe I should do after.  Decisions, decisions...

Apparently we have had  a meteor shower the last couple of nights.  Some annual thing.  Have you seen it?  Did you make a wish?  I was lucky enough to see one.  I'm hoping for another.  I have a small list of wishes that need to be granted.  But don't we all? 

In the meantime, I hope your Spring is beginning to bloom with love and happiness.  Seems like we've had a long, frustrating Winter.  I need something new in my life to get me motivated again and rejuvenate my spirit.  Don't you?  Until next time...elizinashe

Daisies Make Me Happy !

Another Rainy Night

Putting My Faith Out There

The rains have returned.  Ugh.  My tiny yard again will have to wait to get a spruce up for the season.  I am hopeful that it will get done in the next month.  I'm giving myself at least that much time in between work and other commitments. 

The work stuff continues to be surprising.  I get pretty fired up about it sometimes.  I'm want a revolt.  But I can't afford to lose my job.  None of us can.  But I think there are many of us on our unit that are at their breaking point and things are going to get ugly.  And I know it's not just our unit.  It's pretty much across the hospital.  And it wouldn't surprise me if our nurses throughout the hospital start protesting and making some noise on the streets in front of our employer and calling our local TV station.  And I really, really hope that happens.  I'm ready to make my voice heard.  Again.  It's time. 

I think I've got my dad stuff hammered out.  It's way cheaper for him to rent a car and drive out at this point.  But I know there will come a day that he, or myself, will need to fly.  I hope we have more time before that has to happen.  I have a few ideas in my head to keep him entertained and well fed.  A few "daddy do" projects and dinner with friends should be just fine.  He's not much of a "check out some art" or take a brewery tour kind of guy, which makes it a bit difficult for my area as there is so much like that to do around here.  It's just not one of those things that tweaks his interest.  And that's okay.  I'm just thankful that I have good friends who are willing to join us for a dinner to two for the social interaction. 

I'm at the point that I'm ready to get a maid.  At least for a good "one time" clean because between work and all the other shit...I'm just over it.  It stresses me out way too much.  And ignoring those duties doesn't help.  My home is not a nasty mess or anything, just unorganized and a few simple messes.  Primarily the floors and bathrooms to which I loathe to do, so why not hire someone to do just that so I don't feel like a complete slob?  I think I need to make that happen.  If it gives me a peace of mind then it's worth it don't ya think? 

I'm just trying to do my best.  It's pretty much a few days at a time.  And that's enough for me.  Until next time...elizinashe

Just a Reminder

It's Been a Crazy Kind of Week

Let It All Blow Away !

Whew!  What a week.  And it's not over yet. 

Being a night shifter, my week is a bit different from your normal day walker week, even though I've been off the last 6 days.  But for me, it's been a high anxiety, roller coaster kind of unwelcomed ride.

Lots of changes at work.  And sudden ones too.  Which has left everyone in a panic.  Lots of messaging, phone calls, worries and stress with the near future.  And realizing that there is not a whole lot that we can really do about it.  Which is quiet frustrating and frightening.

Hopefully, it will all work itself out after all the said messages, phone calls and support.  Only time will tell. 

My anxiety level was super high the other day.  Not only was I freaked out and very angry about the work stuff, I was also stressing about an up and coming visit with my dad.  I am trying to find a good flight for him as the long drive is a bit too hard on him these days.  And I really worry about him driving 900 + miles all by himself.  Especially when he decides to drive all the way home in one day on his return to my home state.  I bitch about it all the time, but he does get home safely albeit late.  I really don't think he's up to doing that again.  And oh...there's the wanting to reconnect thing with my mother too.  So hard to watch the rejection on his face. 

And of course, I'm frustrated with myself for not following up with my "to do" list that I have procrastinated for way too long.  Ugh...what will happen is that I will run around like crazy to get some last minute things done in a rushed amount of time which does nothing but exhaust me.  I need a helper.  For real.  But I know that's going to be a juggle to get that helper around my work schedule.  Regardless if I work days or nights.  Ah...singlehood. 

Even though my day was unsuccessful in my shoe shopping endeavor, which frustrated me to no end, I am glad that I am home.  It's been a relatively peaceful night and I hope that continues.  My brain tends to torment me when I go to bed and attempt to fall asleep at a decent hour.  I hope tonight will be different. 

The silver lining?  I came across a great quote at the most appropriate time.  I had to read it over and over again just so it would sink into my thoughts and wash all that anxiety away.  It sure did help.  I need to revert back to my mantra in nursing school to keep me pushing forward with success.  I think I've forgotten about it.  Time to bring it back out of it's bag.  Until next time... I will it!  elizinashe

Yes Yes and Yes !