Wearing the Grouchy Pants

Feeling Like This Today

It's a hot today.  Ugh.  Makes me cranky.  There's a cool festival going on downtown and I'd like to go but it's just too hot for my taste.  Plus I really don't feel like fighting the crowds.  So home it is, but I'm a bit bored, a bit depressed perhaps and I have zero motivation to clean my house as it's getting a bit messy.  Well...it's already a mess but it's getting to be a bit much.  I really need to use the vacuum much more.  Good thing I live alone.

I've got the annual boob squeeze tomorrow.  Ugh.  Not looking forward to it, but it's so very important to get that mammogram.  Especially since I've had some minor issues with the girls.  Or Lefty and Poncho as one of my friends from my college days so affectionately dubbed them.  haha...It's not that painful but it is uncomfortable.  It's rather awkward really.  And by the time I leave, I will be hitting rush hour traffic.  It might be a stop at my watering hole for a libation and a snack since I'm still in the "I don't want to cook" phase and therefore allow the said rush hour traffic to move on before I make my way home.  That might be more therapeutic for me anyway. 

I'm in bad need of a vacation.  And not a "staycation".  I need to leave the county borders.  For real.  I used to travel to the beach by myself in the "off season" quite a bit.  I haven't done that in years.  I so need some beach time.  I could care less about the tan or swimming in the ocean all day.  Although I do want to get my feet wet.  But with my busy mind and over thinking charms, I'm afraid to drive the four and half hours by myself.  I fear that my car will break down or something else bad will happen.  Why do I think like that?  Sheesh...too many other experiences of vehicle mishaps?  Oh yeah, I currently have a fat nail in my back tire.  (sigh...)  Found it last night.  At least my tire hasn't gone flat.  It just pisses me off. I swear I'm a magnet for that shit.  And as for the beach?  I still want to go, just not by myself.  I want a companion to join me on the festivities.  It gets lonely doing everything by yourself.

The only exciting thing I have planned for the rest of my day is some take out food and laundry.  Oh yeah, I need to do dishes too but that's an easy one.  Add some soap and hit the power button on the dishwasher.  Thank God I have one!  I went many, many years without one.  I swear, the day I bought dishwasher soap when I got my home was one happy day.  Sounds weird I know but I was so over washing dishes by hand.  I will not go without a dishwasher again.  Ever. 

So that's it folks.  It's a grouchy kind of day.  Just moving through the emotions...there is an ending in sight.  You can always count on that.  Until next time...elizinashe

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