Happy Memorial Day !

Never Forget

Cheers from a cooler home and a very full belly.  Sheesh!  I've eaten way to much this weekend.  And it's not over folks.  Sigh...One more day...

It's been a challenging weekend so to speak.  And what does that phrase "so to speak" really mean anyway?  Guess I should Google that and educate myself, eh?

This AC mishap has been alleviated.  For the time being.  Got a follow up pressure test early Wednesday morning when I get off work.  And then it will be bed time for me as I must return to work that night.  Ah, the beauty of being a night shifter.  I'm not looking forward to it.  This weekend has been one big anxiety party.  Today has been better but it has still been anxiety provoking.  But all of this mess is beginning to wane.  I just need tomorrow to go smoothly.  Otherwise I think I might lose it for a bit.  I really hope that I don't get sick after all of this.  I can totally see that happening and that would be the very last thing that I would ever need.  Fingers crossed on that one.

On a lighter note, I think I've been adopted.  By a stray kitty that has been camping out on my porch and bushes the last three days.  Sigh...this cat is friendly and clearly is used to being inside of a home as he/she keeps trying to come inside when I open the door.  The poor thing even peered up into my windows and the glass in my front door, paws up as if he/she was knocking with pleading meows.  Now don't get me wrong, I love animals and I miss having a cat but this is not the weekend to bring one inside the house.  Not yet.  I've put out alerts on social media but no hits.  I want to take this creature to be scanned for a microchip but my commitments tomorrow don't give me much time.  Nor is my vet office open due to the holiday.  It's just gonna have to wait.  And before you think I'm totally mean, I have been leaving food and water for the poor thing.  I'm not that cruel.  I'm just having trouble with the whole situation given the other factors that surround me right now.  Maybe I can get one of the neighbors to help.  Fingers crossed on that one too.

In the meantime, I hope your holiday will be fun and festive.  It's been a long weekend for many of us.  I hope it's been a relaxing one.  I'm looking forward to my next stretch of time off.  Alone.  In my peace and quiet.  And quite possibly with a new kitty.  Don't know if I need to cross my fingers on that.  We shall see.  Until next time...elizinashe

Can I Come  In?

Adulthood...

😣 I'm Not Ready!  😣

Well, my short bucket list has been scratched off.  Whew! 

House is clean, including the oven, WiFi set up and my Roku account growing.  Amazon app added with a watch list to keep me entertained for a while. 

Dad has arrived safe and sound.  Only two items from the home I grew up in brought across state lines.  No more junk.  A big fat dinner has been had with help from my newly cleaned oven. 

Now...my air conditioning is not working as expected.  UGH!  And of course, with the holiday weekend beginning it would be the hottest weekend we have had thus far.  Really?  Why are the Gods against me now?  I really don't need my "series of threes" to begin now.  But then again, there is never a convenient time for unexpected adult life situations.  I keep forgetting about that.

Tentative plans for an outdoor arts and crafts thing Sunday. The hottest day of the weekend.  Might have to change that.  Plans for a neighbor to join us for dinner Saturday night with another use of the newly cleaned oven and a now warmer house.  Might need to change that too.  The oven part that is...Plans with my mother for a lunch.  Wish that wasn't on the books.  And dinner Monday with special friends at a nice restaurant so my dad can be treated to a "fancy pot roast" aka Beef Bourguignon.  He's a midwest kind of guy so that is how I have to describe a nice French meal, otherwise he'd be quite uninterested. 

Yeah...so kudos to me for getting the bucket list scratched off after many weeks and months of procrastinating.  Thumbs down for the sudden AC shit.  Keeping my fingers crossed that my heating/cooling guru and make some time for me tomorrow. Otherwise I just might cry.  Can't stand being hot and I can't stand unexpected normal life surprises.  Yea adulthood.  Where's my blanket fort?  I might want to color and take a nap.  Until next time...elizinashe

😋 More Of This Please! 😋

Why Do Birds Sing At NIght?

🎵Black Bird Singing in the Dead of Night 🎵

It's a calm and peaceful night.  The stars are out, the winds are calm and my windows are open.  It's a good feeling right now out my way. 

I'm halfway watching some movie and slightly distracted at the same time.  I'm wide awake, restless and I can hear a few birds chirping away in the distance.  Not sure if it's a nightingale.  I don't even know what their song sounds like.  Guess I could Google that but I kind of don't want to know.  I'm just enjoying the late night melody. 

My anxiety level has reached a really good low.  When I reflect back, the last couple of months have been in high gear mode.  And that's mostly work related and of course, my own adulthood commitments outside of work.  And that too, is declining. 

I'm hoping that one of my two helpers I have enslaved for the week will show up tomorrow.  I really need the help for this one small thing.  I've waited way too long and I've put myself on a time line to complete it.  And that day is tomorrow in my head.  Keeping fingers crossed on that one. 

Another "to do", that's more pleasing will be a trip downtown to potentially buy a couple of pieces of art that I saw a couple of weeks ago.  It's a photography piece but it made me happy and laugh out loud when I first saw it.  I just may have to have another look to see if it conjures up the same feeling.  And if it does then it' mine.  I'm due for a treat or two.  Aren't you? 

Until next time...elizinashe

 💫 May Your Dreams Be Sweet 💫

Slowly But Surely...

Happy Spring !

It's been a beautiful day.  I really can't complain.  The said "to do" list has yet to be completely crossed out but it will become a blank slate eventually.  I'm just taking my time while I can.

I keep telling myself that I could do more when I can't sleep or when I can't find anything to occupy my brain, such as now, but alas...I fail to motivate myself to do so.  That's normal, right?

I have some help coming in the next couple of days to assist with the some of the things on my "to do" list.  It will be a great relief when all that happens.  I just can't do it.  If I manage to de-clutter my counter tops and the kitchen table then that will be a big hurdle for me as those areas tend to be my dumping ground.  I wish I could be more consistent about keeping it all clean and organized but it's not my strong suit.  I think it's hereditary.  At least that's the excuse I'm using.  haha...

In the meantime, I will slowly meander my way into the night.  Perhaps I will chip away at a few things before I crawl into my nest.  Small steps, right?  Until next time...

Channel a Peace of Mind

Regroup & Recharge

Breathe In , Breathe Out

The last couple of weeks have been a bit rough.  Work has been difficult, anxiety levels have been high.  The personal "to do" list awaits to be crossed off.  There is much to do in the coming days before I return for my next leg of shifts.  And then it will be a whirlwind of other duties before my father comes to town for a long weekend.

I had plans to join some friends to an outdoor festival this evening.  But...I just wasn't feeling it.  As much as I wanted to get out and do something fun on my night off, I just couldn't muster up the strength or excitement.  Thankfully my friends understood.  I haven't left the house at all today.  And that has felt really good.  I did manage to take a shower and wash my hair.  And that's about it.  Unless you consider opening the door to put stuff in my recycling bin extra effort in being productive.  haha...

There are times when it's just necessary to hole up and be anti-social.  It's how I recharge my batteries.  My body and mind have been exhausted.  Almost to the point that I began to think that something was wrong with me, but I know that's not really true.  I just needed to hermit.  And that's okay.  Tomorrow will be better and I have small plans to chip away at the said "to do" list and tentative dinner plans with a friend Tuesday, although I have some reservations about all of that.  But that's a whole different issue and possibly another rant.

In the meantime, I will continue my sloth like plans for the night and hope to awake refreshed, recharged and renewed.  I hope you have some time to do the same.  I doubt you will regret it.  Until next time...elizinashe

Keep It Simple