Ugh!

Why is it that the little things piss you off so much?  I'm having trouble getting the template page to load on my screen so I can make some changes to my page.  I don't know what the fuck I'm doing wrong but it's pissing me off regardless.  I want something new for this creature called a blog that I started a few moons ago.  So why am I having troubles?  I certainly don't think it's my new virus program that's blocking stuff.  It just seems to be in a stuck mode when I click on the template tab with a series of dots lighting up in a sequence.  Pain in the ass....

It's been raining all freaking day here.  Sometimes it's been quite a downpour.  My landlord just texted me saying to keep an eye out for any ceiling leaks.  He's done this before when we've had lots of rain but it kind of pisses me off too.  Shouldn't he be the one to make sure that the roof is safe and has passed a building code of some sort?  Especially when I've paid rent already for the coming month like I always do?  Jackass....I won't even begin to discuss his leaf blowing capabilities.  Or shall I say a lack of capability.  

I have the same back tire patched twice and the other rear tire patched once.  Apparently I ran over a bed of crapped out nails and a bolt or two.  Lucky me.  I'm pretty sure I picked these scrap pieces of metal driving through a construction zone near the hospital as I was on my way to the community college to talk to an advisor.  However it was discovered during my last patch up which was the day before Thanksgiving that I have some 'dry rot' going on in my tires and that I should replaced them soon before I have a blowout.  Well, crap.  There goes more money out the window.  But I will say this last set served me well.  They are about 5 years old so I guess I got some pretty good mileage out them.  It just sucks that monetary emergencies happen around the holidays.  

I have some outpatient surgery early Thursday morning.  It's a necessary procedure and I wanted this done before the end of the year since my health insurance is going to change January 1st.   I will lose some of my money in my healthcare savings account.  Only half of it will roll over.  But I'm not looking forward to getting up at the crack of dawn without my morning coffee and makeup is not allowed.  Not even foundation.  I'm a pretty self-conscious person when it comes to my naked face.  And I am an absolute bitch without my morning fix.  I'm not looking forward to being sedated.  I haven't been 'put under' since I had my wisdom teeth pulled and that was 20 years ago!  I woke up puking from that.  I sure hope that I get a puke free dose of anesthesia.  And a nice cup of coffee upon revival.  

And to close on a different note, I heard a Stevie Wonder song today which included the lyrics "Look at the clouds in the sky/They seem so happy now", or something like that.  My question is how would he know?  He's blind.  (was that too ugly?).  haha.....so what's new in your world?   elizinashe

Quick Topics

There has been less drama lately which is a good thing. The drama that was swirling all around me wasn't even my drama however it still infiltrated my world. So glad it's gone for now. Work is still a mess but at least I have a job. But I'm feeling the 'burnout' pretty heavily. The only thing that keeps me going is the routine and working with really good co-workers. I just want to get through my coming work week and think ahead later. Sure wish I could take a little vacation and get the hell out of town. Maybe after the new year.....

So the future King of England is engaged. This is certainly big news. I'm not much of a royal watcher however this is the opportunity that the Royal Family has been looking for to re-establish the glory of the monarchy. I remember watching Charles & Dianna getting hitched on the television. It was a hugely global event. This up & coming marriage will certainly be an equivalent. And if it is televised like his dear mother's nuptials were then I too will watch the big shabang. How could I not?

The holidays are fast approaching. Halloween wasn't even over when I first saw the Christmas chaos begin to appear in the stores. It seems that the marketing comes sooner every year. I find it a bit disgusting. Some stores are already opening early prior to Thanksgiving Day enticing shoppers to open their wallets. Some places are opening at midnight on Thanksgiving so jumpstart 'Black Friday'. Other stores are opening as early as 4am. That's just gross. I think it's sad that as a country we are so selfish and material that we would choose to rush the stores before the crack of dawn just so you can save 20% on an item that you or your children really don't need instead of spending that time with your loved ones and creating meaningful memories. There is not a single thing on the market that I would want that badly that would make me get out of bed and battle other shoppers. Nor would I get out of bed to buy said items for loved ones b/c if that's all they cared about then I don't need them in my life.

So that's about it folks. There is always much more to gripe about but I just won't go there. I'd much rather use my evening to vegetate on the couch and ignore the dishes in my sink for a little bit longer. elizinashe

Exciting Update

Blah, blah, blah, boo-hiss, cough, hack,hack, stuffy sniffle, sneeze three times well crap, ugh. Crapola, drama, drama, drama, beeep, beeep, beeep don't want to, stagger, fumble, perkolate ahhh.....squeak, squeak warmth, don't want to get out. Pack, dress, brrrr!!!! Dark, bleary eyed, shuffle, shuffle, click & pull, oh geeze.....seriously? Gripe, laugh, gripe, laugh. Curse, expletives, hit, kick, code gray, what the fuck? Adrenaline pumping, pissy mood, here we go again. Gossip, bitch, gossip, bitch, roll your eyes. Heads butting, staff irritable, crisis pay, worn out, seven o'eight is the magic number. Smoke, headlights on, stumble home. Drop bags, find ugly clothes, ring, ring, beep, beep, beep 'Call Me!', yak, yak, yak, drama, drama, drama, shut the hell up. Dishes, laundry, dishes, laundry, pack lunches. Beep, beep, beep, ignore, ignore, ignore. Pop, gurgle, gurgle, splash yum. Just a little more. Flick and smoke. Purr, purr, coo. Dave. So what's new with you? elizinashe

Happy Fall Ya'll !

Well October has been a crazy month to say the least and it's not over yet! This past month has been so hectic that it has hindered my creative writing skills but I have found time to shoot a few pictures here & there for my creative outlet. I think that has been one of the few things that have kept me sane.

Work has been super wacked out. I can't wait for the smoke to clear. I blame it on poor management, lack of communication, poor parenting, lack of community resources and the changing of the seasons. Somehow Mother Nature always tends to effect us humans. You would think it would be a time of good change and settlement but sometimes change means a huge shake up in a chaotic way before it settles once again. As long as I have some wine I think I will do just fine with whatever change flies my way. haha....

The good thing about the fall season is warm, comfort food. Hearty soups speckled with beans & veggies, root vegetables like butternut squash and sweet potatoes, lima beans, green beans and garlic-laced bread. Funky hot teas and grilled turkey sandwiches. New soup recipes to try and old crock-pot favorites. Coming home to a dinner that awaits your arrival and the smell of good food wafting throughout the whole house with a warm kitty in your lap while you check your email. That kind of stuff is hard to beat after a long day of work.

You haven't been a true pet owner until you have taken a bag of poop to the vet for inspection. And when that happens you automatically keep inspecting the bathroom habits of your pet for follow up. It's humiliating enough when you as a human to 'pee in a cup' for your doctor but I think you reach a whole other level when you take a flashlight to inspect pet poop for further illness or signs of recovery when problems arise.

Unconditional love. I saw a man feed his wife this evening. She was in a wheelchair and clearly had been a victim of a stroke or a brain injury of some sort. She was mentally alert and oriented but her hands were feeble & postured. She tried to hold her fork all on her own but it became a tedious task and relented on relying on her husband to continue to feed her. And he did it with patience and love in his eyes. It made me teary eyed to say the least and comforted in knowing that real love still exists even in old age. It gave me a lot to think about, both good and bad. I just hope that I can be that lucky one day regardless of my health.

So there you go folks! That's it in a quick nutshell. I hope you find time to enjoy the little things of your fall season. elizinashe

10-10-10

There's been a big buzz over today's date. Depending on your take of the matter it's either a good karma day or it's the end of the world. I myself have taken the more positive side of the matter. So on that note here are a few things that I hope that this day will bring to me in the near future.

I wish to lose 10lbs. I wish to increase my income tenfold. I wish to have a more stable career and move on with my nursing school wishes. I wish to travel more and see my loved ones near & far more frequently. I wish to see more concerts, gather more loving and creative friends and take more pictures to document it all. I wish to become a better writer and a better person. I wish to be more patient and less negative. I wish to gain more confidence, strength and wisdom and release all my anger issues so I can move forward in life with purpose. I wish to laugh more and worry less. I wish for color, flowers and great coffee. I wish for more stability and the feeling of being calm. I wish to quit smoking and have a peace of mind. I wish for good health and less tumors. I wish to play all things Rachmanioff and have front row tickets to a Dave Matthews concert and meet him in person. (although I'd probably pee in my pants if I did meet Dave.) I wish to hike more and cook fabulous dinners. I wish for a peace of mind for my father and comfort for my mother. I wish for prosperity for all my loved ones and a strong economy for our country. I wish for doggie kisses and kitty purrs. I wish for children to never know hate and only love. I wish for pride and acceptance for all peoples. And I wish for a funky, loving home of my own so I can share all of my wishes with all my peoples.

So there you go folks. Just thought I'd throw that out there to the universe. I hope your 10-10-10 day brings you much happiness and all good things to come. elizinashe

A Tragic Epidemic

I have been mortified by all the recent news of all these suicides due to bullying. It makes my heart break and leaves me disgusted. There should be harsh consequences for bullying. Clearly not enough has been done. We have lost many young lives and for what? What is wrong with our school leaders? What is wrong with our communities? How in the hell can a bully feel good about being so mean that it leads to a suicide? What is wrong with our kids today?

We have lost many young teens because they were different, odd, disabled, gay or just plain 'not cool'. We have lost bright minds, loving hearts and gracious spirits. There is absolutely no need for this nonsense. How did our kids become so hateful? There was a 16 year old girl in Ohio that committed suicide because she couldn't take it any more. According to the story the girls who were responsible for the bullying even giggled at her casket. That's just plain disgusting. My stomach turns at the thought of those girls and makes me want to vomit. I can't imagine what the victim's family is going through. This is the 4th suicide for the same school in two year's time. Now that's really fucked up!! And all 4 suicides were due to bullying. One suicide is bad enough but four? Seriously folks, something's got to change! If children are our future of the world then what kind of world will we be living in if we allow bullies to continue to ridicule others to the point of suicides? I hope to God that with the recent rash of bullying related suicides that there will be a fire alit world wide and that our leaders will make some harsh laws against this hateful behavior. There is absolutely no reason for this to happen. Something's got to change. I don't think a parent should ever have to say their child died because they were being bullied and decided to take their own life. That just ain't right folks. elizinashe

Quick Stabs

Don't know much about pink elephants however if you're seeing pink hippos then you may not be as crazy as you think. The real thing was accidentally discovered in Kenya this past week hanging close to it's mother and the rest of the neighboring hippos. Too cute, eh? It's not a form of albino-ism but a leucistic gene expression. Never heard of that before but whatever. Apparently pink hippos have been seen before but on very rare occasions being that it is a rare gene mishap. Just goes to show you that Mother Nature is full of surprises.

I popped into Best Buy yesterday in hopes of finding a cd that I've been wanting to add to my collection of other cds that I already have. I hadn't been in Best Buy in a very long time and was quite surprised at the changes. In the past when you walk in you have the typical displays of this and that but beyond those displays there were rows and rows of cds along with a row of 'hot new releases'. I used to wander up & down those isles picking through the masses of music and finding new & old treasures to take home. But yesterday I saw a very compact area of cds. It made me very sad. I think there were about 5 short isles of music that were compressed into a small floor area instead of it's original center floor area. I guess the digital download days have hurt cd sales and the need for that shiny disc is no longer. I supposed it's the sign of changing times. I wonder what's gonna come next.

The weather has changed enough that I started to go through my summer time clothes and began to set them aside and pull out some more fall-to-winter wear. I fail to remember how much crap I really do own and how much of it that I really don't wear anymore. I found two pairs of pants that were hiding on my clothes rack which one of them still had the tags on it. It was one of those things that girls say to themselves ' I'll wear it someday'. And of course, that 'someday' never really comes. I also found some nice tops that I have saved for that 'nice night out' which again has not happened. There's always an opportunity to create a 'nice night out' but I still prefer my blue jeans and my favorite sweater. Besides, last winter was way too cold to wear sparkly tops and a pair of heels. However the majority of us girls tend to buy clothes that we never wear and save clothes that just don't need to be saved because we always find something better or on clearance that we justify in purchasing. Why we do this is beyond me. It's part of our charm I guess. On the flipside of it all, I have weeded out the unnecessary items and I have a bag to take to Goodwill. I do believe I'm getting better at letting go of clothes that I haven't worn in years however I hear that there's a huge sale going on at the mall. When is payday again? elizinashe