Cheers

Just a quick note...no matter how chaotic my life may be or how stressed I am, I am always grateful for the unexpected help and support of my friends, always coming when I least expect it. I am soo proudly independent that it is hard to accept help, but I have grown up enough to know when to take it when the help that is given to me without the expectance of 'payback'. And for that I am truly grateful. I hope that one day I can be one of those people...maybe I already am and just don't know it yet. I just wanted to give a shout out to those who have helped me in the past and now in the present. THANK YOU!! Love to all and may you be blessed many times over!! elizinashe

p.s. still stuck on the nun pics...hope you like it! :)

Making Changes

Greetings my fellow readers. As you can see I've made some changes to my blog. I got tired of the Pepto Bismol pink and needed something fresh. I also figured out how to paste other bloggers that I read onto my page. (yea!) Hopefully as time goes on I will be able to add other bloggers to my reader's list as I get more involved in my own blogging. I do find it theraputic in a creative sort of way. And one of my bestest girls started a blog page during her 1st pregnancy. I am soo proud of her for diving in the writing world. Yea Elisa!! Welcome! Those of you who have had babies must look her up and share the mommy stuff...I haven't jumped into the world of having babies yet, don't know if I really will but that's a whole other story. In the meantime, hope all is well with my readers. Hope you like the new fresh look. Keep blogging!! elizinahse

Lee's Music MEME

So I was at Lee's blog and she had this music thingy so I thought I'd continue the post and play the game. Rules are to put your music player on shuffle and respond to the questions. Hope you are entertained. If you need more clarification, jump on over to her blog: myhypotheticalfamily.blogspot.com. elizinashe

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Thieves Like Us New Order
ah, the memories of those John Hughes films..
2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Dreaming of Me Depeche Mode
whatever..
3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Yesterday the Beatles
how sad!
4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Love Plus One Haircut 100
a happy, dippy 80s moment
5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Wild,Wild Young Men Ruth Brown
YEAH BABY!
6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Reposses My Heart Oreo Blue
damn, right
7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Seven Spanish Angels Ray Charles & Willie Nelson
um, really?
8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
It' the End of the World.. REM
now there's some pycho-babble
9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
You Left Me This Morning Indigenous
not my wild, wild young men!! oh no!!
10. WHAT IS 2 + 2?
On the Stone Dave Matthews
me + Dave =mmmmm
11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I Can't Wait to Meetchu Macy Gray
how very cool..
12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Give it Up KC & the Sunshine Band
yeah man, I'm still waiting!
13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
A Night Like This The Cure
and what a night it is!!
14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Sexy Mistake the Chalets
I think I'm already there...
15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
God Bless the Child Billie Holliday
nice...
16. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Paint it Black the Rolling Stones
I already went thru my 'black phase'..
17. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Love is the Tender Trap Robert Palmer
funny...
18. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Got my Mojo Working Muddy Waters
wouldn't have it any other way...
19. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Painter Song Norah Jones
how lovely..
20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Get Down Tonight KC & the Sunshine Band
let's boogie down ladies!!!
21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Paperback Writer the Beatles
I do have clever friends...
22. WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
One of my Lies Greenday
OMG!!!

Night Shift

So I picked up a night shift tonight due to one of our crew is home sick with the flu. I could use the overtime, plus it would 'force' me into studying being that I have alot of time to kill until 7am. I've written a few notes and looked at some stuff that our teacher has posted on-line, but I'm still not feeling the study habits. I really don't have the motivation to study tonight. Or ever for that matter.(at least this week.) I just hate doing it. I hope that is normal. It's just a little hard to get started and focus on what I need to be doing instead of farting around and becoming so easily distracted. It's really made me question my endurance school-wise. Perhaps I'm just one of those people who doesn't do well in school...I'm not quite sure what the root of my problem is. Although I have a pretty good idea where it stems from.(can't change that one.) It's made me feel poopy about myself and quite guilty. I'm beginning to question my real purpose here and where do I really want to go with my new career endeavor. How do you know what you want to do in life and how do you really achieve it? How long does it take for a person to get where they want to be in life? All of this is normal adult growing pains, right? Why couldn't I have been one of those type A career focused corporate ladder personalities creating my own company and living a jet-set life? Is there a life manual that I don't know about?? I suppose I could go into fashion and create something more ridiculous than my previous two posts and make a name for myself...ha-ha!! Maybe in my next life...hopefully these growing pains will pass quickly...wish me luck. elizinashe

Yeah,um again...What the Hell?

Yeah,um so this is coming from a Japenese designer. So again..WHAT THE HELL?? This is a little creepy for me. Someone help me out here. What in the fuck is this all about? Apparently there is some fashion for those women who don't have arms. But what in the hell is that on her head??? Umm..I'm just more than creeped out on this one. Perhaps they're promoting some new Japanese horror flick character. I just don't know. Sushi anyone? elizinashe

Umm..What the Hell?

Apparently I am behind the times in the fashion department. This lovely outfit was presented this past week in Paris (big surprise) from some Belgian designer. Whatever. I look at this certainly overpriced outfit and think... what in the hell?? First of all, there is not much continuity but then again, we're talking Paris...the French have always been outrageous but when I look at this 'latest and greatest' it just sends my mind spinning. Absoulutely nothing truly matches. There are too many patterns going on here. It makes my brain hurt to look at it. I am most perplexed...Is this some sort of fashion savvy cervical collar? Can this girl actually see out of her outfit? How would she eat? (oh yeah, models don't eat.) Okay, so what about drinking that glass of champagne? (oh yeah, models prefer needles over flutes.) Or kissing a guy? (oh yeah, models are too snooty to deal with men.) I most definately wouldn't want any of my clothes getting in the way of that activity!! (the kissing thing.) That's one of my favorite things to do...I won't mention driving because models usually have limos to drive their drunken asses around. But what about that one stupid woman who will end up buying this shit? (what a waste of money.) Too bad this concoction doesnt' have any fur otherwise the PETA people would be having a hay day over this...it would be off the streets in no time. I hope to God that this doesn't end up on the 'red carpet' somewhere in People Magazine. I'll stick with by blue jeans thank you very much. And if I want to dress up, it will be blue jeans with some heels...just my style. elizinahse

Feeling Blah

Despite having a good week so far I'm having a hard time shaking off the 'blahs' that have loomed over me these last few days. I had a good Valentines spending it with some girls, treating myself to a really nice dinner and dancing to a local band (and in heels might I add!). But as the weekend had progressed and I studied off and on during my working hours for our big test this past Monday I began to feel poo-poo and I'm not completely sure as to why. I have great friends here as well as far away, I'm grateful for the things that I have and strive to achieve the things that I don't. I've been able to stay financially afloat and remain independant from family help and I am welcomed with cheers and smiles at work and in social settings but yet, as of lately it hasn't made me feel 100%. I love my life, don't get me wrong but what I feel like it boils down to is lack of self-belief-slash-confidence as well as lack of real companionship. I am soo sick of doing everything by myself. I cherish my alone time but at the end of the day I still come home alone and that is beginning to suck big time. I know I'm a little goofy at times and I have some anxiety issues at times but it's soo hard to be single these days. It's hard for me to get close to people sometimes, I guess that's a defense mechanism of some sort but I'm a pretty simple girl really. And I'm not the type of girl who sleeps around, just can't do it. That's a good thing I know but still there are soo many guys who just want to fuck around instead of having real conversation or quality time. Am I being too picky?
School is going well so far but I can't apply for the nursing program until 2009. Only because I screwed up on the math review on this placement test. You can take this test only once per application period which is really stupid given that there is such a high demand for nurses here. I'm afraid of running out of motivation with this school stuff. It's really hard to go back to school as an adult and work full-time. It's really a juggle with work duties, studying and all of that other adult like stuff such as laundry, cleaning(yuk), vehicle maintenance yada, yada, yada...I just want to run away to the Greek Isles with my girls and have some fun. I need a getaway but then again the finances come into play. Crap. Maybe one day...I'm just not feeling the good vibes right now. I'm usually naively optimistic. Part of my charm I suppose. I just want to get out of this funk that I'm feeling. It sucks and I'm tired of feeling this way. elizinashe