It's the Little Things

Happy is the Heart

The last few days have been mentally stressing as life tends to be...my anxiety of trying to get things done before I return to work kept me feeling slightly frazzled. 

However, the Universe was on my side and my day ended up being relatively stress free.  I had acquired a big, fat shiny bolt in my tire over the weekend.  Luckily, I did not end up with a flat tire, nor did my tire lose any pressure when I aired it back up on my way to work and it held until I was able to get it repaired today.  My mechanic pulled the sucker out, plugged up my tire and I was back in business.  I had already scheduled an oil change so the timing was perfect.  I am now a proud owner of a 2 inch silver bolt, slightly squished on the head.  I think I will keep it in my car as a deterrent for other bolts to stay away since I've already been poked.  No need for a second sting. 

As I was finishing up my run to the grocery store, I had concerns because I was finishing up right as our "rush hour" was beginning.  Our town has really grown, and sometimes driving down the interstate/beltway if you will, gets to be quite dicey with slow moving traffic and sometimes bumper to bumper action.  The kind of traffic that I absolutely hate.  I have such a low threshold for that kind of stuff.  But, as luck will have it, traffic going home was smooth sailing and I got home just in time to drop off the said groceries and cat food too without much hassle or idiot drivers.  I was pretty relieved to say the least.

I made a quick dash to my local joint for eats and drinks, finished up some laundry duties, saw a beautiful falling star from my deck and got a surprise call from a girlfriend who will be in a neighboring city for about a month for work.  A brief visit and reunion is soon to come.  And as luck would have it, we are both off on the same days each week.  What a blessing.  Looking forward to catching up with a super awesome lady who never ceases to amaze me. 

Yep..June has been busy, hectic and at times quite stressing but it's the little things that keeps me going and eases my soul.  Today has been some of those little things.  And it has made me quite happy and thankful for that.  I hope the little things that come across your way make you smile and your heart happy.  It does for me.  Until next time...elizinashe

It's the Little Things That Make Life Beautiful

Busy In the Head

Dancing in the Wind

Wow..where did the time go? 

I feel like May was a growing, happy and creative month.  June...well..it's been hectic, busy and full of mixed emotions.  It's been a whirl for sure.

My dad came out to visit over Father's Day Weekend.  Over all it was a good visit but it came with crap from home and some emotional moments.  There is still a lot of baggage from the past, current worries and small steps for the future.  Sounds a bit cryptic I know, but I will spare you the details, as there are many.  As one of my good friends had described it when I was giving her a quick "run down" of that weekend, there are many layers to the whole story.  I think I'm still processing it all. 

I've had little time to myself it feels and it will still be a few more days of work until I really have enough time to myself to regroup.  Sounds selfish I know but that's how I rejuvenate and reset my inner batteries that way.  And knowing that, it makes me wonder if I'm really geared for a long term relationship.  Hmm...it's been so long I really don't know how to be a girlfriend anymore, nor do I know how to function in a relationship.  Or at least I think.  I hope I'm wrong. 

Regardless, the quiet time I do have now is a welcomed feeling.  I think I will relish in that for a little while longer.  Until next time...elizinashe

Channeling Some Inner Peace

The Single NIghtshifter

Time for a Refresher

Ask any night shifter and they will tell you that their sleep cycle is always a bit screwy.  Even if they are one of those people who can "turn around" easily, it's still gonna mess with you a bit.

I really don't mind working nights.  In fact, I almost prefer it.  It does wreak some havoc on my body and it certainly weighs on my mentality but the mental part would most likely be much worse if I was a day shifter.  Sometimes I miss working the daylight hours, but the mental baggage and stress would be about the same if not worse.  Plus, there is always more drama in the daytime.  Always.  I don't do drama.  I don't have time for that shit. 

But...being up late at night in your off time has it's perks and the opposite.  Lately I feel like I'm going through the opposite.  It gives me too much time to think and wallow...I know it's just a phase but man...its getting sucky.  Would I be happier working in the daytime like most people?  Probably not.  I've been there and done that and had similar struggles that filled up my little head.  The trick is not to allow all that baggage swimming upstairs make a home and unpack it's load for a long stay.  I refuse to let my current worries and fears plant roots.

I guess what I've been struggling with the most during this phase of mine is the singlehood part of it all.  I'm rather proud of the fact that I've been independent enough to make my own way without having to rely on anyone else to help keep a roof over my head or put food on the table.  But it sure would be nice to have someone around to help with the emotional stuff.  Sometimes it can be pretty hard and scary.  Too much thinking can drive you crazy.  And I'm pretty good at the "over thinking" stuff.  One of my charms I suppose.  😉  But as we all know, this too shall pass.  I just need to move through it. 

I still have lots of conquering to do and fun plans in the very near future.  Gotta get my game back on and send this mental stress out the front door.   Sunny days are ahead!  Until next time...elizinashe.

Open the Door and Let It All Out!

My Where Did the Time Go?

Thank You Veterans ! 

Happy Memorial Day!

This month sure did fly by, or so it seems to me.  Summer is fast approaching folks!  Hope you have something fun planned in the coming months as we all need a respite from the daily grind in our world.

Life is pretty good on my end of the stick and I'm really thankful for that.  I am certainly thankful for our veterans who sacrificed so much without complaint.  Despite our current administration and a complete idiot, we do live in a great country.  I hope and pray that we remain strong and vigilant to fight for our freedom and fight for what is right and true.  And I will leave it at that.

I don't have too much more to say...well, I do but it's a bunch of babble talk so I will spare you of mindless reading.  I no longer want to waste my time on bitching about things that I can't control.  I'm really working hard on keeping things simple and trying to focus on living my life that is fun and uplifting.  Sometimes that's hard.  I'm still working on that.  I suppose it's a life long process.

In the meantime, get out and enjoy the sunshine.  Take a drive, go for a hike, go explore a neighboring city just for the heck of it.  Smile at a stranger, hug your friends and listen to some music.  It's the little things is it not?

Until next time....elizinashe

Make Someone Happy Today !

Feeling Frenzied

My Brain Won't Stop !

The last couple of days I have been distractedly focused.  Does that make any sense? 

I've been focused on doing some crafty projects around the house, which when I run into complications really frustrates me and then I get angry.  On top of that, I've been running around trying to tackle some necessary household stuff, get some cleaning done and get bills paid so I know how much money I have to leftover to pay off other debts as well as money for play in between my crafty stuff.   Ugh..

I feel like I can't really concentrate on one thing for very long because I'm constantly thinking about other things that seem more important.  I finish one thing and then flutter about trying to finish three other things as the same time which is never really productive because it takes longer to finish the other three things vs just one thing. 

The first crafty project was an epic fail.  That pissed me off as well as made me disappointed in myself.  I hate that feeling.  However, I cleaned up the first failure and began another one.  The second crafty project went better but it's slightly askew which bothers me.  It's just not quite going to work to my satisfaction.  Now don't get me wrong, I'm not completely anal but I do have a certain vision and I do allow mistakes, but for this....just can't do it.  Which led me to an internet search to redeem my "askewity" which may or may not work in the near future when I once again, tackle this one particular crafty project that I must complete as it is a bug up my ass that I must achieve. 

Another pest is my car.  I desperately need to get a peeling paint area patched and repaired.  It's really getting bad and I've procrastinated too long.  It began as a really simple thing...but work calls and it's my only car so getting rides around town is a challenge.  I refuse to take a cab and I have yet to do the Uber thing.  I just don't want some random stranger knowing where I live.  That's just a bit creepy to me...single girl issues.  I'm protective of myself that way.  I did get an estimate before the holidays...yes...I've waited that long...which was doable for the cheaper way but this place would have had my car for nearly three weeks.  Nope...can't have that.  The other guy that I know may be able to do the job more quickly and perhaps more economically, but now that I've waited too long...it might cost me more.  Ugh....the price of waiting too damn long.  Will I ever learn?

Now..you could say this surge of "getting too much done" is hormone related which very well could be true.  But then again...I feel like it's something else too.  As in preparing for something...which I do not know what that "something" might be.  And when I overthink that I drive myself even more crazy.  Maybe the Universe is getting ready to throw something wonderful out my way and when it comes I won't be worried about anything else.  I do hope it's something like that as opposed to the alternative. 

Regardless, I do hope this crazy neuron over-firing calms down a bit.  I certainly could use the energy to really tackle some responsibilities but the distracting fluttering about is driving me nuts.  Maybe it's the chaotic Spring weather.  I don't know...I just wish I could focus and chill a bit better.  Work is looming...I need to move past this phase before I hit the floor- unit wise that is.  Keeping my fingers crossed and my mind untangled.  Until next time...elizinashe

Breathe In...Breathe Out...

Tidbits...

This Looks So Inviting...

I don't know why so many of my posts begin with cold, rainy weather.  It's rather unintentional but almost consistent.  Guess I should be more aware of that and start my posts from a different angle.  By the way....it really is cold and a bit rainy this weekend.  😉

They say things "happen in threes".  I think we've all seen it if not experienced it.  But it seems that it's usually bad stuff or something stressful and negative.  I keep waiting for the positive kind.  Speaking of the threes, two of my neighbors from home, grown men mind you, have gone to meet their maker as well as one of my former bar guests.  I guess the Heavens gained three new stars this week.  Guess I can count that as a positive. 

Fun vs. Responsibility.  This one is tough for me.  I have a good friend who makes it a point to schedule something fun almost every week around her work schedule.  I think that's super cool not to mention a great way to keep your own mentality in good spirits.  She's way better at planning than myself that's for sure.  But I'm trying to work on that too.  We've got some fun stuff planned and some ridiculous stuff too.  I dig that.  But with all the things on my "bucket list" it's hard to pick and choose without feeling guilty of spending too much money. I've got car and house issues to tackle and my dad will be coming to visit next month so there's more money right there.  I'm trying to get my credit card bill down, even though compared to others, it's not that much but it's enough to make me more aware of what I'm spending and how much.  I've never been one to micro-manage my budget, but I do need to be more watchful.  But as my friend once said, she's going to have fun now while she can because "you can't take it with you".  I like that mentality.  Maybe I should embrace that a bit more.  Small steps right?  Until next time...elizinashe

Unlock Yourself

Windy Night, Foggy Brain

I Kind Of Dig This...

Our weather has been quite lovely the last few days.    The nights are a bit cooler than normal but that's okay.  We've got some pretty wicked winds coming through.  Yikes!  Apparently we've got a day or two of some gusty stuff making it's way across our mountains.  I hope my trash can doesn't blow away...I'd hate to chase it down.  Sure does cool things off a bit in the wee hours of the night.  I'm just thankful that I have moved away from the little shack that I had been living in previously as there were many tall trees fighting for space.  Nights like this with powerful gusts always kept me up in fear of a tree falling on top of me while I sleep.  Although I did have trees fall around the property while I lived there,  I was blessed enough to have never have one crash on top of the roof and smash me to bits.  Sometimes I still worry about whoever is living there now, as I am certain that something horrible like that will happen one day.  I hope they will remain safe.

I went back a few years on this thing, rereading some previous posts.  Man...what memories.  I used to be funny.  At least I think so...and more clever.  I guess I"m still funny at times but I think the inspiration to write back then was differently inspired.  Weird animals, fashion shows, silly thoughts, weird internet news...you get the picture.  Perhaps it's because I've grown a bit (?) or maybe the internet influence has changed.  I used to find all kinds of fun stuff, especially if it was weird or unusual but times have changed.  It's all politics, stupid celebrities, food recipes and the "bait and catch" type of stories.  Whatever happened to the stories of the two headed calf?  Or the 14lb baby?  However, we did have a live feed of "April the Giraffe".  The poor thing seemed to be in labor for two months with many anxiously awaiting to watch a live birth.  Guess I could have written about that...haha...And well, I just saw some images from the "Met Gala" with all the stars in their get-up but it's just not worth it to me to write about.  Too many self absorbed people...no fun in that. 

So that's it for now folks.  Just a quick random post.  My mind has been a bit distracted and lazy.  I'm slowly chipping away at my "must do " list but it seems that doing nothing and keeping it simple is taking priority right now.  Work beckons and then I will be done for a while.  I'll tackle the rest in due time.  One thing I have learned, but still struggle with is that it's "okay" if you don't get everything done that you think you're supposed to do.  It's perfectly fine to take your own "time out" and do absolutely nothing.  Because when you do, you end up feeling better and recharged.  Gotta take care of yourself, right?  Until next time...elizinashe

Stop and Take Time to Write !